For my sisters and brother-Becky, Cheryl, Jennifer, and Grant

       According to the Greek myth, Narcissus was a hunter who was exceptionally beautiful and proud. He was so proud, in fact, that he rejected anyone who tried to love him. Nemesis, the goddess of revenge, decided to punish Narcissus. She lured him to a pool of water where he was able to see his own reflection. He fell madly in love with himself and stared at his reflection until he died.

      Contents

       Cover

Also by Wendy Walker

       Title Page

       Dedication

ONE: Cassandra Tanner—Day One of My Return

TWO: Dr. Abigail Winter, Forensic Psychologist, Federal Bureau of Investigation

THREE: Cass

FOUR: Dr. Winter

FIVE: Cass

SIX: Dr. Winter

       SEVEN: Cass

       EIGHT: Dr. Winter

       NINE: Cass—Day Two of My Return

       TEN: Dr. Winter

       ELEVEN: Cass—Day Three of My Return

       TWELVE: Dr. Winter

       THIRTEEN: Cass

       FOURTEEN: Dr. Winter—Day Four of Cass Tanner’s Return

       FIFTEEN: Cass

       SIXTEEN: Dr. Winter

       SEVENTEEN: Cass

       EIGHTEEN: Dr. Winter—Day Five of Cass Tanner’s Return

       NINETEEN: Cass

       TWENTY: Dr. Winter

       TWENTY-ONE: Cass—Day Six of My Return

       TWENTY-TWO: Dr. Winter—Day Seven of Cass Tanner’s Return

       TWENTY-THREE: Dr. Winter

       TWENTY-FOUR: Cass

       Acknowledgements

       Copyright

ONE

       Cassandra Tanner—Day One of My Return

      We believe what we want to believe. We believe what we need to believe. Maybe there’s no difference between wanting and needing. I don’t know. What I do know is that the truth can evade us, hiding behind our blind spots, our preconceptions, our hungry hearts that long for quiet. Still, it is always there if we open our eyes and try to see it. If we really try to see.

      When my sister and I disappeared three years ago, there was nothing but blindness.

      They found Emma’s car at the beach. They found her purse inside, on the driver’s seat. They found the keys in the purse. They found her shoes in the surf. Some people believed she had gone there to find a party or meet a friend who never showed. They believed that she’d gone for a swim. They believed that she’d drowned. Maybe by accident. Maybe a suicide.

      Everyone believed Emma was dead.

      As for me, well—it was not as simple as that.

      I was fifteen when I disappeared. Emma would never have taken me to the beach with her when I was fifteen. She was a senior in high school and I was a nuisance. My purse was in the kitchen. Nothing of mine was found at the beach. None of my clothes were even missing from the house, according to my mother. And mothers know things like that. Don’t they?

      But they found my hair in Emma’s car and some people clung to this, even though I had been in her car countless times. They clung to it anyway because if I had not gone to the beach with Emma, if I had not drowned in the ocean that night, maybe running in to save her, then where was I? Some people needed to believe I was dead because it was too hard to wonder.

      Others were not so sure. Their minds were open to the possibility of a bizarre coincidence. One sister drowned at the beach. One sister run away, or perhaps abducted. But then . . . runaways usually pack a bag. She must have been abducted. But then . . . bad things like that didn’t happen to people like us.

      It had not been an ordinary night, and this fueled the coincidence theories. My mother told them the story in a way that captivated audiences and gathered enough sympathy to quench her thirst for attention. I could see it in her eyes as I watched her on the news channels and talk shows. She described the fight between me and Emma, the shrill screaming and crying of teenage girls. Then the silence. Then the car leaving the property after curfew. She’d seen the headlights from her bedroom window. Tears were shed as she told the story, a collective sigh echoing throughout the studio audience.

      Our lives were pulled apart in search of answers. Social media, friends, text messages and diaries. Everything was scrutinized. She told them how we had been fighting about a necklace. I bought it for Emma for the start of school. Her senior year! That’s such a special time. Cass was jealous. She was always so jealous of her sister.