Published in Great Britain in 2015 by Canongate Books Ltd,

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      This digital edition first published in 2014 by Canongate Books

      Copyright © James Rhodes 2015

      Quote from ‘A Poet’s Advice to Children’ from E. E. Cummings, a Miscellany, edited by George James Firmage. Published by Liveright Publishing Corporation.

      Quote from ‘After War, a Failure of Imagination‘ by Phil Klay © 2014,

      Phil Klay and The New York Times.

      The moral right of the author has been asserted

      British Library Cataloguing-in-Publication Data A catalogue record for this book is available on request from the British Library

      ISBN 978 1 78211 337 9

      Export ISBN 978 1 78211 534 2

      eISBN: 9781782113386

      Typeset in Bembo STD by Palimpsest Book Production Ltd,

      Falkirk, Stirlingshire

       For my son

       ‘If we fetishise trauma as incommunicable then survivors are trapped – unable to feel truly known . . . You don’t honour someone by telling them, “I can never imagine what you’ve been through.” Instead, listen to their story and try to imagine being in it, no matter how hard or uncomfortable that feels.’

      – Phil Klay, veteran, US Marine Corps

      CONTENTS

       Prelude

       Track One: Bach, ‘Goldberg Variations’, Aria (Glenn Gould, Piano)

       Track Two: Prokofiev, Piano Concerto No. 2, Finale (Evgeny Kissin, Piano)

       Track Three: Schubert, Piano Trio No. 2 in E flat, Second Movement (Ashkenazy, Zukerman, Harrell trio)

       Track Four: Bach-Busoni, Chaconne (James Rhodes, Piano)

       Track Five: Beethoven, Piano Sonata No. 32, Op. 111, Second Movement (Garrick Ohlsson, Piano)

       Track Six: Scriabin, Piano Concerto, Last Movement (Vladimir Ashkenazy, Piano)

       Track Seven: Ravel, Piano Trio (Vladimir Ashkenazy, Itzhak Perlman, Lynn Harrell)

       Track Eight: Shostakovich, Piano Concerto No. 2, Second Movement (Elisabeth Leonskaja, Piano)

       Track Nine: Bruckner Symphony No. 7, Second Movement (Herbert von Karajan, Conductor)

       Track Ten: Liszt, ‘Totentanz’ (Sergio Tiempo, Piano)

       Track Eleven: Brahms, ‘German Requiem’, First Movement (Herbert von Karajan, Conductor)

       Track Twelve: Mozart, Symphony No. 41 (‘Jupiter’), Fourth Movement (Sir Charles Mackerras, Conductor)

       Track Thirteen: Chopin Étude in C major, Op. 10/1 (Maurizio Pollini, Piano)

       Track Fourteen: Chopin, Fantasie in F minor, Op. 49 (Krystian Zimerman, Piano)

       Track Fifteen: Ravel, Piano Concerto in G, Second Movement (Krystian Zimerman, Piano)

       Track Sixteen: Schumann, ‘Geister Variations’ for Piano (Jean-Marc Luisada, Piano)

       Track Seventeen: Schubert, Sonata No. 20, D959, Second Movement (Alexander Lonquich, Piano)

       Track Eighteen: Beethoven, Piano Concerto No. 5 (‘Emperor’), Second Movement (Radu Lupu, Piano)

       Track Nineteen: Rachmaninov, ‘Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini’ (Zoltán Kocsis, Piano)

       Track Twenty: Bach, ‘Goldberg Variations’, Aria da capo (Glenn Gould, Piano)

       Afterword

       Acknowledgments

       Appendix

      All of these pieces of music are available to listen to for free at http://bit.do/instrumental