Nowhere to Go: The heartbreaking true story of a boy desperate to be loved. Casey Watson
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I hoped we were about to get. Facts we could work with. ‘So,’ Will said, once we were seated and in possession of mugs of coffee, ‘where shall I start?’
‘At the beginning would be good,’ I quipped, nudging the plate of biscuits in his direction. ‘Because right now I feel we know almost nothing.’
Will made straight for a custard cream and popped the whole thing in his mouth, washing it down with a swig of coffee while he used his other hand to open the laptop that had emerged from his bag and now sprung into life.
‘Well, he has told me bits and bats,’ I clarified, as I marvelled at how relaxed and laid back this new social worker appeared to be. ‘I know his real mum was called Fiona, and that all he’s got to remind him of his early life now is a baby photo. And though he’s not said as such, I get the impression that he does remember some of the harsher parts of his early years, I’m afraid. I mean, you do tend to hope that when things happen to them as mere tots they might forget about it as they grow older …’
‘You do,’ John said as I drifted off with my sugar-coated thoughts. ‘Unfortunately, when their life continues to be harsh – as in this case – however, the nasty things never get put to rest, do they? It’s never too late though, is it? To give them a whole new set of memories and experiences. That’s what we’re hoping for with Tyler.’
‘Assuming he can be kept out of trouble in the interim,’ Will concluded, giving us both a wry smile. ‘Which, from what I’ve read and heard, sounds like it’ll be no mean feat, frankly.’
Which kind of burst the bubble. What exactly was in his files? ‘Well, if anyone can keep him on the straight and narrow the Watsons can,’ John told him loyally. ‘So he’s in a safe pair of hands, at least. Finally.’
I looked at John and smiled, acknowledging the compliment, but we both knew there was no such animal as a ‘safe pair of hands’ in our line of work. The only way to achieve that would be to put children like Tyler in secure units and lock the door behind them. And as we weren’t in the business of incarceration that wasn’t an option.
Not that I would ever want it to be, in any case. No, we were much more in the business of cause and effect and finding workable strategies to make progress, which meant I was much more interested in hearing about how a lad like Tyler came to be a lad like Tyler in the first place. Once we knew that, I knew we had a substantially better chance of helping him. There was so much locked inside him that needed to come out.
‘Safe as we can make them,’ I corrected. ‘Though not fail-safe, by any means. So,’ I added, turning to Will, ‘how did Tyler’s story begin, then?’
‘Grimly,’ came the unequivocal reply.
I knew all about grim, of course. We’d heard plenty of grim stories in our time, and I didn’t expect this one to be any different. Kids from all sorts of backgrounds came into care, obviously – the abandoned, the tragically orphaned, the temporarily without a loving family able to take care of them – but there were constants; the stories that came up again and again and again – the stories and the words that made everyone sigh, not least because of their depressing ubiquity. Violence. Sexual abuse. Paedophilia. Drug addiction. Heroin.
And this was Tyler’s word, apparently. Heroin. Heroin had been the loaded gun, circumstances the trigger. As Will explained, Tyler (who had been born some 30 miles away, and whose notes had followed him to us) had been born to a heroin-addicted mother. She had been around 21 when she’d had him, and because she had already been known to social services (she’d been in trouble with the police for possession since her mid-teens apparently), she’d been put on a methadone treatment programme during the pregnancy, in an effort both to wean her off the drug and its evils and to give her unborn baby the best chance.
Giving opiate-addicted mothers methadone was (and is) obviously a good thing, in that it was both an opportunity to take care of them and a step on the road to getting them off heroin permanently, but it still meant that their babies were born addicts as well. This was the case with Tyler, who was born with a condition called neonatal abstinence syndrome (or NAS), which meant that his first days were spent in hospital, while they slowly and carefully weaned him from the drug.
There were apparently no lasting side-effects to NAS – not physically. But how about emotionally? How did starting life with a recovering addict affect a baby? It was a sad but all too familiar story. There probably wasn’t a foster family around who hadn’t at some point come across the horrendous consequences of addiction to hard drugs, either directly or indirectly; the ripples of addiction always spread very wide.
‘Though both mother and baby were apparently doing okay,’ Will added, ‘for a while there, it seems, at any rate. Mum – Fiona, as you say – wanted to turn her life around, get clean, do her best for the baby, and it seems that, with support, she did make a go of it at first.’
She must have done, I knew, because in that sort of situation the newborn child would almost always be taken straight into care. A new baby was upheaval enough for a mother who was well and supported, let alone one so young, so alone and so chronic a drug user. That she managed to cope for any length of time was remarkable in itself – a testament to both her and the professionals looking after her. I knew that from personal experience with my last foster child, Emma.
Thinking of Emma was what prompted me to ask my next question. ‘So was Tyler’s father around at this time?’ I asked. ‘Was he involved in all this?’
Will shook his head. ‘No. Dad – Gareth – was most definitely out of the picture. At this point, no one even knew who he was, apparently. They’d split up early on – he maintained that he didn’t even know about the pregnancy – and she apparently wanted nothing from him, in any case. No, such records as I’ve dug out seem to suggest she was managing adequately on her own at first.’
‘What about other family?’
‘None have been recorded. I’ve looked back through all the notes and it seems she was on her own. Living in a council property. Either no family, or estranged from them. No siblings or half-siblings, as far as anyone was aware.’
‘So what went wrong? Was there some specific trigger?’
‘Not that I can see,’ Will said. ‘The social worker’s notes mention some concerns here and there, but on the whole she was doing okay. They seem to have concluded that it must have been a combination of aggravating factors. She got re-housed when the block she was living in was up for demolition, which could have been key, obviously – you know how it goes. Then a new man apparently came into her life … started her on the heroin again …’
‘And surprise, surprise – it all went back downhill from there?’ John asked.
It was phrased as a question, but we all knew it wasn’t. She’d have been on benefits at that point, not to mention having her own flat. Which would have made her vulnerable. She’d have been a prime target for all sorts of parasites and predators.
‘So Tyler was taken into care at that point?’ I asked.
Will shook his head. ‘No. Would that he had been, eh? No, it’s worse than that. She was always just a hop and a skip away from that, of course – the previous social worker’s made several notes about having concerns – but events seem to have overtaken that. She took a fatal overdose – at home, and probably unintentionally, the social worker thinks; possibly purer stuff than she was used to. And the first anyone knew of it was two days later, when she didn’t turn up for a rehab appointment with her counsellor.’
‘Oh, my God,’ I said, shaking my own head now. ‘That’s so sad.’
‘And it’s lucky she had the appointment scheduled when she did,’ he added, ‘or it could have been even longer before they were found, couldn’t it? As it was, the counsellor had the nous to go round there, thank goodness, and hearing crying from upstairs called the police.’
‘Who then found Tyler …’ I said.