The Night We Met. Tara Quinn Taylor

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what you can’t have, believing the grass is greener on the other side, is part of the human condition.”

      “You make it sound so…normal.”

      “It is,” Nate said. “Listen, if it was easy to make the right choices, there’d be no glory in doing so.”

      His words made me think.

      “You’re a smart man, Nate Grady.”

      He chuckled. “I’ve made some pretty stupid decisions, that’s all, and had to learn from them.”

      I wanted to know what each and every one of them was.

      But I didn’t dare ask.

      

      We moved aside on the walkway to make room for a family dressed in church clothes. The son, about ten, I’d guess, had a stain on the knee of his slacks and his tie was askew. The little girl, with bows in her hair and lace on her socks, was pristine. The sight made me smile.

      “You’ve never mentioned the rest of your family,” I said. “Other than Keith.”

      “He was my only sibling.”

      “What about your parents? I imagine they took his death hard.”

      Hands still in his pockets, Nate slowed. “My father doesn’t know. He took off right after Keith was born.”

      “You’ve never heard from him?”

      “No.”

      “Have you ever tried to find him?”

      “Nope. What was the point? He knew where we were. If he wanted contact, he knew how to get it.” Nate didn’t seem bitter. Or the least bit victimized, either.

      I glanced sideways as we walked, trying to see his expression. “Aren’t you curious about him?”

      “Not really. I vaguely remember him. My mother said he never wanted kids and that made sense. He’d come and go as he pleased, and he never heard me when I talked to him. I don’t think he loved my mom. They had to get married.”

      “Because of you?”

      “Yeah.” Nate nudged a stone off the cement with the toe of his shoe without missing a step. “I suppose he wasn’t a bad guy. He didn’t beat us or anything. Some people just aren’t meant to be parents.”

      I thought the man sounded incredibly selfish.

      “What about your mother?”

      “She loved him.”

      As if that said it all.

      “Do you see her often?”

      “After our father left, she drank herself into liver disease and died ten years ago.”

      “So she didn’t know about Keith.”

      “If the alcohol hadn’t killed her, his death would have.” Nate’s voice was far calmer than mine would have been. “She drank a lot, but only after the two of us were in bed. Or out. She was a great mom, always there for us whenever she could be. She had no family support, which is why I think she fell into trouble with my father to begin with. Yet she raised two boys who knew they were loved, who never did drugs or got in trouble with the law. And she did it all on her own.”

      “In his sermon this morning, Father John talked about God’s work in our society today,” I said, returning without explanation to his earlier question. “He mentioned Jacques Cousteau’s first undersea special on TV this past week. And the space-probe landing on the moon. Man’s potential is limitless. But without God’s help none of that could have happened.”

      “You say that as if you aren’t sure you agree with him.”

      “I don’t disagree,” I said. “Not at all.” Father John was a highly revered priest. I was a lowly postulant-to-be. “But I do think human choice and human will also contribute to scientific achievement. To any kind of achievement. What’s the point of having a mind, of making choices, if we don’t have the power to follow through on them?”

      His nod encouraged me to continue. “Take your mother, for instance. She made choices. They didn’t all work. But she took what she had and made good things happen.”

      “You’re pretty smart for such a young woman.” Nate’s words were teasing, mocking my earlier comments about him. And yet, they held a note of admiration.

      “You sound as though you’re ancient,” I teased him.

      “Compared to you, I am.”

      I slid my hands into the sleeves of my sweater. “How old are you?”

      “Thirty-three.”

      Fourteen years older than me. Which was safer than I’d thought.

      “Say something.”

      “I’m surprised you even find me interesting.” That didn’t come out the way I’d meant it. I wasn’t fishing for compliments.

      “You’ve got a sense of peace about you,” he said, pausing. “A kind of acceptance.”

      I certainly didn’t see myself that way. But he had nothing to gain by turning my head. Our futures were clearly determined, and they’d be far from each other, with absolutely no point of connection.

      “You aren’t shallow.” He started to walk again.

      “Neither are you,” I said, catching up with him.

      

      “You have something I want,” Nate said as we approached the entrance to the park and the moment I’d be saying goodbye to him forever.

      I stopped breathing. And then my racing pulse forced air into my lungs.

      I felt like running. But some impulse held me there, wouldn’t let me go. “What?”

      “A calm and knowing heart.”

      I almost wept. “Oh, Nate, if you could feel it right now, you wouldn’t say that.”

      “You aren’t afraid to face life, to confront your doubts and still head off full force.”

      “I’m scared to death!”

      “On the surface, sure, but deep down?”

      I glanced up only long enough to see the earnest question in his eyes. And without conscious thought, I entered my inner world, the mental space I flowed into when I meditated, looking for the sense of assurance that had always guided me. A world I trusted.

      “Deep down I am content,” I whispered, filled with gratitude at the fact he’d just pointed out to me. I hadn’t consciously realized that my questions and confusions were only on the surface, and that inside, where it counted, I was calm. Peering up at him, I didn’t care that tears fell from my eyes. I understood now what this weekend had been all about. God worked in mysterious ways. Sent messengers in a myriad of guises.

      And at that moment I knew without question that Nate Grady was one of those messengers.

      Chapter 3

      I spent the rest of that day with Nate. I was a free woman—didn’t have to be anywhere. The other soon-to-be postulants who were used to me hanging around the dormitory, studying or joining them in a game of croquet would be curious, but they wouldn’t be disrespectful. Nate called and got a later flight back to Boulder. And we went to a little café not far from St. Catherine’s and talked for hours. He saw so much more than most people did when they looked at daily life.

      “Where’d you learn to play the piano?” I asked as dusk was starting to fall.

      “Taught myself, mostly.” We were drinking hot chocolate. “My grandparents bought a piano and I’d sit down and pick out songs. I didn’t


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