Pilgrims' Project. Robert F. Young
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sighed. My recklessness had netted me nothing. “Yes,” I said.
She withdrew the application from the talk-typer and initialed it. She raised her eyes. “I censored your reference to the forbidden books,” she said. “It would have rated you at least two years in Purgatory if the Marriage Administrator had seen it. You really should be more careful about what you say, Mr. Bartlett.”
I’d forgotten all about the meticulous little machine tap-tapping silently away on the desk. I felt like a fool. “Thanks,” I said.
“One of the reverend psychiatrists will interview you on the top floor. You’ll find a waiting room at the head of the staircase.”
I started to turn, then paused. I didn’t know why I paused; I only knew that I couldn’t let it end like that.
“I wonder,” I said.
“Yes?”
“You obtained a lot of information from me but I don’t know a single thing about you. Not even your name.”
The blue eyes had become arctic lakes. Then, suddenly, they filled with the sparkling warmth of spring. A smile dawned on her lips and her face became a sunrise.
“Julia,” she said. “Julia Prentice.”
“I’m glad to have known you,” I said.
“And I, you, Mr. Bartlett. And now if you’ll please excuse me, there are other applicants waiting.”
There were—a whole benchful of them. I walked past them glumly, hating them, hating myself, hating a society that would not permit me to choose my own mate; but most of all hating Big Cupid, the mechanized matchmaker that would choose for me.
I paused at the foot of the stone staircase, turned for a final look at Julia. She was interviewing the next applicant. She had forgotten me already.
But someone else in the departmented chamber hadn’t. The gaunt MEP captain was more absorbed in me than ever. And, judging from his expression, he no longer merely disapproved of me—he despised me.
Why? Had he overheard my conversation with Julia? I did not think so. With the confused murmur of hundreds of other voices all around him, he could scarcely have singled out mine, especially in view of the fact that I had spoken softly.
But perhaps not softly enough. In any event, he was looking at me as though I were a hopeless habitué of Vanity Fair desperately in need of an Evangelist. I felt like walking over to his desk and asking him the way to the Celestial City. But I didn’t. You don’t make flippant remarks to MEP officers, particularly when those remarks involve one of the Five Books. You don’t, if you want to stay out of Purgatory.
Instead, I turned and started up the stairs to the eyrie of the reverend psychiatrists.
CHAPTER II
It was late afternoon by the time I got out of the Marriage Administration Building. The sun, red and swollen from the spring dust storms, was just disappearing behind the distant elevators of the plankton conversion plant, and the sky was beginning to lose its coppery haze. I hailed a rickshaw, leaned back in the plastic chair and let the June wind cool my face.
The street murmured with the whir of rickshaw wheels and the rhythmic pounding of runners’ feet. The Marriage Administration Building faded into the lengthening shadows. The Cathedral drifted grayly by, the tiny windows of its serried chapels glinting red in the final rays of the sun. Then the massive pile of the Coliseum, silent and somber and brooding. In the distance, the hives towered darkly into the sky.
The Coliseum gave way to the parsonage apartments. Prim facades frowned down on me with narrow-windowed righteousness. I shifted uneasily in my rickshaw seat. If my surreptitious reading of the forbidden books had given me a new perspective on the Age of Repentance, it had also given me a troubled conscience.
Just the same, I knew that as soon as the next book “collection” got under way, I would offer my services to the Literature Police just as I’d done a dozen times before. And if my luck held, and I was assigned to sentry duty in the book dump, I would read just as many forbidden volumes as I could every time I got the chance. Moreover, this time I would risk Purgatory and try to save a few of them from the flames.
The parsonage apartments petered out and the noisome market area took their place. Rickshaw traffic densened, competed with hurrying pedestrians. Plastic heels clacked and ankle-length skirts swished in the gloom. The hives occluded the sky now, and the stench of cramped humanity rode the night wind.
I dropped a steel piece into the runner’s hand when he pulled up before my hive. I tipped him a plastic quarter when he handed me my change. I could feel the loneliness already, the crushing loneliness that comes to all men who live in faceless crowds.
But I didn’t regret having come to the hives to live. They were no lonelier than the YMCA had been. And three rooms, no matter how small, were certainly preferable to the cramped little cubicle I had occupied during the years immediately following my parents’ suicide.
A long time ago—a century perhaps, maybe more—the hives bore the more euphemistic name of “apartment houses.” But they had corridors then instead of yard-wide passageways, elevators instead of narrow stairways, rooms instead of roomettes. Those were the years before the metal crisis, before the population upsurge; the years that constituted the Age of Wanton Waste.
Deploring the appetites of one’s ancestors is a frustrating pastime. I did not indulge in it now. Climbing the four flights of stairs to my apartment, I thought instead of my imminent marriage, hoping to take the edge off my loneliness.
I concentrated on my wife-to-be. A wife, according to the pamphlet that had accompanied my marriage summons, guaranteed to be my ideal mate, emotionally, intellectually, and physically. A wife who would personify my unconscious conception of a goddess, who would fulfill my unconscious standards of feminine beauty, who would administer faithfully to my unconscious emotional needs. In short, just exactly the kind of woman I had unconsciously wanted all my miserable lonely life.
I tried to picture her. I threw everything out of my mind and left my mental retina blank. It did not remain blank for long. Gradually, the twentieth century landscape came into focus—the river flowing in the foreground, bluer than before, the green sea of the meadow spreading out to the exquisite forested hills, the impeccable cumulus mountain, and finally, the solitary bird soaring in the vast sky....
I prepared and ate a frugal meal in the kitchenette, then I shaved, went into the bedroomette and changed into my sentry suit. I was combing my shoulder-length hair when the knock on the door sounded.
I waited, listening for the knock to sound again. I knew practically no one in the city, save the members of my own guard detail, and it was unlikely that any of them would visit me. They saw enough of me on the graveyard shift.
Who, then?
The knock sounded again, rising unmistakably above the background noises of the hive—the dull clatter of plastic pots and pans and dishes, the nagging voices of wives, the strident ones of husbands, and the whining of children. I land down my comb, left the bedroomette, stepped across the parlorette, opened the door—and stepped back involuntarily.
The MEP captain had been seated when I had seen him at Marriage Administration Headquarters, and I hadn’t been particularly impressed by his size. Standing, he was an arresting sight. The top of his high, wide-brimmed hat touched the ceiling of the passageway; the charcoal coat that hung so loosely on his shoulders could not conceal their striking width; large bony wrists with huge arthritic hands protruded from their cuffs. He looked like a giant who had never had enough to eat.
As I stood staring, he removed his hat and, reaching into an inside pocket of his coat, produced a stained plastic badge. He waved it briefly before my eyes, then replaced it. “Captain Taigue,” he said in a voice as thin and unpleasant as his face. “I have a few questions to ask you, Mr. Bartlett.”
The shock of finding him on my doorstep had left me numb. But I remembered my rights. “You’ve