Beach Lane. Sherryl Woods
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what the stupid bed is for.”
Susie smiled despite herself. “I’m pretty sure Mack has sufficient experience with beds to know what to do in one. I’m kind of counting on that,” she said wistfully.
“And yet how many times have you reiterated to him that all that experience is precisely why you won’t date him?”
“I have done this to myself, haven’t I?” Susie said despondently. “It started out as a defense mechanism, but Mack took all those protests to heart, and now neither one of us knows how to change the dynamics between us.”
“It’s pitiful, that’s for sure,” Shanna said.
“What do I do?”
“You could start by telling him what you really want,” Shanna suggested. “I hear that’s the mature way to go about these things.”
Susie winced. “And risk total humiliation?”
“Or get exactly what you want,” Shanna countered.
“I’ll think about it,” Susie said eventually. “Of course, telling Mack what I want when he’s not even answering his phone could prove to be tricky.”
“Then go over to his apartment,” Shanna suggested.
“Will and Jake said he needs time to deal with whatever is going on.”
“They’re men. What do they know? At the very least, keep calling until he can’t stand listening to your voice on his answering machine and either takes your call or calls you back. This is no time to be faint of heart, Susie. Go after what you want.”
“And if I fail?”
Shanna gave her a commiserating look. “Will you really be any worse off than you are now?”
“What if I lose him for good? At least now we’re friends.”
“I repeat, will you really be any worse off than you are now? No matter how often you say it to me or to yourself, it’s obvious that just being his friend isn’t cutting it for you anymore.” She looked into Susie’s eyes. “Or am I wrong about that?”
Susie sighed. “No, you’re not wrong. I want more. I want it all, everything you have with Kevin, everything Abby, Jess and Bree have found with the men in their lives. I even grew up with perfect examples all around me, at least when it came to my parents. Even Uncle Mick and Megan finally got it right.”
“Okay, then, do whatever it takes to get what the rest of us have. Personally, I don’t think there’s the slightest risk in hell that Mack is going to reject you. In fact, I think he’ll welcome you taking the initiative.”
“Maybe,” Susie said, though she still had her doubts. Hundreds of them, in fact.
Then again, something had to change. Limbo had been bad enough. She certainly wasn’t going to let herself wallow in misery.
“Thanks, Shanna,” she said, giving her friend a hug.
“Keep me posted, okay? I’m here anytime you need me. The whole family’s on your side, you know.” She grinned. “Especially your uncle Mick. In fact, if you need motivation, just remember that resolving this yourself will be a whole lot better than letting Mick work up a full head of steam as a matchmaker.”
“I’ll definitely keep that in mind,” Susie said. As Shanna had said, it was the best possible motivation.
Mack sat in the dark listening to what had to be Susie’s twentieth message in the past forty-eight hours. She was starting to sound just a little frantic. Or maybe angry. He couldn’t recall ever hearing Susie sound quite so fit to be tied before.
“So help me, Mack Franklin, if you don’t surface soon and tell me what’s going on, I’m calling the police and putting out an all-points bulletin on you.”
Mack winced. He knew she’d do exactly that. Susie might appear shy and vulnerable, but she had a spine of pure steel and a glint of determination in her eyes that could scare a man half to death. It might take a while for that gutsiness to kick in, but once it did, she was formidable. Normally Mack considered that admirable, but tonight it made him shudder.
She was still ranting when he picked up the phone. “No need to alert the police,” he said calmly. “I’m right here.”
She breathed an audible sigh of relief. “Well, thank God,” she said, then immediately started berating him. “Why haven’t you picked up all the other times I’ve called, or at least called me back?”
“Most women would already know the answer to that question.”
“Is this one of those he’s-not-into-you things?” she asked, “Because if it is, that is so not the point. I was worried about you.”
“No, it’s one of those I-don’t-want-to-talk-to-anybody things. And I’m sorry if I worried you. Maybe I should have checked in before going into seclusion.”
“Yes, you should have,” she said fiercely. Then her voice softened. “What’s going on, Mack? Talk to me.”
He chuckled despite himself. “Did you not hear what I just said?”
“That you don’t want to talk to anybody, blah-blah-blah. I’m not anybody, Mack. I’m your friend, just like Will and Jake. I’ll bet you’ve talked to them.”
There was a note of hurt in her voice that twisted him up inside. “You are nothing like Will and Jake,” he said.
“I see,” she said stiffly. “Okay, then. I’m very sorry I bothered you.”
She hung up before he could tell her she’d misunderstood. He muttered a curse and called her back. It took ten rings before she finally answered.
“Now I don’t want to talk,” she said heatedly. “You know what that’s like.” She hung up again.
Mack redialed. “Will you just listen to me for ten seconds?” he said. “Then you can slam the phone down in my ear if you want to.”
“It will be my pleasure,” she retorted. “Okay, talk.”
“I just meant that the relationship you and I have is different from the one I have with Will and Mack.”
“Friends are friends.”
“Come on, Susie. You know that’s not entirely true. I’m not saying men can’t be friends with women, but the dynamics are not the same.”
“You’re talking about sex,” she said bluntly. “Since we’ve never had sex, then it’s exactly the same.”
“No,” he insisted, a little startled by the fact that she’d even mentioned sex. It wasn’t a topic they discussed. Since she’d brought it up, though, he couldn’t seem to stop himself from saying, “We always have the potential for sex.”
Silence greeted the comment.
“Is that so?” she said at last, amusement now threading through her voice. At least she no longer sounded insulted or furious. If anything, she sounded intrigued. “Just how great do you think that potential is?”
“That’s always depended on you,” he said before he could stop himself. Going down this road now with his professional life in turmoil was a very bad idea. While starting to think about or even to act on the idea of sleeping with Susie would be a fascinating distraction, that wasn’t the way he intended to get through this rough patch. It would be too unfair to her.
Mack realized just how big a mistake he’d made when she sucked in a deep breath and murmured, “Oh, really? It’s up to me? I had no idea I had that kind of power over you. I’ll have to think about exploring some new possibilities.”
“Susie, you don’t want to sleep with me,” he said, as if the idea were ludicrous.
“Maybe