Someone was touching him, but it was not that filthy lover in his past whose hands were covering his body. It was Jane. Amazing how he had the wherewithal to discern such a thing. Yet he knew it was not the other.

      The other one had come, though, for a visit in a dream. He loathed those dreams and the way his body felt after them. But it was Jane’s body here with him now.

      “Jane?” he asked, croaking through his dry lips and raw throat.

      “Here,” she whispered, “take a sip, slowly.”

      The cool water that slipped down his throat felt so good that he could not sip, but only gulp, despite her warnings. When he sat back, he felt weak and exhausted. He recalled what they had done, and the effects on his body still pleasantly lingered.

      “You must rest,” she ordered, her voice now cool and detached.

      “I have slept enough.”

      “Sleep is the body’s best medicine.”

      “No, Jane. You are the tonic I need.”

      Silence blanketed the room, and Matthew cursed himself for his loose tongue. He was not a talker, not unless he was cutting someone off at the knees, but tonight, with Jane, he couldn’t seem to hold his tongue, or hide the strange emotions that bubbled beneath his skin. In truth, he had no idea if he desired to or not. His brain knew he should lie in silence and leave her to her work. But his body cried out for her presence at his bedside, her voice in the quiet, her hands on his flesh. He refused to wonder if it was the fever provoking these thoughts, or some deeply hidden need he had never known that lurked within him. Neither reason mattered now, the only thing that mattered was getting Jane back close to him, drawing her into him.

      “Will you not sit with me?”

      “No. There are other patients who require care.” She brushed past him. He heard her stiff skirts brush the sheet and he reached out, grasping for anything that he could hold.

      “I wish I could see you,” he whispered. “Here, help me to, Jane.” He held his hand out in the air, waiting for her to take it.

      “Matthew,” she said in a voice full of pleading, “please don’t.”

      Despite his blindness he found her hand and pulled her down so that she was sitting beside him on the bed.

      “If you are in pain, or in need of something—”

      “I am in need of you.” Their fingers entwined and he ordered her to bring their hands to her face.

      “I don’t understand what this will prove.”

      “I want to paint you in my mind.”

      He found the soft curve of her chin, and traced his trembling fingertips over the downy skin. In his mind he saw unblemished peaches-and-cream skin. His fingertips skated over the bridge of her nose down to her lush mouth. She turned her head when he reached the corner of her lips. Despite his coaxing words, she held herself away from his touch.

      “Let me touch your mouth.”

      “No.” She tried to move away, but he held her to him and brought her forward, capturing her mouth with his. It was a soft, lingering kiss, just lips brushing, and his soul stirred.

      She pulled away, his lips kissing the air. “We can’t do this, Matthew.”

      “Why? Is there another?”

      “It doesn’t matter, does it?”

      He smiled and reached for her once again. “No, it really doesn’t.”

      “Matthew, stop.”

      “What color is your hair?”

      There was hesitation before she answered, “What does it matter what color it is?”

      “Because I want to know what color to visualize when I’m dreaming of you and your hair spilling over me.”

      “Please,” she whispered, “do not say such things.”

      “Why?” he asked, the fog from his fever lifting, giving increasing clarity to his thoughts. “Did I shame you by forcing your hand to pleasure me?”

      “You did not force me.”

      “But I did shame you?”

      The accusation hung heavy and he heard Jane leave the bed and walk to the corner of the room, her heels clicking against the floorboards.

      “Why do you run, Jane?”

      “I do not run.”

      “Aye, you do. Every time the rope that is wrapped between us pulls you closer to me, you pull away, untangling us.”

      “There is no us, Matthew. You’re confused. Febrile.”

      “There could be an us,” he replied, hating the desperation he suddenly felt flare in his breast. “Jane,” he whispered, “come away with me.”

      He knew he had caught her attention when he heard her movements stop altogether.

      “When I leave here, come with me. Let us explore this…this…whatever has brought us together. Let me paint you, pleasure you. Be my muse,” he added, tossing in anything that might persuade her to come to him.

      “Your muse?” she questioned.

      “Yes. I’ve done nothing but paint you in my mind with nothing but my fantasies. Let me see you with my own eyes. Let me paint my fantasies.”

      The door opened, and the sterile odor of Dr. Inglebright flowed around them. “Jane, the carriage is here. I ordered it ’round early. You’ve had a long night.”

      Hatred fused his thoughts. Was Jane the doctor’s lover? Wife? Bloody hell, he had not thought of her as anyone but his.

      “How very kind of you, Dr. Inglebright, but I will stay to finish my shift.”

      There was no feminine welcome in that tone. No gratitude, either.

      “I insist, Jane. There will be no argument.”

      “Very