Wagon Train Sweetheart. Lacy Williams
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Five
Evening had fallen and Nathan stood in the shadows behind the wagon, knowing that right on the other side was the circle of light. The Hewitts were over there. He could hear them laughing, talking, the clink of pots, the crackle of the cookfire.
Behind him was the quiet chirping of night insects, the darkness outside the camp.
He couldn’t make himself cross into that circle of light.
As the afternoon had passed, he’d quickly grown weary of being confined in the wagon.
Or maybe he was weary of the pinpricks of awareness he felt whenever Emma came near.
She’d said she was his friend. She’d called him Nathan. More than once.
She’d loaned him her book. It was a small act of friendship, but more than anyone had given him in so very long.
He couldn’t let himself get used to it. Everything good in his life had been ripped away.
Even now he told himself to sneak away and find his bedroll. Bed down beneath the Binghams’ wagon where he should be sleeping.
It was better to keep himself isolated. Protected from when she decided he wasn’t friend material.
His boots might be on the ground but he clung to the sideboard, trying to judge whether his wobbly legs would hold him.
He’d grudgingly admitted to himself that she’d been right about his weakened state. Every time he coughed, his weakness intensified.
He was still ashamed that she’d found him asleep. He was used to physical labor, to ignoring the pangs of hunger or illness and pushing through.
But there was no ignoring that he was like a newborn babe, dependent on the kindness of this family.
He hated it.
And then it was too late to sneak away. A head of golden hair ducked around the side of the wagon; her face was turned down to the ground. She didn’t see him until she was about to run into him and then she drew up short.
“What are you doing up?” she asked.
As if he was a kid instead of a grown man. To his chagrin, heat slipped up into his cheeks. Maybe the shadows and his beard would hide it.
“Needed to stretch my legs,” he said. “You gonna keep me from visitin’ the trees over yonder to do my private business?”
Her nose wrinkled, but she didn’t speak.
“She might try.”
Ben Hewitt’s voice came from behind her and then he joined them beside the wagon. Watching over his sister? Or watching Nathan?
“I’ll walk with you,” Hewitt said. “Make sure you don’t need any help.”
“I won’t.”
But the other man followed Nathan, anyway.
Past the circle of wagons, outside the noise and bustle and people, it was quiet. A whip-poor-will called. Another answered. The breeze clicked the tree branches together. Stars peeped in from above through the canopy of leaves and branches.
Nathan didn’t reply to Hewitt. What was there to say? Thanks for carting me like a bag of flour all day?
The short hike out to find a moment of privacy had him trembling, wondering how he was gonna get back to the wagon.
Hewitt stayed near the edge of the woods, giving Nathan a moment of privacy. He should probably be thankful for that, but the fact that he was still under watch put a taste of bitterness in his throat.
Nathan had turned back toward the wagons but paused, still under the cover of trees and brush, supporting himself with one hand on a nearby tree trunk.
A cough overtook him, and kept hold of him until he almost thought he would suffocate. When he could finally catch his breath, he was as limp as a wet washcloth.
“Reed, you all right?”
Nathan jerked and the unexpected movement sent him into another fit of coughing.
“You surprised—” cough “—me,” he told Hewitt.
Anger fired. He was so weak and distracted by his condition that the other man had snuck up on him. If Hewitt had had nefarious intentions, Nathan could have been dead.
He didn’t like being caught unawares.
“You need to lean on me to get back to the wagon?”
“No,” Nathan said shortly.
He pushed away from the tree, and tottered. Hewitt took one step toward him, but Nathan waved the other man off.
“Don’t like accepting help, do ya?” Hewitt trailed him as Nathan stumbled toward the distant light of campfires past the ring of wagons.
The other man must be a couple years younger than Nathan and didn’t have Nathan’s bulk. If he’d been at full strength, he might’ve gotten in Ben’s face and told him to leave off.
But he was so tired, he couldn’t even manage that.
So he didn’t answer.
The glow of light around the canvas wagon bonnet got brighter. Almost there.
“Reed.”
Nathan stopped at the commanding tone in Hewitt’s voice. He didn’t want to turn around, but he did. They stood in the darkness just outside the ring of wagons. He didn’t look at Hewitt, though he sensed the other man glancing around them.
But there was nothing out here except darkness and the backside of the wagons. Nathan looked up into the night sky, the thousands of stars, pinpricks of diamond light against the midnight blue sky.
“I want to talk to you about Emma,” Hewitt said, voice low. “She told me she’s worried for you. Our pa—” he cleared his throat, before continuing “—died of pneumonia, at the last.”
Nathan stood there in the dark with a man who wasn’t a friend but hadn’t been unkind to him, not really. Some long-lost sense of propriety pushed Nathan to say, “I’m sorry.”
Hewitt nodded. “Just don’t be deliberately cruel with my sister. She’s more sensitive than she lets on.”
Heat prickled up Nathan’s neck. He didn’t acknowledge Hewitt’s words.
He wanted to make some retort about Hewitt not even noticing his sister’s fear of thunderstorms, but he didn’t. Emma had trusted Nathan with the fear in confidence and he wouldn’t break it.
And some tiny part, deep inside him, liked that they shared something that no one else knew about.
He turned back toward the wagons and saw a figure move to stand in the open—backlit by firelight, Emma’s long-limbed form her golden hair haloed.
“There you are,” she said.
For a moment, he let himself pretend she was looking after him. Waiting for him. Imagining that someone cared about his welfare was like a fist tightening his gut.
Dangerous, pretending was.
“Worried about me?” Hewitt asked, bussing her cheek with a kiss as he neared.
“Abby was.” Something passed between the two siblings, some wordless communication that Nathan couldn’t decipher.
Was Hewitt’s fiancée worried about him being with Nathan, alone outside the protection of the wagons? Or was there something else?
Then Hewitt passed her with a squeeze of her elbow.
Nathan hesitated.
Exhaustion weighed him down. He should get back in the wagon. Stay isolated.
Then he registered that she held a plate of food