Ultimate Cedar Cove Collection (Books 1-12 & 2 Novellas). Debbie Macomber
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could go back and relive that morning.
He’d gotten up at seven, as usual, showered and dressed. He’d kissed Stephanie goodbye, never suspecting that in less than ten hours she would be forever taken from him and Jolene.
“Daddy…”
Returning to the present, Bruce looked over at his daughter. “What, sweetheart?”
“I like Rachel.”
“Who’s Rachel?”
“Daddy! The lady who cut my hair.”
“That’s nice,” he replied absently.
“She’s fun.”
“And she does a good job of cutting hair.”
Jolene nodded. “She wants a husband.”
“What?” Bruce nearly laughed out loud.
“A husband,” Jolene said again. “I heard her talking to the lady next to her, and she said she’s almost thirty. That’s old, isn’t it?”
“Not so old,” Bruce assured her, hiding a smile.
“She said she wanted to be married before she was thirty.”
Bruce thought that was a rather personal discussion to be having in a beauty shop, but what did he know about women’s—“I think you should marry her, Daddy.”
“What?”
“You should marry Rachel,” she repeated, as if that was a perfectly reasonable statement.
Twenty-Seven
Maryellen was depressed. She’d been depressed for weeks. She sat in the bleachers at the waterfront park, sheltered from the rain, and sipped hot coffee out of a plastic cup. Leaning forward, she rested her elbows on her knees and stared out over the dark waters of the cove.
Originally she’d planned to meet her mother for lunch, but she’d been stuck at the gallery with a late delivery and had to cancel at the last minute. She didn’t have much of an appetite, anyway, and appreciated this time alone so she could think. Lois Habbersmith, her assistant and friend, had seemed to sense this and hurried her out the door.
Maryellen had walked down to the waterfront, which was one of her favorite spots. In the summer the city sponsored Thursday night Concerts on the Cove, and the park and every bit of available space would be filled. She’d always loved the music, the laughter, the atmosphere of infectious gaiety.
This afternoon Maryellen felt little of that carefree summertime energy. She’d lost Jon. It was what she deserved for the despicable way she’d treated him. She’d explained her reasons, but apparently he couldn’t forgive her.
That was understandable, she supposed. Her experience with men was limited to one dreadful marriage and a father who’d walked through life in a state of emotional paralysis. There were happy childhood memories, but they were few and far between.
“Lois said I’d find you here.”
Jon’s voice broke into her dark musings and startled Maryellen. She nearly dropped her coffee.
“I didn’t mean to frighten you.”
“I’m just surprised.” And happy to see him, so happy it was all she could do not to smile and gush and make an idiot of herself. All three of which she’d managed to do any number of times.
Jon walked up the steps and sank onto the bleacher beside her. He didn’t say anything for a long while. She didn’t, either, and then she couldn’t stand it anymore.
“I want to tell you something,” she murmured. “It’s all right, you know.”
“What’s all right?”
She held her breath, then blurted it out. “That you’re involved with someone else. I don’t have any claim on you and—”
“Who told you that?”
“No one,” she said, not looking at him. “I figured it out.”
Jon frowned and shook his head. “You figured wrong, Maryellen. There hasn’t been another woman in my life almost from the moment we met.”
She stared at him, not knowing what to think.
He was gazing out at the cove. “I loved you long before you invited me to that ridiculous Halloween party.”
Now she was sure she’d misunderstood him. “If that’s the case, you have a funny way of showing it.” They’d barely talked in weeks. Their conversations, such as they were, had occurred in passing as he picked up or delivered Katie. It seemed he was continually making excuses not to stay.
“I—You didn’t ever want to talk to me,” she said.
“I couldn’t.”
“Well, that explains everything,” Maryellen said—with only a little sarcasm in her tone.
“I was afraid if I talked to you, I wouldn’t be able to stop myself from telling you….”
“What?” she demanded impatiently.
“I’ve decided to leave Cedar Cove.”
“Leave?” she cried. He’d just finished saying he loved her! She already knew how deeply he cared for their daughter. Katie needed her father, and the awful truth was that Maryellen needed Jon, too.
“I’m putting the house up for sale first thing in the morning.”
Numb with shock and pain, Maryellen could barely acknowledge his words.
“I’ve already given my notice at The Lighthouse.”
It was too much. More than she could bear. Each word was like a knife in her heart, the pain intolerable, impossible to ignore. Burying her face in both hands, she laid her head on her knees and burst into tears.
“Maryellen…” His voice seemed faint and far away. Then he placed his hand on her spine, as if she were a small child in need of comfort.
“Why?” she asked, raising her head just enough to speak. “If you love me and you love Katie? Why would you leave us?” She’d been such a fool. When she’d first realized she was pregnant, she saw Jon as little more than a sperm donor, never guessing how important he would become to her or their child.
Jon didn’t answer. She knew what he was doing—the same thing her father had done. Rejecting and hurting those he loved most.
“You never met my father, did you?” she said, struggling to keep the pain out of her voice.
“No…”
“You seem to have a great deal in common with him. He destroyed the people he loved, too.” Pride carried her to her feet and she stood. “If you’re going to leave, there isn’t anything I can say to stop you. The thing is, Jon, I love you, too. I didn’t want to love you and I tried everything to keep my emotions out of this, but…but it didn’t work.”
She took another deep breath. “I assumed it would be easy to have a baby on my own. Women do it all the time. But it’s hard, so much harder than I imagined. You were there for me and for Katie, and slowly, little by little, I realized my mistake. I began to see how important a father’s role is to a child. And…to a mother.” She wiped the tears from her cheek. “Perhaps this is what I deserve, but it sure as hell isn’t what Katie deserves. If you walk away from her now, you’re a bigger fool than I ever was.” She started to leave, but his words stopped her.
“All right, I’ll tell you.”
She frowned at him. “Tell me what?”
He briefly closed his eyes. “I’ve got a record, Maryellen. A prison record. You once asked me where I learned to cook. Well, guess what, it was behind bars. I couldn’t tell you for fear you’d take