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I departed very quickly; the doctors never saw the problems with my heart. I was quite athletic, ate well and didn't do drugs. A real perfect girl. (Jokingly) That's not what saved me. I departed with angels, dad, as you so much wanted. You were afraid I'd be cold and be alone. No, dad. I'm with grandma and grandpa. It's not cold. Everything here is beautiful. Everything is perfect. You'd be happy to see me running and jumping. I want you to open your heart, dad, to stop closing yourself off from others. That's not the right attitude. The "winner" attitude as you so often told me. I didn't feel pain, I departed and that's it; so, don't worry. I'm a very positive person. So, you can imagine how it is. Try to look at the butterflies and dragonflies I send to you, instead of driving them away with your hand. Just know that I’m near you and that I love you. Life never really ends and it's more of a transition. Take care. I love you with all my heart.
My son, your expectations are enormous, even though they are crazy. You believe, but deep down there are doubts lurking in the shadows. You’re looking outside you for what is inside you. You can hear me, but you don't believe me. You’ve worked a lot in your life to get where you are now. Sweat, false hopes, and feeling like having backed down a few times have been your daily plight for many years. But today you’re finally reaping the fruits of your hard work. You didn't get what you wanted, but you built something else. That wasn’t your path. Your path was somewhere else. That's all there is to it. Don't complicate matters. What you say and what you’re experiencing now is what was meant to be. Live the present moment and let the past go. It has taught you the experiences you need now. Listen to yourself and move forward. I have no regrets in my life except that I would have liked to spend more time with you. I didn't really want to depart. I had a hard time letting go. Today, I’ve realized that we didn't really leave each other... That we both live together, in different spheres.
Mom, if I had more time, I would have told you my dreams. All those dreams I had and couldn't fulfill. That’s okay because I'm making a list of my dreams. You know, mom, you have a kind heart; you give, but you refuse to receive. Let’s say you don't really know how to open your heart to receive. It's hard for people to come to you and give you a part of themselves. Please let them be with you and give you their time and gifts. It’s important that you know how to receive. Right now, you have a hard time giving to one person: yourself. You want everything to be beautiful and perfect, but you don't take the time to pause. You want to go too fast and not forget anything, but deep down, you forget yourself. That’s not the right thing to do. Drop it a bit! You’re a wonderful grandma, never doubt that. You spoil children a bit too much, but hey, we'll overlook it. You’re coming to a point in your life where it’s important to take care of yourself instead of spreading yourself too thin. Take care. I love you very much.
My little girl, I didn’t always treat you well. Please forgive me. However, I was in love with you as a person and your carefree attitude towards life. I apologize for anything I said or did to you that was wrong. I sincerely regret it because I caused you so much suffering and pain that were not easy for you to endure and with which you’re still trying to cope today, especially as they have left pains on your soul. I’ve repented and learned from those pains. I’m now guided and reprogrammed, so to speak. Life is meant to teach us. That’s it. To challenge us and make us understand what its experiences have taught us. Forgiveness in your case; as for me, I learned compassion and love. You’re a wonderful person, have no doubts about that. Take care, and don’t close your heart to love. You have all the potential to forgive. Not for me, but for you. I love you.
My dear mom, why are you sad? I’m still alive in your heart. I haven’t totally disappeared. I’m still the same, even if I freed myself from a physical envelope that slowed down my progress and brought me some pain. You know, I play and run about. I even like to see Mia, your old dog, who is very young now. So, when you think of me, do so with a smile and forget the tears. Sometimes I come to you and have fun hiding your keys. Then you look for them and I laugh. It's not mean, but it's to let you see something else and think of something other than the pain of having lost me. You can trust in life. Don't be afraid to do the things you love. Don't feel guilty, because whenever you do things that make you feel good, I'm happy. Look at the cherries, wherever you focus your attention, I’ll send you a message to let you know that I’m close to you. Take care. I love you very much. You’ve been an amazing mom. You’re wonderful. I love you.
My dear daughter, it’s hard to tell you what’s wrong. You don't want to listen to me. You’re deaf to my calls, even if I go into your dreams. You’re an amazing woman, but your stubbornness in always wanting to be right can’t work in the long run. You need to understand that life will always teach you, and not the other way around. You know, I love you; despite this side of you, you have some great qualities. Your heart is big, and you give your time to people without expecting anything in return, but you don't really know how to receive. Learn to receive without feeling guilty. You’ve got a lot only to give, but it’s a spinning wheel. You must be ready to receive too. Love is also at the core of your concerns. It will be at your doorstep when you’re ready to receive it. I love you and I’m very proud of you. Continue to be generous, but don't forget what a wonderful being you are. It would be a shame to lose out on giving too much. I love you.
Dear brother, my departure was sudden and brutal. I didn't have time to say goodbye before going back home. A large and beautiful home filled with love and laughter and joy. I feel good here. I didn't have time to feel the pains, so rest assured. I would have liked to stay with you a little longer, but it wasn’t my destiny. And, of course, you know how I lived my life to the fullest and especially how I enjoyed my life. Every minute counted and subconsciously I knew it, so I made the most of it. Life is a fast lane. It's important not to get bored and lost with what doesn't turn you on. I know you’re wiser than me, but don't hesitate to do what you like. Play, laugh, and enjoy your children; in your moments together, imitate them and live the present moment. You should live the life you imagined when we were kids. Not the one you refused. I’m still proud of those personal choices. You knew how to be yourself.
For my dad, I'm doing better. It's not perfect yet, but I'm slowly getting back on track. You were right when you said that dying wouldn’t solve the problem. I’m still alive, but in a different way. I still feel the emotions that devoured before inhabiting my soul. But you know, I'm happy anyway, because I'm seeing it all in a different way and I'm getting tools that will help me get over it. In general, life is a beautiful stage that I couldn’t appreciate. I’ll be back soon, but not right away. I'm not ready yet. One step at a time. Know that your prayers and thoughts have helped me a lot. They have helped me to rise a little higher so that I can change my state. I love you very much, and you and mom are not involved in my decision to depart. I broke your heart, but I’m sorry. My action was thoughtless and spontaneous. Give mom a hug and tell her I love her very much. She couldn’t understand my dark side, and she’s still radiant. I departed with a bit of her radiance. I'm sorry for that. I'm proud of you and your determination to move on. I love you.
My dear sister, I’m glad to communicate with you. Your life is difficult. YOU have a lot of financial difficulties. YOU have life and love; you just need to believe in help from above and trust. I’m your brother. I’m doing fine. I had a pretty rock'n'roll life and I didn't miss any minute of my life enjoying in artificial paradises. However, the real paradise was my life with you people, and I was carefree and completely off the mark. I failed to recognize the true values of life. You’re sensitive to the world around you, don't be fooled by what people tell you, but believe what comes from your heart. It can't fool you. I’m proud