The bull and the butterfly. Alla Krasnova
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was a hardware store, then it was converted into a cafe, and then just made a theater. But this does not prevent Eva from doing art, it amuses her.
«My wife is fine, and so are my children. Big ones already. And I’ve never had a mistress, you know.
– Comrades, more drive! If you walk like this, the audience may think that our «Vester» is blowing from the horse’s backside! Eva shouts at the male actors walking on stage-актерам. Eva doesn’t like to talk about families, about children, because she is already forty-five, and has no children. Previously, she believed that the director does not have the right to have children, so she did notlead them. «I wish I had a mistress,» Eve says, turning her head slightly toward Pavel. – It’s high time for you to put outthe hormone in the arms of fresh beautyok, otherwise it will soon be gone. Not a single one. And in my old age, there will be nothing to remember. Never mind, the wife will suffer, she is not the first, she is not the last. By the way, how do you like my stage-crunching days, bravo kicking in? she laughs a little artificially.
«What days?»
– Yes, these are days. These are the days in tarpaulin boots, and they are coming. I haven’t thought of anything else yet, but I will. And you look, look how they go! Soon your days will pass, and you will never have time to snatch at least some even the most stale seedy mistress from life.
Pavel looks at Eve, who is mercilessly snapping seeds, and he does not understand how she can mock his feelings so much. After all, he has loved her for more than two and a half decades.
«I think I’ll go,» Pavel says.
He knows that when he leaves, Eve won’t even give him a glance. And it’s true.
«I repeat once again,» Eva shouts to the receptionist who accidentally entered the hall, "I don’t need bow-legged individuals here, which you can’t tell from women from the far row without a detailed examination! Couldn’t there be forty normal men in the whole city with legs no smaller than forty-four? If not, then look for them at least all over the country! Where did you get these eggshakers for me? I needtheir footsteps to shake not their balls, but the entire Вvillage!
Eva stands up, forgetting to put the newspaper away fromher desk, and leaves a trail of sunflower husks behind her. But she doesn’t even pay attention toit. Because this is not a royal matter. Eva often uses this expression, occasionallyreplacing it наwith" none of your damn business.» Therefore, everything that is not her royal business turnsout to be a dog’s business. Eve prefers to clash polarities in everyone, because this creates a hurricane of contradictions in her, the energy of which she feeds. Eva is a person of passion, which left a deep mark on her appearance. Eva can’t live in peace. Calmness is torture for her.
«All boysare dismissed!» Eva says to the actors on stage. «The Lord is clearly overreacting byordering you menaround.
Eva isn’t in a good mood today, and she’s limping from sitting too long. Eva wants to smoke, but she can’t. When Eva is upset or in a bad mood, everyone is afraid of her. She doesn’t mince words. Eva does not like to be shy at all, because this prevents herfrom taking unnecessary people out of the theater and living the way she likes.
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– And then there will be a fairy tale, new opportunities, a new life, a new theater and career, and you can play and play, until you are stupefied to play! ELona says, театрально falling dramatically on the pink-covered bed with her arm thrown over her head. «The main thing is to get out of here, to get out of here, where you and I have no future,» Ilona continues to say, smiling, her eyes fixed on the ceiling with a glint of steel. – Moscow, my dear Jean, Moscowwas created to make your dreams come true. Moscow is the place where all your dreams come true! Moscow is even better than paradise, because there is no sex in paradise. But in Moscow, everything is permeated with sex and a thirst for life, where everything is charged with electricity, a thirst for life and creativity.
Jean and ELona are lovers and the same age, who have already passed twenty-three springs. They’ve been living together for two years now. But they are not simple lovers, but those who want to legitimize their relationship inthe future. Jean is a professional engineer, and ELona is a professional actress. ELona really wants Jean to go to Moscow with her, so she wants to put him in the theater where she works. She thinks that they and the theater can go on tour together first, and then they can gain a foothold there, stay. She expects that he will be hired as an extra. Theonly thing that confuses Elona is that Jean is dark-skinned, and it seems to her that it is much more difficult to get a dark-skinned person into the theater. Because there is only one role for him-the role of Othello. Elona is a very beautiful blonde with very fair skin, she is haughty and proud, and Jean is dark and short. Together, they are a very interesting pair, like black and white, but it only looks beautiful on the outside, because inside this pair there is complete discord. They, as opposite sides of duality, want each other, but cannot be together.
– Yes, I’m tired of being a fairy tale to me, – недовольно says Jean, displeased.
Jean does not want to move anywhere and even more so becomes an actor, because everything suits him as it is. He is skeptical of ELona’s plans. What attracts him now is no longer the thought of Moscow or the theater, but its smooth, beautiful armpit, in which, as it seems to him, you can put a chicken.
«Just think, Jean, how many opportunities the capital can give us! In the capital, wehave completely different people, they are advanced. With your skin color, it will be very useful for us. Besides, the children we’ll have in about ten years ' time will probably be black, too, like you little negroesми. They’ll be much better off in Moscow than here in this shithole where everyone knows each other. At least in Moscow they won’t be called blackheads, they’ll be called afrosads, «Elona laughs. – Culture. Capital. Where Moscow is, there is culture and the capital. And I, a sinner, will stop playing all these moronic supporting roles and play something real, for which I am not ashamed.
In fact, Elona is not ashamed of anything, because she does not have this feeling. And the roles that she gets in the theater are not so insignificant as she says. And she plays much more than many actresses in this theater. But Elona likes to play nice. She will never say that she is doing well, because she will never give the world the honor of being nice to her. She will always accuse her life of inferiority, and see black even where it is not. It gives her an almost physical pleasure to speculate on how bad things are, adding to the imperfections of her fate and the world as a whole. In this way, it is as if she is trying to satisfy her need for aggression towards a world where, as it seems to her, she has been underestimated. Outwardly, it is cold and even reserved, but inside it is militant and aggressive.
Jean is so used to it that he doesn’t really react to Elona’s statements anymore. He wants to believe that she is not evil, but only pretends to be evil, because it makes it easier for him to exist.
«Why are you looking at melike that and not saying anything?» ELona asks, looking at Jean, who is sitting on a chair with his arm around the back of it. «Like I’m talking to walls.»
«What can I say?» «отвечает вопросом на вопрос Жан. – МI don’t think you’ve already decided everything for both of us.» You decided that we would live like idiots in Moscow, because if we don’t live in Moscow, then it’s better not to live at all.
«Whynot, like idiots? You’ll probably live there like an idiot, as a matter of fact, you’ll still live here. And I will live like a queen! Elona smiles. «It’s very good, Jean, it’s very good that you know who’s boss in the house,» Elona continues, a little haughtily, secretly enjoying her power over Jean. The gyration of the armpit tightens Jean. But Elona lowers the raised hand so that Jean, physically, becomes cramped and dark. – And you know how much you’ve put me through.» You’re different, «Elona says, referring to the color of Jean’s skin. – What was it worth just talking