A Sudden Change of Heart. Barbara Taylor Bradford
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a bottle of Pouilly Fumé, sweetheart.’ He continued to undress and Laura went to call room service.
She was propped up against the pillows on the bed sipping a glass of carbonated water when Doug came out of the bathroom swathed in a bath towel which he had wrapped around him toga style.
‘The wine’s over there on the chest,’ she said. ‘I had the waiter open it.’
‘Thanks. Do you want a glass with me?’ ‘But of course.’
Doug poured two glasses and carried them over to the bed. After giving one to Laura, he strolled around to the other side, climbed onto it, sat propped up next to her. Turning to look at her, he lifted his glass and touched it to hers. ‘Here’s to our weekend together, darling,’ he said and smiled.
Laura smiled back at him over the rim of the glass. ‘To the weekend. And to you, darling. You’re a crazy fool, flying all this way just for two days, but I love it.’
After a few sips of the white wine, Doug placed his glass on the bedside table; drawing closer to Laura, he kissed her cheek, then her neck.
Immediately putting her wine on the nightstand next to her, Laura shifted her body around to face him, and a moment later he was pulling her into his arms. Doug renewed his kisses, showering them on her neck, her shoulders, her bare arms; reaching inside her nightgown he began to caress one of her breasts sensually, drawing small sighs from her.
Moving closer to him, Laura loosened the towel wrapped around him, let her hand trail down over his flat stomach, making gentle circular movements; her fingers fluttered down, and she began to stroke him.
Doug lay very still, his eyes tightly closed; he luxuriated in her touch, drifted with his sensual thoughts. He felt a slight movement against his legs as Laura slithered down the bed and crouched over his thighs. She was still stroking him and then unexpectedly her moist lips encircled him and he let out a long sigh as she took him fully in her mouth. Suddenly he was aroused. After a second or two, she stopped, lifted her head, kissed his stomach, and then pushing herself up the bed she brought her mouth to his.
Doug’s excitement was mounting. He returned her fervent kisses and with suddenness, almost abruptness, he rolled them over so that he was on top of her. Their mouths stayed locked together. Her tongue grazed his and they shared a moment of intense intimacy before Doug pushed his hands under Laura’s buttocks, fitted her long, lean body into the curve of his. And at last he was hard enough to slip inside her, easily and expertly, and within moments they had a rhythm, were rising and falling together, their movements swifter, almost frenzied. Her legs went high around his back and he shafted deeper into her, sinking deeply into the warmth.
Soon Doug felt as though he were falling through dark blue water, falling down, falling further and further down into a bottomless dark blue sea. The waves washed over him, beat against him. He squeezed his eyes tighter shut. Images danced behind his lids. Oh yes, he thought, oh yes, and as he began the long slide down into total ecstasy he saw that face, trapped as it was in his mind…
‘Doug, oh Doug!’ Laura cried. ‘Now. Please. Oh please don’t stop, darling.’
Her voice came to him from far away. And yet it was clear, sharp, the voice he knew so well. And it brought him down. Instantly he lost his erection. His fantasy shattered. Falling against her, Doug lay still, breathing heavily. He was flaccid, drained of energy all of a sudden. And he was mortified.
After a long moment, Laura whispered, ‘Why did you stop? What happened?’
‘I don’t know,’ he whispered back. ‘I’ll be all right in a minute.’ But he wasn’t, and after a short while he slid off her, and lay on his back, still breathing deeply.
‘Are you all right, Doug?’ she asked, concern giving her voice an edge.
‘I’m fine,’ he replied in a low voice. He felt vitiated, sapped of his strength.
Laura’s hand reached for him; she began to stroke him, endeavouring to arouse him once more. But a moment later when her lips encircled him, he knew her efforts would be in vain. This happened a lot with her these days, this loss of strength and vitality at the crucial moment. Doug got off the bed, hurried into the bathroom.
Snapping on the light and locking the door, he went and looked at himself in the mirror. What in God’s name was wrong with him? Why couldn’t he bring the act of love to its true culmination for them both? He had always been proud of his prowess as a lover, his staying power.
It was odd how he fell apart, though, somehow never reached fulfilment these days. Panic struck him. Was it always going to be like this? For the rest of his life? Was he always going to be an ineffectual lover, a man incapable of satisfying a woman, satisfying his wife? Suddenly, Doug was hit by a rush of embarrassment. He had flown all this way to make love to her and he had failed her, failed himself.
And then he thought: It’s all in the mind, of course. That’s where all this begins. And ends.
Laura had always thought of herself as an observer. She would sit back and watch, saying very little but hearing everything. And there had been a great deal to see and hear, whether she was observing her brother Dylan, the rebel, her father, the composer and conductor; or her mother, the artist.
Then there was her grandmother Megan, the once-great musical star, and her grandfather Owen, theatrical manager and professional Welshman. And Claire Benson – her heroine, role model, and best friend.
Each one of them was highly individualistic, a complex personality, and therefore a fascinating study.
The two people she most enjoyed observing were her grandparents, Owen and Megan Valiant. They were the greatest influence in her life, especially her grandmother; and, because she loved them so much, she saw them through eyes that were not in the least critical. So many of her values had come from them, and it was on her grandparents that she had based her own notions of romantic love.
Grandfather Owen would boast, ‘Ours is one of the greatest love stories that ever happened. I fell in love with Megan when I first heard her singing in the Chapel at Port Talbot, and I’ve loved her truly ever since.’
And whenever he said this, which was very frequently, her grandmother would blush prettily and smile at Owen with adoration. ‘It’s true, Laura. The day I set eyes on your grandfather I was kissed by the angels. It was the luckiest day of my life, meeting him.’
When she was young she was well aware that her parents loved each other, too. But unlike Owen and Megan, who never quarrelled, Richard and Margaret were often engaged in roaring battles.
‘It’s a feast or a famine with your parents,’ her grandmother would say. ‘They’re either in each other’s arms or at each other’s throats. Goodness me, I’ve never before seen such goings on in my life.’
Her parents’ way of making up after one of their regular tempestuous falling outs was to go off on a trip for a week or two. ‘Another honeymoon,’ Claire would say, and she would become a kind of surrogate mother to the two of them, aided and abetted by Mae, the housekeeper, Dylan’s nanny, Cissy, and Grandma Megan, who would swoop down in full force to take charge of the household.
Claire had been the other important influence in her life, and she had observed her dearest friend through loving eyes and hardly ever found fault.
‘Always the observer, Laura,’ her lovely gran had often said in those days, laughing lightly, and then Megan would go on to predict that her favourite grandchild would become a writer. She hadn’t, of course; nonetheless, she continued to be the observer, forever watching everyone, and assessing.
She was doing exactly that tonight as she sat on the stool in Claire’s kitchen, where Claire and Natasha were preparing dinner. As she looked from mother to daughter she saw the enormous love and friendship flowing between them.