Odd Interlude. Dean Koontz
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I assure Annamaria. “And they don’t have my picture.”
“They might have a good description. Before you show yourself around here, Oddie, let’s see how big a story it is on the news.”
I extract my wallet from a hip pocket. “I’ve got some cash.”
“So do I.” She waves away the wallet. “Enough for this.”
As I slump in the dark car, she goes into the diner.
She is wearing athletic shoes, gray slacks, and a baggy sweater that doesn’t conceal her pregnancy. The sleeves are too long, hanging past the first knuckles of her fingers. She looks like a waif.
People warm to her on sight, and the trust that she inspires in everyone is uncanny. They aren’t likely to turn her away just because she lacks a credit card and ID.
In Magic Beach, she had been living rent-free in an apartment above a garage. She says that although she never asks for anything, people give her what she needs. I have seen that this is true.
She claims there are people who want to kill her, but she seems to have no fear of them, whoever they might be. I have yet to see proof that she fears anything.
Earlier, she asked if I would die for her. Without hesitation, I said that I would—and meant it.
I don’t understand either my reaction to her or the source of her power. She is something other than she appears to be. She tells me that I already know what she is and that I only need to accept the knowledge that I already possess.
Weird. Or maybe not.
Long ago, I learned that, even with my sixth sense, I am not a singularity and that the world is a place of layered wonders beyond counting. Most people unconsciously blind themselves to the true nature of existence, because they fear knowing that this world is a place of mystery and meaning. It’s immeasurably easier to live in a world that’s all surfaces, that means nothing and demands nothing of you.
Because I so love this wondrous world, I am by nature optimistic and of good humor. My friend and mentor Ozzie Boone says buoyancy is one of my better qualities. However, as though to warn that excess buoyancy might lead to carelessness, he sometimes reminds me that shit, too, floats.
But on my worst days, which are rare and of which this is one, I can get down so low that the bottom seems to be where I belong. I don’t even want to look for a way up. I suppose surrender to sadness is a sin, though my current sadness is not a black depression but is instead a sorrow like a long moody twilight.
When Annamaria returns and gets behind the wheel, she hands me one of two keys. “It’s a nice place. Sparkling clean. And the food smells good. It’s called Harmony Corner because it’s all owned and operated by the Harmony family, quite a big clan judging by what Holly Harmony told me. She’s the lone waitress this shift.”
Annamaria starts the Mercedes and drives to the motor court, repeatedly glancing at me, which I pretend not to notice.
After she parks between two cottages and switches off the engine and the headlights, she says, “Melancholy can be seductive when it’s twined with self-pity.”
“I don’t pity myself,” I assure her.
“Then what would you call it? Perhaps self-sympathy?”
I decide not to answer.
“Self-compassion?” she suggests. “Self-commiseration? Self-condolence?”
“I didn’t think it was in your nature to needle a guy.”
“Oh, young man, I’m not needling you.”
“Then what would you call it?”
“Compassionate mockery.”
The landscape lamps in the overhanging trees, filtering through leaves that quiver in a gentle breeze, flutter feathery golden light across the windshield and across Annamaria’s face and surely across my face as well, as if projected upon us is a film involving winged multitudes.
I remind her, “I killed five people tonight.”
“Would it be better if you had failed to resist evil and had killed no one?”
I say nothing.
She persists: “Those would-be mass murderers … do you suppose they would have surrendered peacefully at your stern request?”
“Of course not.”
“Would they have been willing to debate the righteousness of the crimes they intended to commit?”
“The mockery I get, but I can’t see how it’s compassionate.”
She is unrelenting. “Perhaps they would have been willing to go with you on that TV-courtroom show and let Judge Judy decide whether they did or did not have the moral authority to nuke four cities.”
“No. They’d be too scared of Judge Judy. I’m scared of Judge Judy.”
“You did the only thing you could have done, young man.”
“Yeah. All right. But why do I have to go from Magic Beach to Harmony Corner in the same night? So much death. No matter how bad those people were, no matter how bad someone might be here … I’m not a killing machine.”
She reaches out to me, and I take her hand. Although I can’t explain why, the very contact lifts my spirits.
“Maybe there won’t be any killing here,” she says.
“But it’s all accelerating.”
“What is?”
“My life, these threats, the craziness—coming at me like an avalanche.”
The feathers of soft light flutter not just across her face but also in her eyes as she squeezes my hand. “What do you most want, Oddie? What hope drives you? The hope of a little rest, some leisure time? The hope of an uneventful, quiet life as a fry cook, a shoe salesman?”
“You know it’s none of that.”
“Tell me. I’d like to hear you say it.”
I close my eyes and see in memory the card that came out of a fortune-telling machine in a carnival arcade six years earlier, when with Stormy at my side I had bought a precious promise for a quarter.
“Ma’am, you know what the card said—‘You are destined to be together forever.’”
“And then she died. But you kept the card. You continued to believe in the truth of the card. Do you still believe in it?”
Without hesitation, I reply: “Yes. I’ve got to believe. It’s what I have.”
“Well then, Oddie, if the hope that drives you is the truth of that card, might not the acceleration that frightens you be what you actually want? Might you be quickening toward the fulfillment of that prediction? Could it be that the avalanche coming at you is nothing more than Stormy?”
Opening my eyes, I meet her stare once more. The fluttering wings reflected on her face and in her dark eyes might also be the flicker of golden flames. I am reminded that fire not only consumes; it also purifies. And another word for purification is redemption.
Annamaria cocks her head and smiles. “Shall we find a castle with a suitable room where you can do your version of Hamlet’s most famous soliloquy to your heart’s content? Or shall we just get on with this?”
I am not out of smiles, after all. “We’d best be getting on with it, ma’am.”
Our only luggage is a hamper of food for us and the golden retriever, which was packed by our friend Blossom Rosedale in Magic Beach. After Raphael finds a patch of grass in which to pee, I follow the dog and Annamaria to Cottage 6, which she has taken for herself, and I leave the hamper with her.
On the stoop, delivery made, as I turn away,