Postcards. Annie Proulx
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eddied around his knees, the purple awns burst, scattering a hail of seed. Far below he saw the house varnished with orange light, balanced against the grove of cottonwoods, like a scene etched on a metal plate. The sag of the roof curved into shadows as delicate as a bloom of mold, thickening the trees.
In the orchard he knelt and wiped his hands over and over in the coarse grass. The trees were half wild with watersprouts and deadwood. The mournful smell of rotted fruit came into his nose. ‘If I get away,’ he said, dragging breath into his constricted throat, and briefly seeing, not what had happened up beside the wall, but his grandfather spraying the tree with Bordeaux mixture, the long wand hissing in the leaves, the poisoned codling moths bursting up like flames, the women and children, himself, on the ladder picking apples, the strap of the bag cutting into his shoulder, the empty oak-splint baskets under the trees and the men loading the full baskets into a wagon, the frigid packing room, old Roseboy with his sloping, bare neck and his dirty hat, pointed like a cone, nothing but a trimmed-up old syrup filter, tapping on the barrel heads, serious, saying over and over, ‘Take it easy now, one rotten apple spoils the whole goddamn barrel.’
Evening haze rose off the hardwood slopes and blurred a sky discolored like a stained silk skirt. He saw and heard everything with brutal clarity; yet the thing that had happened up beside the wall was confused. Coyotes singling along the edge of the duck marsh called in fluming howls. Wet hand ticking the skeletal bean poles, he walked through the withered garden. Moths like pinches of pale dust battered in his wake.
At the corner of the house he stopped and urinated on the blackened stalks of Jewell’s Canterbury bells. The seed husks rattled and a faint steam rose in the trembling shadow of his legs. His clothes had no warmth. The grey work pants, knees stained with soil, were stippled with grass heads and bramble tips, his jacket spattered with shreds of bark. His neck stung from her raking scratches. A gleaming image of her fingernails swerved into his mind and he clamped it off. The cedar waxwings rustled stiff leaves with a sound of unfolding tissue paper. He could hear Mink’s voice in the kitchen, lumps of sound like newly plowed soil, and the flat muffle of Jewell, his mother, answering. Nothing seemed changed. Billy was somehow up there under the wall, but nothing seemed changed except the uncanny sharpness of his vision and the tightness that gripped somewhere under his breastbone.
A length of binder twine hung with bean plants sagged between the two porch pillars, and he could see each hemp fiber, the shadows in the folds of each desiccated leaf, the swell of the seed inside the husks. A broken pumpkin, crusted on its underside with earth, parted like a mouth in a knowing crack. His foot crushed a leaf as he opened the screen door.
Wire egg baskets were stacked in the corner of the entry. Water had drained from a basket half full of pale eggs and pooled under Mink’s barn boots. The reeking barn clothes, Dub’s jacket, his own denim coat with the pocket gaping open like a wound, dangled from nails. He scraped his shoes on the wad of burlap sacks and went in.
‘About time. You, Loyal, you and Dub can’t get to the table on time we’re not waitin’. Been sayin’ this since you was four years old.’ Jewell pushed the bowl of onions toward him. Her hazel eyes were lost behind the glinting spectacles. The ridge of muscle that supported her lower lip was as stiff as wood.
The white plates made a circle around the kitchen table, the shape echoed in the curve of grease around Mink’s mouth. There was stubble on his face, his finely cut lips were loosened by missing teeth. The dull silver lay on the yolk-colored oilcloth. Mink clenched the carving knife, sawed at the ham. The ham smelled like blood. Cold air crawled along the floor, the ferret scurried in the wall. On a hill miles away an attic window caught the last ray of light, burned for a few minutes, dimmed.
‘Pass the plates.’ Mink’s voice, gone thin since his tractor accident a few years ago, seemed caught in some glottal anatomic trap. He tensed his neck, creased across the back with white lines, and cut at the ham. The label on his overall bib read TUF NUT. The red slices fell away from the knife onto the platter, the glaze crackled by heat in crazy hairlines. The knife was thin-bladed, the steel sharpened away. Mink felt its fragility against the ham bone. Such a worn blade could easily break. His pallid gaze, blue as winter milk, slid around the table.
‘Where’s Dub? Goddamn knockabout.’
‘Don’t know,’ Jewell said, hands like clusters of carrots, shaking pepper out of the glass dog, straight in the chair, the flesh of her arms firm and solid. ‘But I’ll tell you something. Anybody that’s late to supper can go without. I cook supper to be eat hot. And nobody bothers to take the trouble to set down when it’s ready. Don’t care who it is, they’re not here they can forget it. Don’t care if it’s Saint Peter. Don’t care if Dub’s gone off again. Thinks he can come and go as he pleases. He don’t care for nobody’s work. I don’t care if it’s Winston Churchill with his big greasy cigar wants to set down to dinner, we’re not waitin’ for nobody. If there’s something left he can have it, but don’t expect nothing to be saved.’
‘I don’t expect it,’ said Mernelle, squinting her eyes. Her braids were doubled in loops bound with rubber bands that pulled painfully when they were worked loose at night, the teeth too big for the face. She had the family hands with crooked fingers and flat nails. She had Mink’s diffident slouch.
‘Nobody is talking to you, miss. You make some money on the milkweed pods and you’ve got to put your two cents in on every subject. How money does change a person. Glad I haven’t got any to spoil me.’
‘I got more good stuff goin’ on than milkweed pods,‘ said Mernelle scornfully. ‘I got three big things this week. I got six dollars for the milkweed pods, I got a letter from Sergeant Frederick Hale Bottum in New Guinea because he read my note with the Sunday school cigarettes, and our class is goin’ to see the robber show in Barton. On Friday.’
‘How many milkweed pods you picked for that six dollars?’ Mink pulled off his barn cap and hung it on the chair’s ear. A feak of hair hung down and he continually jerked his head to the left to get it out of his way.
‘Hundreds. Thousands. Thirty bags. And guess what, Da, some of the kids turned in milkweeds that was still green, and they only give ‘em ten cents a bag. I let mine get all nice and dry up in the hayloft first. The only one picked more than me was a old man from Topunder. Seventy-two bags, but he didn’t have to go to school. He could just fool around pickin’ milkweed all day long.’
‘I wondered what in the hell all them milkweed pods was doin’ spread out over the floor up there. First I thought it was some idea Loyal had for cheap cowfeed. Then I thought they was goin’ to be some kind of a decoration.’
‘Da, they don’t make decorations out of milkweed pods.’
‘Hell they don’t. Milkweed pods, pinecones, spook, popcorn, apples, throw some paint on it, that’s it. I seen women and girls make a goddamn hay rake into a decoration with crepe paper and poison ivy.’
The door opened a few inches and Dub’s florid big-cheeked face thrust into the kitchen. In the thicket of his curly hair a bald spot appeared like a clearing in the woods. He pretended to look around guiltily. When his eyes came to Jewell’s he twisted up his mouth in mock fear, sidling into the room with his arm crooked across his face as if to ward off blows. His thighs were heavy and he had the short man’s scissory walk. He knew he was the fool of the family.
‘Don’t hit me, Ma, I’ll never be late again. Couldn’t help it this time. Hey, I got talkin’ with a fella, said his wife was one of the ones that was up on Camel’s Hump where that bomber went down, looking for the survivors of the crash?’
‘For pity’s sake,’ said Jewell.
Dub turned his chair around and straddled it, his good arm across the back, the empty left sleeve, usually tucked in his jacket pocket, hanging slack. A Camel cigarette balanced behind his right ear. For an instant Jewell remembered how shapely his forearms had been, the swelling flexors and the man’s veins like tight fine branchwood. Mink cut a dice of ham into pieces and scraped them onto Dub’s plate.
The kitchen seemed to Loyal to be falling outward like a perspective