The Gunslinger's Bride. Cheryl St.John
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had no explanation that would change her mind about him. He’d been young and confused, but she’d been young and confused, too. Nothing he said now would change what had happened back then. She was acting as though he’d had a lot of choices. Even if he’d wanted to make it right, he couldn’t have. If he’d asked her to marry him then and there, she would have refused. Even if he’d known he had a son, still he couldn’t have come back. “I want to see him.”
“No. I forbid it.”
“You can’t forbid me from seeing my son.”
“You won’t do anything to hurt him. You have that much decency. If people caught on, they would treat him cruelly, and you don’t want that. You’ve left us alone all these years. Why should that change now?”
“Because now I know.”
“You’d have known back then if you had stayed and faced what you’d done.”
“We both know it was self-defense.”
“I have a feeling that everything is self-defense with you,” she said in a tone meant to inflict injury. “Have you ever taken responsibility for anything?”
Those words penetrated armor that bullets had never pierced. It was easy for her to blame him, easy for her to think the worst of him. Brock had never intended to kill her brother; he’d never even wanted to hurt him. The boy had drawn first, moved into the bullet. But he was dead all the same.
Little did she know Brock had taken responsibility for her safety and that of the son he hadn’t known existed—as well as his entire family—by staying away.
All the things she took for granted, things like a good night’s sleep in a familiar bed, like eating a meal without looking over her shoulder, like being able to live here, were the things he’d lost.
“I won’t do anything to hurt him. But I will see him.”
Fear clouded her expressive eyes. Did she think he would hurt her? Did she think he’d take the boy and disappear? She hadn’t tried to hide her contempt, but she’d done a poor job of covering other emotions. She thought he was a monster. Let her think it. Utilizing fear had always given him an edge.
“I want to know my son. It can be as hard or as easy as you make it, but a boy needs a father.”
“As usual, your feelings are the only ones that count,” she said with cool accusation. “Not mine. Not Jonathon’s.”
The bell over the door rang, echoing across the expansive interior and sparing him a reply.
A small figure dropped a scarf away from her head, revealing jet black hair, parted down the middle and pulled away from her oval face. She made her way toward the seating area near the stove, shaking the wool scarf as she went. “It is starting to snow again.”
Abby glanced uncomfortably from the girl to Brock.
He coolly lifted one brow.
“Am I interrupting a sale?” the young woman asked.
Up close, Brock observed her dark, almond-shaped eyes and obviously Asian features. She was exceptionally pretty, with an open, friendly face.
“I was just leaving.” He reached for his coat.
“We haven’t yet met,” she said, ignoring the dark look Abby shot her. “You are either the infamous Jack Spade that everyone is talking about—”
Brock wore the expressionless mask he’d perfected and didn’t so much as flicker a lash.
“—or you are the Kincaid brother who has been gone for years. You don’t look to me like the gunfighter everyone talks about.”
“Brock Kincaid,” he said easily.
“I’m Shan Laine Mei.”
“How do you do, Shan Laine Mei,” he said, uncertain of how to address her properly. “Is it Miss Shan?”
She smiled broadly. “It is. The Shan family runs the fish market.”
“The structure made of…oil cans?”
She nodded. “Cans are filled with stones and dirt. Fireproof. Bulletproof, too.”
He hadn’t thought of that. “How is business this time of year?”
“My father and brother cut wood to sell during the winter. I sell canned vegetables that I garden during the growing season. Come by if you want good squash.”
“I will.” He situated his hat on his head and touched the brim. “Pleasure to meet you.”
“And you, Mr. Brock.”
He gave Abby a strong look. “I’ll be back.”
She pursed her lips and looked away.
The bell over the door clanged at his exit.
“Laine, how could you stand there and converse with the man as though he were a gentleman?” Abby said to her friend in irritation.
“Mr. Brock is not a gentleman?”
“No, he most certainly is not. He’s a selfish, infuriating, cold-blooded killer, that’s what he is.”
Laine’s dark eyes widened. “You know this for a fact, Abby?”
Abby turned and placed a kettle of water on the stove. “I watched him shoot and kill my brother.”
Slowly Laine removed her coat and hung it up. “You have not told me of this before.”
Abby rubbed her palms together. Few people in town associated with Laine socially, so she’d never been filled in on the gossip surrounding Brock Kincaid. “I don’t like to talk about it.”
“If he murdered your brother, why isn’t he in jail? Or why wasn’t he hanged?”
Abby grew flustered at the question. “Guy had his gun drawn. It looked like self-defense.”
“The law said it was self-defense?”
“But Guy was seventeen years old. Just a boy.”
“I am sorry. I knew your brother died young, but I did not know the circumstances. Mr. Brock, he is sorry for his part in your brother’s death?”
“He thinks of nothing but himself.”
“You know he was not sorry? He has said so?”
“He didn’t take time to say anything. He turned and ran.”
“But you said Guy had his gun out. Did he mean to shoot Mr. Brock?”
Now look what she’d done. She’d opened a can of worms she didn’t want to discuss, and her friend wasn’t one to back down. Abby chastised herself for letting her anger place her in this uncomfortable position, and measured tea into a metal strainer. “My brother was furious with Brock—for good reason. He was doing what he thought was right. Brock, on the other hand, was doing what he always did—wearing a gun and looking for a reason to fire it.”
Laine came and stood beside her. “You knew Mr. Brock well?”
Abby closed her eyes, and the anguish of those days washed over her in an oppressive wave. Tears burned her throat. How could she answer that question and not lie?
Laine’s hand touched her shoulder in a comforting gesture.
Did Abby want to deny the truth any longer?
Chapter Three
“Abby, are you all right?”
She nodded silently, but her cheeks blazed with the heat of humiliation. She had never shared what had happened with anyone. She’d been too ashamed and embarrassed. For nearly eight years she’d held her silence about what had been a painful and life-changing turn