CHAPTER TWO

      WHEN ELLIE’S PHONE rang early next morning, Jacko was refusing to eat his porridge and he was banging his spoon on his high chair’s tray, demanding. ‘Eggie,’ at the top of his voice.

      For weeks now, Nina, the nanny, had supervised Jacko’s breakfast while Ellie was out at the crack of dawn, delivering supplements to the cattle and checking on the newborn calves and their mothers.

      Now Nina was in Cairns with her family for Christmas and as the phone trilled, Ellie shot a despairing glance to the rooster-shaped kitchen wall clock. No one she knew would call at this early hour.

      Jacko shrieked again for his boiled egg.

      Ellie was already in a bad mood when she answered. ‘Hello? This is Karinya.’

      ‘Good morning.’ It was Joe, sounding gruff and businesslike. Very military.

      ‘Good morning, Joe.’ Behind Ellie, Jacko wailed, ‘Eggie,’ more loudly than ever.

      ‘Would Friday suit?’

      She frowned. Did Joe have to be so clipped and cryptic? ‘To come here?’

      ‘Yes.’

      Friday was only the day after tomorrow. It wasn’t much warning. Ellie’s heart began an unhelpful drumming, followed by a flash of heat, as if her body had a mind of its own, as if it was remembering, without her permission, the fireworks Joe used to rouse in her. His kisses, his touch, the sparks a single look from him could light.

      In the early days of their marriage, they hadn’t been able to keep their hands off each other. Back in the heady days before everything went wrong, before their relationship exploded into a thousand painful pieces.

      ‘I could catch a flight that arrives in Townsville around eight a.m.,’ Joe said. ‘If I hire a car, I could probably get to Karinya around mid-afternoon.’

      ‘Eggie!’ Jacko bawled in a fully-fledged bellow.

      ‘Is that the kid crying?’

      His name’s Jacko, Ellie wanted to remind Joe. Why did he have to call him ‘the kid’?

      Holding the receiver to one ear, she filled a cup with juice and handed it to Jacko, hoping it would calm him. ‘He’s waiting for his breakfast.’

      Jacko accepted the juice somewhat disconsolately, and at last the room was blessedly silent.

      ‘So how about Friday?’ Joe asked again.

      At the thought of seeing him in less than forty-eight hours, Ellie took a deep, very necessary breath. ‘Friday will be fine.’

      It would have to be fine. They had to do this. They had to get it over and behind them. Only then could they both finally move on.

      * * *

      Joe was an hour away from Karinya when he noticed the gathering clouds. The journey had taken him west from Townsville to Charters Towers and then north through Queensland’s more remote cattle country. It was an unhappily nostalgic drive, over familiar long, straight roads and sweeping open country, broken by occasional rocky ridges or the sandy dip of a dry creek bed.

      The red earth and pale, drought-bleached grass were dotted with cattle and clumps of acacia and ironbark trees. It was a landscape Joe knew as well as his own reflection, but he’d rarely allowed himself to think about it since he’d left Queensland five and a half years ago.

      Now, he worked hard to block out the memories of his life here with Ellie. And yet every signpost and landmark seemed to trigger an unstoppable flow.

      He was reliving the day he and Ellie had first travelled up here, driving up from Ridgelands in his old battered ute. No one else in either of their families had ventured this far north, and the journey had felt like an adventure, as if they were pioneers pushing into new frontiers.

      He remembered their first sight of Karinya—coming over a rise and seeing the simple iron-roofed homestead set in the middle of grassy plains. On the day they’d signed up for the long-term lease they’d been buzzing with excitement.

      On the day their furniture arrived, Ellie had raced around like an enthusiastic kid. She’d wanted to help shift the furniture, but of course Joe wouldn’t let her. She was pregnant, after all. So she’d unpacked boxes and filled cupboards. She’d made up their bed and she’d scrubbed the bathroom and the kitchen, even though they’d been perfectly clean.

      She’d baked a roast dinner, which was a bit burnt, but they’d laughed about it and picked off the black bits. And Ellie had been incredibly happy, as if their simple house in the middle of hundreds of empty acres represented a long and cherished dream that had finally come true.

      When they made love on that first night it was as if being in their new bed, in their new home, had brought them a new level of connection and closeness they hadn’t dreamed was possible.

      Afterwards they’d lain close and together they’d watched the stars outside through the as yet uncurtained bedroom window.

      Joe had seen a shooting star. ‘Look!’ he’d said, sitting up quickly. ‘Did you see it?’

      ‘Yes!’ Ellie’s eyes were shining.

      ‘We should make a wish,’ he said and, almost without thinking, he wished that they could always be as happy as they were on this night.

      Ellie, however, was frowning. ‘Have you made your wish?’ she asked.

      ‘Yes.’ He smiled at her. ‘What about you?’

      ‘No, I haven’t. I...I don’t know if I want to.’ She sounded perplexingly frightened. ‘I...I don’t really like making wishes. It’s too much like tempting fate.’

      Surprised, Joe laughed at her fears. He ran a gentle hand down her arm and lightly touched her stomach, where their tiny baby lay.

      ‘Do you think I should make a wish?’ Ellie’s expression was serious now.

      ‘Sure.’ Joe was on top of the world that night. ‘What harm can it do?’

      She smiled and nestled into his embrace. ‘OK. I wish for a boy. A cute little version of you.’

      Three weeks later, Ellie had a miscarriage.

      Remembering, Joe let out an involuntary sigh. Enough.

      Don’t go there.

      He forced his attention back to the country stretching away to the horizon on either side of the road. Having grown up on a cattle property, he was able to assess the condition of the cattle he passed and the scant remaining fodder. There was no question that the country needed rain.

      Everywhere, he saw signs of drought and stress. Although Ellie would have employed contract