Chapter One

      After all these years, he still slept as though there was a possibility of someone sneaking in the room and putting a gun to his ear.

      Even in Miracle Harbor, Oregon, where such things were unheard of.

      He lay awake, now, listening, every muscle tense, ready, wondering what small noise had startled him awake in the deepest part of the night. The green glow of his clock told him it was just after 3:00 a.m.

      The foghorn, he decided, not the creak of his front gate, badly in need of oiling. He allowed himself to relax slightly, and then slightly more, closing his eyes and willing himself to go back to sleep. He hated this time of night the most because he was unable to exercise his customary discipline over his mind. For some reason this was when the memories wanted to visit.

      The sound came again.

      The quiet crunch of someone’s muffled footsteps moving up the walk. He listened for and heard the scrape of the loose board on the second step up to the porch.

      It was when he heard the soft groan of his front door handle being tried that he moved, fast and quiet, out of the his bed and to the window.

      An old car, hitched to a U-Haul trailer, was parked out on the street. Thieves? Planning to clean him right out?

      They’d be disappointed. He had no interest in “stuff.” His apartment was Spartan. No TV, no stereo, just his computer.

      Had he once had an interest in “stuff”? He had trouble remembering small things like that. Though he had a flash now of his wife, Stacey, standing in front of something in a store, looking back at him, laughing at the outrageous price, but there had been something wistful in her eyes, too.

      He flinched as if he’d been struck when he remembered what they had been looking at that day.

      A bassinet.

      A blackness that did not bode well for his intruder, descended over him. Wearing only the boxers he slept in, he made his way down the steps and through the darkened house, the of movement—stealthy, cautious, icily calm—second nature to him.

      He slid out the back door, not opening it enough to let it squeak, his plan already formed. He’d use the walkway alongside the house and follow it to the front. The prowler would be trapped on the narrow porch. He’d have to go through him to get away.

      Fat chance of that.

      This intruder had picked the wrong house.

      Home of Shane McCall, agent, Drug Investigation Unit. Retired.

      The mist was thick and swirling, the cement of the sidewalk ice-cold under his bare feet, the rhododendrons so thick along the side path that his bare skin was brushing the rough shingles of his house on one side, and getting soaked by the rubbery leaves on the other. These details barely registered, he was so intensely focused. He came around the side of the house, stopped in the shadow of the fog and dense overgrown shrubs, and watched.

      He saw a shape bent over the door; the night too dark and the fog too thick for more than vague impressions. A baseball cap. A build too slight to be threatening to him.

      A kid, he thought, and felt his anger wane as he watched the intruder jiggle the door handle again. Was he trying to pick the lock? Shane should have just called the police. Maybe Morgan was working tonight. When the business was done they could have exchanged war stories.

      Vastly preferable to going back up those stairs to bed when he’d finished here, to the memories that were waiting for him.

      Knowing that calling the police was still an option, and knowing he wouldn’t take it, he moved quietly out of the shadows to the bottom of his steps.

      It occurred to him that maybe he should have taken his service revolver out of retirement, that someone without the physical size to handle a confrontation might attempt to even out his odds with a weapon. A knife, a handgun. That was probably especially true of the kind of kid who would break into a house at three in the morning.

      His mind working with that rapid, detached lightning swiftness that came naturally to him, Shane decided on a course of action—keep his distance, make it seem like he was packing a gun himself.

      Hard to do, considering he was standing out here in his undershorts. But not impossible.

      He went to the bottom of the stairs, and with the cold authority that came so easily to him, he said, “Put your hands up where I can see them. Don’t turn around.”

      The figure bolted upright and then froze.

      “You heard me. Hands up.”

      “I can’t.” Fear had made the voice high and girlish.

      “You can’t?” he said, his voice cool and hard. “You’d better.”

      “I might drop the baby.”

      The voice was so scared that it was quivering. The baby?

      Shane went up the steps two at a time, put his hand on intruder’s shoulder and spun him around.

      Her.

      Two hers, a full-grown her, and a baby her, both looking at him with the same saucer-huge blue eyes. Blue eyes tinged with a hint of brown.

      He dropped his hand from her shoulder, ran it through the dampness of his hair, and swore.

      When her foot connected with his shin, he was reminded, painfully that he had forgotten rule one: never let your guard down ever.

      “Fire,” she screamed. “Fire.”

      Without thinking he clamped his hand over her mouth before she managed to roust the whole neighborhood, something he was not exactly dressed for.

      She was beautiful. Blond hair, very short and straight, poking out from under a Cubs ball cap and framing a face of utter loveliness—perfect skin, high cheekbones, a shapely nose. Her eyes were her dominating feature, though. Huge, the