Loose Screws. Karen Templeton
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hate me—I can eat anything I want and never gain weight (although I have a sneaking suspicion all those calories are lying around my body like a bunch of microscopic air mattresses set to inflate on my fortieth birthday). But it was all sitting at the base of my throat when I started to cry—a sobbing-so-hard-I-can’t-catch-my-breath jag that, combined with the cake residue in my mouth, made me choke so badly I thought my brain was going to explode.
Five minutes later, reduced to a limp, shuddering, sweating rag, I came to the disheartening conclusion that although eviceration with a dull knife would have been preferable to what I was feeling at that moment, I still loved the scumbag. Nearly a week later, I still feel that way. I mean, why else would I have put away a dozen bags of Chee
Well. Anyway. I sat, still shoveling in cake and letting my emotions buffet me when the phone rang, making me jump out of my skin because I’d pushed the ringer too high. Too stunned to remember I wasn’t supposed to be answering, I picked up.
“Hey, Ginger? It’s Nick.”
Bet you saw that coming, didn’t you?
I, however, didn’t. And I thought, oh, yeah, like this is really going to make me feel better. I rammed my hand through my hair, only my engagement ring got caught in a snarl, which made me wince, which launched me into another coughing fit.
Nick asked if I was okay, but of course I couldn’t reply because I was choking to death. “Hang on,” I croaked into the phone, then lurched toward the sink, gulped down a half glass of tepid water since I’d run out of bottled. Yech.
A minute later, I picked up the phone and got out, “Guess who I just heard from?”
“I know,” Nick said. “I just got word. Munson’s fine.”
He almost sounded disappointed.
Bet Nick wouldn’t just walk away like that, I thought, only to remember that’s exactly what he’d done.
My gaze drifted to my left hand and the engagement ring the size of Queens I’d worn proudly since Valentine’s Day. Two carats, emerald cut, platinum setting. Hell, for this puppy, I’d even let my nails grow out.
I haven’t decided what to do with that, either.
But back to the phone call.
“Yeah,” I said. “Great news, huh?”
“Damn,” Nick said softly. Like it wasn’t a swear word, somehow. “What happened?”
Much to my chagrin, tears again stung my eyes. “He left a message on my answering machine. My answering machine.”
“You’re kidding me? Man, that is so lame,” Nick said, and anger tried to suck me back in. And it would have felt good, I suppose, to have just gone with the flow for a minute. But then I reminded myself of the conscious choice I made as a child, not to let my emotions control me, to make decisions based on reason and logic, not on passion and impulse.
That I am not my mother.
And at that moment tranquility rippled through me. Or it might have been a breeze from the open kitchen window. But for just a few seconds there, I felt that everything was going to be okay, that maybe the storm had tipped my boat, but it was completely within my power to right it again.
I stretched, popping the knotted-up muscles at the base of my neck. “He was very apologetic, though.” My voice seemed eerily level, even to my own ears. “I mean, he’s not sticking me with the rest of the bills or anything.”
“Jesus.”
“What?”
“You’re scaring me.”
“Scaring you? Why?”
“Aren’t you supposed to be incoherent and breaking things right about now?”
I wasn’t sure whether to be dumbfounded or indignant. “That would be like me saying all men sit around every Sunday afternoon, watching sports and stuffing their faces with nachos and pork rinds.”
“Yeah. So?”
I huffed a little sigh. “Greg didn’t.”
“No, all he did was go AWOL on your wedding day.”
I frowned. Just a tiny one, though. “But he said—”
“I don’t give a shit what he said. Guy doesn’t even have the balls to tell you in person. He treated you like dirt, Ginger. Like I should’ve called you after…you know. Paula’s wedding. But I didn’t. And even though I was only twenty-one and still functioning on half a brain, that still makes me scum, which I can live with. But what that guy did to you…dammit! Why aren’t you more pissed?”
“Because anger is counterproductive—”
“That’s bull. And holding it in isn’t healthy.”
“Then you must not be paying attention in those anger management classes they make you take,” I said, feeling my face redden. What the hell was this guy trying to do to me?
“Managing it isn’t the same as stifling it.”
“Speaking of stifling it—”
“I bet you’re even still wearing his ring.”
“That’s none of your bus—”
“Take it off, Ginger. Now.”
That’s when, in the process of swiping my hand across the face, I scraped my nose with one of the prongs (something I’d managed to do at least once a day since I put the damn thing on, if you want to know the truth), which was just enough to send me over the edge. So I yanked off the ring and hurled it against the counter backsplash. The clatter was surprisingly loud. And satisfying.
“Is it off?” Nick said.
“I hope you’re alone,” I said, suppressing the urge to paw through my cookbooks before the roaches carted it off (yeah, we got ’em on the East Side, but they’ve got little Louis Vuitton gold initials all over them), “because do you have any idea how your end of the conversation sounds—”
“Is…it…off?”
“You know, you’ve got a real problem with patience—”
“Goddammit, Ginger—”
“Yes, Nick. The ring is off. Happy?”
“Delirious. Did you throw it?”
I shoved my hair out of my face. “Yeah. As a matter of fact, I did—”
“Hard?”
With a weighty sigh, I hauled myself off the stool, leaned over to squint at the backsplash. Sure enough, there was a tiny scratch. Which I will swear was there when I moved in. Since I was in already in the neighborhood, I picked up the ring, then I sat back down with a grunt, twiddling the bauble between my thumb and index finger. “Hard enough.”
“Good,” Nick said, with a note of my-work-here-is-done accomplishment in his voice. “Anyway. Just wanted to touch base. Let you officially know you’re in the clear.”
“Oh. Yeah. Thanks.”
Silence strained across the line.
“So. You take care, okay? And, Ginger?”
“Yeah?”
“Don’t put the ring back on.”
After he hung up, I sat and listened to the dial tone