The Story of Waitstill Baxter. Wiggin Kate Douglas Smith
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I come over the bridge,” remarked Cephas, drawing up in the road. “He stood in the door-yard blowin’ like Bedlam. I guess you ‘re late to supper.”
“I’ll be home in a few minutes,” said Patty, “I got delayed and am a little behindhand.”
“I’ll turn right round if you’ll git in and lemme take you back-along a piece; it’ll save you a good five minutes,” begged Cephas, abjectly.
“All right; much obliged; but it’s against the rules and you must drop me at the foot of our hill and let me walk up.”
“Certain; I know the Deacon ‘n’ I ain’t huntin’ for trouble any more’n you be; though I ‘d take it quick enough if you jest give me leave! I ain’t no coward an’ I could tackle the Deacon to-morrow if so be I had anything to ask him.”
This seemed to Patty a line of conversation distinctly to be discouraged under all the circumstances, and she tried to keep Cephas on the subject of his daily tasks and his mother’s rheumatism until she could escape from his over-appreciative society.
“How do you like my last job?” he inquired as they passed his father’s house. “Some think I’ve got the ell a little mite too yaller. Folks that ain’t never handled a brush allers think they can mix paint better ‘n them that knows their trade.”
“If your object was to have everybody see the ell a mile away, you’ve succeeded,” said Patty cruelly. She never flung the poor boy a civil word for fear of getting something warmer than civility in return.
“It’ll tone down,” Cephas responded, rather crestfallen. “I wanted a good bright lastin’ shade. ‘T won’t look so yaller when father lets me paint the house to match, but that won’t be till next year. He makes fun of the yaller color same as you; says a home’s something you want to forget when you’re away from it. Mother says the two rooms of the ell are big enough for somebody to set up housekeepin’ in. What do you think?”
“I never think,” returned Patty with a tantalizing laugh. “Good-night, Cephas; thank you for giving me a lift!”
VII. “WHAT DREAMS MAY COME”
SUPPER was over and the work done at last; the dishes washed, the beans put in soak, the hens shut up for the night, the milk strained and carried down cellar. Patty went up to her little room with the one window and the slanting walls and Waitstill followed and said good-night. Her father put out the lights, locked the doors, and came up the creaking stairs. There was never any talk between the sisters before going to bed, save on nights when their father was late at the store, usually on Saturdays only, for the good talkers of the village, as well as the gossips and loafers, preferred any other place to swap stories than the bleak atmosphere provided by old Foxy at his place of business.
Patty could think in the dark; her healthy young body lying not uncomfortably on the bed of corn husks, and the patchwork comforter drawn up under her chin. She could think, but for the first time she could not tell her thoughts to Waitstill. She had a secret; a dazzling secret, just like Ellen Wilson and some of the other girls who were several years older. Her afternoon’s experience loomed as large in her innocent mind as if it had been an elopement.
“I hope I’m not engaged to be married to him, EVEN IF HE DID—” The sentence was too tremendous to be finished, even in thought. “I don’t think I can be; men must surely say something, and not take it for granted you are in love with them and want to marry them. It is what they say when they ask that I should like much better than being married, when I’m only just past seventeen. I wish Mark was a little different; I don’t like his careless ways! He admires me, I can tell one; that by the way he looks, but he admires himself just as much, and expects me to do the same; still, I suppose none of them are perfect, and girls have to forgive lots of little things when they are engaged. Mother must have forgiven a good many things when she took father. Anyway, Mark is going away for a month on business, so I shan’t have to make up my mind just yet!” Here sleep descended upon the slightly puzzled, but on the whole delightfully complacent, little creature, bringing her most alluring and untrustworthy dreams.
The dear innocent had, indeed, no need of haste! Young Mr. Marquis de Lafayette Wilson, Mark for short, was not in the least a gay deceiver or ruthless breaker of hearts, and, so far as known, no scalps of village beauties were hung to his belt. He was a likable, light-weight young chap, as indolent and pleasure-loving as the strict customs of the community would permit; and a kiss, in his mind, most certainly never would lead to the altar, else he had already been many times a bridegroom. Miss Patience Baxter’s maiden meditations and uncertainties and perplexities, therefore, were decidedly premature. She was a natural-born, unconsciously artistic, highly expert, and finished coquette. She was all this at seventeen, and Mark at twenty-four was by no means a match for her in this field of effort, yet!—but sometimes, in getting her victim into the net, the coquette loses her balance and falls in herself. There wasn’t a bit of harm in Marquis de Lafayette, but he was extremely agile in keeping out of nets!
Waitstill was restless, too, that night, although she could not have told the reason. She opened her window at the back of the house and leaned out. The evening was mild with a soft wind blowing. She could hear the full brook dashing through the edge of the wood-lot, and even the “ker-chug” of an occasional bull-frog. There were great misty stars in the sky, but no moon.
There was no light in Aunt Abby Cole’s kitchen, but a faint glimmer shone through the windows of Uncle Bart’s joiner’s shop, showing that the old man was either having an hour of peaceful contemplation with no companion but his pipe, or that there might be a little group of privileged visitors, headed by Jed Morrill, busily discussing the affairs of the nation.
Waitstill felt troubled and anxious to-night; bruised by the little daily torments that lessened her courage but never wholly destroyed it. Any one who believed implicitly in heredity might have been puzzled, perhaps, to account for her. He might fantastically picture her as making herself out of her ancestors, using a free hand, picking and choosing what she liked best, with due care for the effect of combinations; selecting here and there and modifying, if advisable, a trait of Grandpa or Grandma Foxwell, of Great-Uncle or Great-Aunt Baxter; borrowing qualities lavishly from her own gently born and gently bred mother, and carefully avoiding her respected father’s Stock, except, perhaps, to take a dash of his pluck and an ounce of his persistence. Jed Morrill remarked of Deacon Baxter once: “When Old Foxy wants anything he’ll wait till hell freezes over afore he’ll give up.” Waitstill had her father’s firm chin, but there the likeness ended. The proud curve of her nostrils, the clear well-opened eye with its deep fringe of lashes, the earnest mouth, all these came from the mother who was little more than a dim memory.
Waitstill disdained any vague, dreary, colorless theory of life and its meaning. She had joined the church at fifteen, more or less because other girls did and the parson had persuaded her; but out of her hard life she had somehow framed a courageous philosophy that kept her erect and uncrushed, no matter how great her difficulties. She had no idea of bringing a poor, weak, draggled soul to her Maker at the last day, saying “Here is all I have managed to save out of what you gave me!” That would be something, she allowed, immeasurably something; but pitiful compared with what she might do if she could keep a brave, vigorous spirit and march to the last tribunal strengthened by battles, struggles, defeats, victories; by the defense of weaker human creatures, above all, warmed and vitalized by the pouring out and gathering in of love.
Patty slept sweetly on the other side of the partition, the contemplation of her twopenny triumphs bringing a smile to her childish lips: but even so a good heart was there (still perhaps in the process of making), a quick wit, ready sympathy, natural charm; plenty, indeed, for the stronger sister to cherish, protect, and hold precious, as she did, with all her mind and soul.
There had always been a passionate loyalty in Waitstill’s affection, wherever it had been bestowed. Uncle Bart delighted in telling an instance of it that occurred when she was a child of five. Maine had just separated amicably from her mother, Massachusetts, and become an independent state. It was in the middle of March, but there was no snow on the ground and the village boys had built a bonfire on a plot of land near Uncle Bart’s joiner’s shop. There