From Stress to Success: 10 Steps to a Relaxed and Happy Life: a unique mind and body plan. Xandria Williams
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their past for the basis of their belief systems, their fears, their attitudes and their stresses. Other people are not. Which are you? If you are willing to explore further then do so. You will learn much of value and be able to put what you have learnt about yourself to good use in reducing your stress levels. If you are unwilling to delve into your past then you would be wise to question your reasons. Is it fear of what you might find? Was your past unhappy? Does it stress you to think about it? If, on this basis, you refuse to unravel your present attitudes and belief systems it is a bit like doing the ostrich trick and burying your head in the sand. The more you refuse to explore the past the more likely it is that there are some valuable clues there as to the basis for your present stresses.
This is true, however seemingly logical and valid your reasons or excuses are. You may claim to be unsentimental, you may say that there are such obvious causes for your present stress that the past is an unnecessary irrelevance. You may say you haven’t the time. You may insist that your childhood was such a happy one that going back will produce nothing useful. Commonly the real and underlying reason is based on the disquiet, apprehension or fear that is brought up by the thought of doing this. They may not even be conscious fears. There may simply be a subconscious feeling of discomfort when you contemplate the general idea. The fact remains that, in my experience, the past has enormously valuable clues to help you unravel your present reactions, emotions and stresses, whether you thought it was a happy past or an unhappy one.
Mr J. insisted his childhood had been happy and that he had always had a wonderful relationship with his parents, especially with his father. Yet he refused to go back and explore his childhood as a means of determining the basis for his present insecurities and stress. It was obviously essential to his self-esteem and his concept of himself to maintain this image of family solidarity and integrity. In time I met his brother, older than him by 10 years, and learnt that in fact Mr J. had been relegated to the background as second son and been bitterly hurt by this. It was only when the elder brother left home that Mr J. got the attention he craved and the happy childhood myth had become established.
If you fear to go back to the past with the keen perception of your present maturity there may be something there that you know about but think is too traumatic for you to face. Sexual interference, which is, tragically, much more common than we acknowledge, violence, an alcoholic parent, the death of a parent, or some other trauma may be an acknowledged memory, but something you refuse to think about. Or there may be something there of which you are aware at some subconscious level, but that you do not want to acknowledge, even to yourself. There may also be past stresses which you have buried so deeply that they have been totally forgotten. Yet even so they, or the conclusions you drew from them at the time, do play into the present and exert their effect.
Miss P. was a perfect and surprising example of this. She was in her late 40s and unmarried. She told me that she’d had a happy life. She enjoyed her work and had lots of friends. From time to time she’d had a variety of boyfriends but had shied away from any serious relationships and had turned down two proposals when she was in her 20s. Now a man, considerably older than her, wanted to marry her. She cared deeply for him, felt comfortable with him and also recognized that if she again said no she could well remain single for good. Yet every time she considered agreeing to his proposal she got very upset, felt enormously stressed and returned to the belief that she should stay single.
She came to see me looking for help in her dilemma. When we discussed her childhood she insisted that it had been a happy one. She came from a well-off family, had lived in a pleasant town, gone to a good school and, seemingly, been given every advantage. She loved her parents and brother and the family was still close. There were no problems there she insisted. When asked if she had ever been jilted by a boyfriend, let down by people she loved or had any sexual problems or harassment that could have led to her fear of sex and a close relationship she searched her memory thoroughly and said no. I had every reason to believe her; there were none of the unconscious signs that indicated she was covering up.
She agreed to go back into her childhood and was amazed when she discovered that she had indeed buried some traumatic memories so deeply that, even though she had been 16 at the time the events occurred, she had no conscious memory of them until we unravelled them in my office.
At 16 she had become pregnant. This was in the early 1950s and at a level of society where she was expected to be a virgin when she married, when abortion was illegal and an unmarried mother a pariah. Her frightened 16-year-old boyfriend had taken her to a back-street abortionist who had done a very bad job. Her boyfriend had then taken her, bleeding and in pain, to the home of a schoolfriend whose parents were away for the weekend. After that he had denied any responsibility and disappeared from her life. She had struggled home on the Monday and managed to keep everything a secret.
Certainly, going back to this past event was distressing for Miss P. but the glow on her face when she realized that this had been the basis for her distrust of men and marriage and that there was no need for her to feel the same way about the man who wanted to marry her now, made it all the more worthwhile. Later she reported not only on a happy marriage but on an inner peace and quiet in many little ways and the loss of minor stresses that she hadn’t recognized previously.
The experience of delving back is rarely, on balance, painful. Whenever I have taken any client back into past experiences, no matter how traumatic they were at the time, we have only found that, by the end of the session, the experiences could be released so that they were no longer stressful, either in memory or in the way they affect the person’s life in the present. We have also found that many positive changes are possible and that they start happening almost immediately.
To go back fully in the way Miss P. did you will need some professional assistance but there is much you can do on your own to explore your past programming and we will discuss ways of doing this later. If you refuse to look back you will lose a major tool in reducing the basis of the stresses in your life. If having read this far, you still don’t want to explore the past you will have to rely on the other tools given in this book and do the best you can.
‘I’m over-stressed and don’t know how to cope,’ said a smart business executive in his early 30s. ‘I know I do a good job but I often worry that I won’t live up to people’s expectations. All it takes in a big company is one failure and you can kiss your chances of promotion goodbye. If I fail, my marriage will be on the rocks. I have nightmares at night, I’m snapping at my friends and if I don’t do something soon I will have a nervous breakdown.’
We discussed his diet and his lifestyle and ascertained that there were no serious health problems. I then suggested we should explore other reasons why he felt so stressed and why he felt he had to be the best at everything, to which his first reaction was ‘Fine, I’m willing to explore my attitudes but none of this exploring the past. I don’t want to go delving back into my childhood, that’s just so much sentimental and emotional wallowing.’
Unfortunately he stuck by that view and so there was little we could achieve. He tried visualizations and relaxation and deep-breathing techniques, but not surprisingly these helped little.
Years later his wife came to see me, after their divorce, and told me that as a boy his father had beaten him when he didn’t come in the top five in his class and the whole family had taunted him with not being as good at school as his older sister. When he had failed one subject at school his father had refused to help him any further in his education. If he had been able to understand that he was using these experiences to expect, quite inappropriately, the same type of treatment from his peers and colleagues he could have lessened his stresses considerably, enjoyed his work more and saved his marriage.
All that you think and do today is thought and done against the background of your past experiences. If you are having trouble today, if certain things stress you today, then there is a good chance that the underlying reason for this stress derives at least in part from previous experiences. If you can discover these experiences and reassess them you may well find that your current fears and stresses are unwarranted or inappropriate.
We will now explore some more of the many possible situations that could have occurred in your life, or in anyone’s life. My purpose in giving you these examples is two-fold. Firstly, the