Bittersweet. Miranda Beverly-Whittemore
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house (however laughable that possibility), I’d just have assumed it was a cheesy reproduction bought at a mall shop and set in a spray-painted frame. But as the evening light filtered in from the bay, I felt proud, as though somehow, being here with this piece of history, I had already made something of myself.
‘It’s magnificent, isn’t it?’
I turned to find Indo right beside me. I could only nod, enthralled. ‘Is it really …?’
She nodded, a smile forming on her lips. ‘My mother loved art.’
‘She was a collector?’
She took a good while to answer. ‘It’s mine.’
‘Oh?’
‘My financial inheritance was smaller,’ she said, gesturing to the grand house around us, ‘because I was a girl. So Mother gave me the painting. I was the only one who loved it the way great art must be loved. But then my brother magically came up with some heretofore unknown bylaw which apparently gives him the right to march into anyone’s home and seize her personal property like some kind of dictator. So here it hangs, when I was the one who was prepared to do what was right on its behalf, to—’
‘Can I get you girls something?’
I turned, surprised, to find Tilde standing on my other side, smiling falsely, glass of sherry in hand.
‘We were just discussing …’ I gestured back to the Van Gogh.
‘She asked,’ Indo said.
‘Oh, Indo, I’m certain the poor girl did no such thing.’
I stepped back and out of the sandwich they’d made around me. Something was happening that I did not understand. Yes, Indo was spilling family gossip, but she was a good person, and Tilde just seemed mean.
‘It’s beautiful,’ I offered. Something sharp passed between the older women that I could not name.
A little girl ran up and tugged on Tilde’s arm. ‘Auntie T., can we do sparklers down on Flat Rocks?’
‘I’ll bring them right out.’ The girl squealed and ran out into the tangle of adults. Tilde turned to us. ‘If you’ll excuse me, the angels call.’
‘It’s creepy to call children angels,’ Indo said, as she glowered.
‘And you know so much about it because of all your experience parenting,’ Tilde replied.
Indo listed, and Tilde watched her, satisfied she’d stung.
‘No, you’re right,’ Indo said, ‘I should keep to my role as bitter eccentric.’ But Tilde was already gone.
Cursing quietly, Indo gulped down her wine before charging in the other direction, opening a door into the rest of Trillium and slamming it shut behind herself.
I turned back to the painting, unwilling to let it out of my mind. But what had occurred between the two women – even if I didn’t fully understand it – made it impossible to really see again. The beautiful space inside my head that the Van Gogh had created, that the promise of a summer at Winloch had warmed, was filled with the idle babble all around me, about the sad disrepair of the docks over on the far side of camp, and the best breed of hunting dog, and the name of the right contractor to hire for cottage renovation, so that even as I tried to hold on to the painting with my eyes, the cacophony pulled me away from it, rendering the artwork unfriendly.
Soon I found myself drifting, unnoticed, onto the lantern-lit porch and out into the night, where the children’s sparklers made brilliant, swooping circles upon the lawn. Beyond them, the lights atop each of the twenty-six masts bobbed like fairies, reflected in the velvety black water below. That was when I remembered the sound of my brother’s voice, carried along, like the heady smell of a thunderstorm, on the warm night wind.
I GOT THE PACKAGE FROM my mother that Monday morning. From the way it crinkled, I knew it was lined with Bubble Wrap. John delivered the prize himself, along with a bag of apple-cider donuts.
‘You remembered!’ Ev clapped, jumping unabashedly into his arms when he appeared with the treats. He looked alarmed at the public display of affection, so I excused myself to the bathroom, smiling even more broadly to myself in private, giddy at the notion John was the one Ev was sneaking off to in the early morning hours.
Back in the living room, they stood over me eagerly like children at summer camp as I opened my mother’s package. I noticed him link his hand briefly with hers as she hoped aloud for candy. But I knew what the envelope held without having to look: a stack of self-addressed, stamped envelopes that would lead straight back to Oregon.
‘M.,’ the letter began, ‘Jeanne says you had a lovely visit. I forgot to ask you when we talked. Please call when you get a chance. We miss your voice. Please give Mr and Mrs Winslow our thanks again. Your father sends his love too.’
Six sentences. Easy enough to reply to. I had the envelopes, after all. But responding to my mother in kind always felt like lying. She was so good at playing her part; I was terrible at the role I was meant to uphold. And the alternative, to write what I was really thinking, was impossible, if wickedly fun to imagine:
Mom,
I’m glad to be almost as far away from you as this country allows. The Winslows are beautiful and rich, probably more than your imagination can muster. I know you’re picturing gold candlesticks and infinity pools, but this place they made isn’t decadent, no, it’s rustic in the way only a rich person’s place can be, with money flowing under it invisibly, so that they get to pretend they’re just like the rest of us. They are characters, all of them, and I’m sure they must quibble with each other behind closed doors, but no one here walks around with the imprint of a ring scabbed onto their cheekbone. Funny, that. To a person, they are attractive, devoid of body odor, and not the least bit interested in me. Their dozens of children (nearly all biologically impeccable, with one adopted Chinese toddler for good measure) are precocious. Their dogs ignore me in the nonchalant way only overindulged canines can. They all – even the dogs – eat organic.
Ev has three brothers. The fat one, Banning, has a house made out of straw; the meticulous one, Athol, has a house made out of steel; and I’m fairly certain the third brother, Galway, is the big bad wolf. Ev’s parents, Birch and Tilde (these people all have names only the rich can get away with), are, at once, enigmatic and gracious.
Birch has five living siblings, and they and their broods make up the bulk of the clan in residence at camp. (You’re supposed to call it camp, even though no one is actually camping.) Most of the Winslows, with the exception of Birch’s eccentric sister Indo (who I’m beginning to suspect may be of sapphic persuasion), have children and grandchildren.
Birch’s oldest sister, Greta, has a husband and asexual daughters and a vague son, and three Teutonic grandchildren: Arthur Jr, Victoria, and Samson. Skippy is their Jack Russell, Absalom their golden.
Birch’s younger sister Stockard (Ev calls her Drunkard), has a fat husband called Pinky, a divorced son, PJ, and soccer-loving teenage grandsons. Word is that PJ and his wife were driven apart by the death of their little girl, Fiona, years ago; apparently this loss has rendered them too sad for pets.
Birch’s youngest, pseudo-bohemian sister, Mhairie, has an unremarkable family but for her Jewish son-in-law, David. Everyone has made a point of remarking on the fact that he’s ‘Jew-ish,’ as they pronounce it, not that there’s anything wrong with that. His children, as a result, are Jew-ish too: sharp Ramona, worried Leo, and silly Eli. They are too allergic for pets.