Thomas Wolfe: Of Time and the River, You Can't Go Home Again & Look Homeward, Angel. Thomas Wolfe
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and because they loved one another.
Eugene and Luke went softly up the hall, and out into the dark. Gently, they closed the big front door behind them, and descended the veranda steps. In that enormous silence, birds were waking. It was a little after four o’clock in the morning. Wind pressed the boughs. It was still dark. But above them the thick clouds that had covered the earth for days with a dreary gray blanket had been torn open. Eugene looked up through the deep ragged vault of the sky and saw the proud and splendid stars, bright and unwinking. The withered leaves were shaking.
A cock crew his shrill morning cry of life beginning and awaking. The cock that crew at midnight (thought Eugene) had an elfin ghostly cry. His crow was drugged with sleep and death: it was like a far horn sounding under sea; and it was a warning to all the men who are about to die, and to the ghosts that must go home.
But the cock that crows at morning (he thought), has a voice as shrill as any fife. It says, we are done with sleep. We are done with death. O waken, waken into life, says his voice as shrill as any fife. In that enormous silence, birds were waking.
He heard the cock’s bright minstrelsy again, and by the river in the dark, the great thunder of flanged wheels, and the long retreating wail of the whistle. And slowly, up the chill deserted street, he heard the heavy ringing clangor of shod hoofs. In that enormous silence, life was waking.
Joy awoke in him, and exultation. They had escaped from the prison of death; they were joined to the bright engine of life again. Life, ruddered life, that would not fail, began its myriad embarkations.
A paper-boy came briskly, with the stiff hobbled limp that Eugene knew so well, down the centre of the street, hurling a blocked paper accurately upon the porch of the Brunswick. As he came opposite Dixieland, he moved in to the curb, tossing his fresh paper with a careful plop. He knew there was sickness in the house.
The withered leaves were shaking.
Eugene jumped to the sidewalk from the sodded yard. He stopped the carrier.
“What’s your name, boy?” he said.
“Tyson Smathers,” said the boy, turning upon him a steady Scotch–Irish face that was full of life and business.
“My name is ‘Gene Gant. Did you ever hear of me?”
“Yes,” said Tyson Smathers, “I’ve heard of you. You had number 7.”
“That was a long time ago,” said Eugene, pompously, grinning. “I was just a boy.”
In that enormous silence, birds were waking.
He thrust his hand into a pocket and found a dollar-bill.
“Here,” he said. “I carried the damn things once. Next to my brother Ben, I was the best boy they ever had. Merry Christmas, Tyson.”
“It ain’t Christmas yet,” said Tyson Smathers.
“You’re right, Tyson,” said Eugene, “but it will be.”
Tyson Smathers took the money, with a puzzled, freckled grin. Then he went on down the street, throwing papers.
The maples were thin and sere. Their rotting leaves covered the ground. But the trees were not leafless yet. The leaves were quaking. Some birds began to chatter in the trees. Wind pressed the boughs, the withered leaves were shaking. It was October.
As Luke and Eugene turned up the street toward town, a woman came out of the big brick house across the street, and over the yard toward them. When she got near, they saw she was Mrs. Pert. It was October, but some birds were waking.
“Luke,” she said fuzzily. “Luke? Is it Old Luke?”
“Yes,” said Luke.
“And ‘Gene? Is it old ‘Gene?” She laughed gently, patting his hand, peering comically at him with her bleared oaken eyes, and swaying back and forth gravely, with alcoholic dignity. The leaves, the withered leaves, were shaking, quaking. It was October, and the leaves were shaking.
“They ran old Fatty away, ‘Gene,” she said. “They won’t let her come in the house any more. They ran her away because she liked Old Ben. Ben. Old Ben.” She swayed gently, vaguely collecting her thought. “Old Ben. How’s Old Ben, ‘Gene?” she coaxed. “Fatty wants to know.”
“I’m m-m-m-mighty sorry, Mrs. P-P-P-Pert . . .” Luke began.
Wind pressed the boughs, the withered leaves were quaking.
“Ben’s dead,” said Eugene.
She stared at him for a moment, swaying on her feet
“Fatty liked Ben,” she said gently, in a moment. “Fatty and Old Ben were friends.”
She turned and started unsteadily across the street, holding one hand out gravely, for balance.
In that enormous silence, birds were waking. It was October, but some birds were waking.
Then Luke and Eugene walked swiftly townward, filled with great joy because they heard the sounds of life and daybreak. And as they walked, they spoke often of Ben, with laughter, with old pleasant memory, speaking of him not as of one who had died, but as of a brother who had been gone for years, and was returning home. They spoke of him with triumph and tenderness, as of one who had defeated pain, and had joyously escaped. Eugene’s mind groped awkwardly about. It fumbled like a child, with little things.
They were filled with a deep and tranquil affection for each other: they talked without constraint, without affectation, with quiet confidence and knowledge.
“Do you remember,” Luke began, “the t-t-t-time he cut the hair of Aunt Pett’s orphan boy — Marcus?”
“He — used — a chamber-pot — to trim the edges,” Eugene screamed, waking the street with wild laughter.
They walked along hilariously, greeting a few early pedestrians with ironical obsequiousness, jeering pleasantly at the world in brotherly alliance. Then they entered the relaxed and weary offices of the paper which Ben had served so many years, and gave their stick of news to the tired man there.
There was regret, a sense of wonder, in that office where the swift record of so many days had died — a memory that would not die, of something strange and passing.
“Damn! I’m sorry! He was a great boy!” said the men.
As light broke grayly in the empty streets, and the first car rattled up to town, they entered the little beanery where he had spent, in smoke and coffee, so many hours of daybreak.
Eugene looked in and saw them there, assembled as they had been many years before, like the nightmare ratification of a prophecy: McGuire, Coker, the weary counter-man, and, at the lower end, the press-man, Harry Tugman.
Luke and Eugene entered, and sat down at the counter.
“Gentlemen, gentlemen,” said Luke sonorously.
“Hello, Luke,” barked McGuire. “Do you think you’ll ever have any sense? How are you, son? How’s school?” he said to Eugene. He stared at them for a moment, his wet cigarette plastered comically on his full sag lip, his bleared eyes kindly and drunken.
“General, how’s the boy? What’re you drinking these days — turpentine or varnish?” said the sailor, tweaking him roughly in his larded ribs. McGuire grunted.
“Is it over, son?” said Coker quietly.
“Yes,” said Eugene.
Coker took the long cigar from his mouth and grinned malarially at the boy.
“Feel better, don’t you, son?” he said.
“Yes,” said Eugene. “A hell of a lot.”
“Well, Eugenics,” said the sailor briskly, “what are you eating?”
“What’s the man got?” said Eugene, staring at