Recapture. Erica Olsen
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low-growing yellow flowers. Goosefoot, he thought; the name came unbidden from some store of knowledge he’d forgotten he had. Feeling heavy, weary, he paused for water and a snack, then gave in to the gravitational tug of the earth. He sat himself down on some Late Triassic. (In relation to Swanson’s ability to identify strata, the visitor center had done its work.) A weatherbeaten juniper extended its limbs in fellowship. Some Mormon tea was growing in its shadow, gaunt yet luxuriant.
He stretched himself out on a bench of warm rock for a nap a collared lizard would envy.
He woke up in near-dark, shivering, and the water bottle had rolled away somewhere, and Swanson, who had wanted an adventure, cursed his stupidity.
How far in had he hiked? An hour or two, surely no more than that. Though there may have been some wandering near the end, some wandering concurrent with poetic musings and observings, during which time he may not have paid strict attention to his surroundings. During the time he took to assess the situation the last light vanished from the sky. He was in his technical shorts with the mesh vented panels, and the breeze rattled him. Why hadn’t he worn pants? He blinked against the confusing darkness.
His headlamp, of course, was in his car. (He remembered how this trip began, his pride in packing the gear just so. Once he’d gotten on the road it was a mess, of course, his good work undone. Why had he tried so hard in the first place?) The car was at the trailhead, and the trailhead—he did not know where it was.
He fumbled for his cell phone. He could use it to light his way.
He scanned the ground, gray and indistinct, for his own footprints, instructing himself: Don’t fall. That was the first rule of hiking, day or night. Swanson set his feet deliberately. Why had he worn sandals? They were like huge flopping rafts, ill-fitting, a stupid choice. His feet chafed, and almost certainly he had blisters. No, the first rule of hiking was Be Not Stupid, and he was violating it by hiking in the dark instead of waiting for daylight. Or waiting for rescue. Not that he needed rescuing. And if he did, how embarrassing would it be to be rescued while wearing technical shorts? He should never have let himself buy them.
Swanson trod stone and sand and cobbles, watchful, mindful of his limitations.
Soon enough, his eyes grew accustomed to the night. The bare rock reflected starlight. The night was full of strangeness. He heard a bird he didn’t know. Once he jumped at the appearance of a huge beetle that hovered in the air at knee level, clacking and swaying like some miniature robot drone. He had no idea where in the sky the moon would appear or in what phase it would be, but maybe if the world could pave a bike path from Moab to Arches it could give Swanson the moon. Swanson was not one acquainted with the night but it was remarkably freeing to stride along like this, unhoused. If he’d thought to stick a fleece into his daypack he was sure he could have ridden out the night in comfort. Why had he never taken up backpacking? This was the West, the wild and the free, the unfettered and confident. “You make a left turn at Albuquerque,” he proclaimed in the voice of Bugs Bunny.
Swanson fell.
Climbing up a small ledge he was pretty sure he’d descended on his way in, his sandaled foot slipped. He lost his balance and sat back in the air, landing awkwardly on his shoulders on the downslope, legs pedaling. Bassackwards was the word for it. It took a few tries before he succeeded in righting himself. Sand and juniper bits in his hair and down his shirt collar. He brushed himself off hurriedly, as if there were an audience to witness his ineptitude and discomfiture and so on. He felt for blood, found his phone, calmed his racing heart.
It was not the end of Swanson.
And then the moon, the kindly moon, came up and saved him, kept him from continuing up the ledge into God knows where. In the moonlight he could see his footprints waffling down the sandy wash—the sandals were new and the tread was clear. He followed them. After an easy walk, he saw the glint of moon on metal: his car.
How long until the car would have been noticed—until he was missed? Swanson felt weepy and indignant. Nobody cared where he was. He drove too fast, crossing the center line on the curves. Once he almost hit a rabbit as it raced in furred desperation across the roadway.
Single and forty, survivor of various ordeals, he turned back onto 191.
Monticello was a scatter of lights, the promise of a meal and a motel, civilization. Swanson felt suddenly, absurdly at home. He’d been there before. Monticello as in cellophane, he thought; not cello like the instrument or Thomas Jefferson’s house. He could see lights high up on the mountain road, someone else making the long drive into town. Hart’s Draw Road, it was called. The bloom of memory seemed wondrous to Swanson, as transient and lovely as spring itself. He slowed to forty-five, and saw the Maverik station on the north side of town.
Where the heck did that come from? he thought. It had not been there on his way up just two days before. Lights and angels and restrooms.
He pulled in across an admirably smooth curb cut, parked next to a full-size pickup with Arizona plates. The Maverik was obviously brand new, its expanses of red and black graphic and unspoiled. It was like a child’s toy just out of the package, life-size and dazzling. The asphalt was unmarked with wads of gum or sticky pools of spilled diesel. The pumps were a remarkable lineup, newly extruded from the plastic Eden machine and barely touched by human hands.
Swanson went in and found the restroom. He had never imagined that a gas station bathroom could be so pristine. It was a wonder.
In the mirror over the sink he found that he looked no better and no worse than anyone else.
The pickup pulled out while he was in the restroom, leaving Swanson the only customer in the store. He wandered the aisles. He admired the photo murals of mountains and canyons and the disembodied portion of spruce tree and the dummy kayaker suspended in midair. He admired the taxidermy. At the sandwich trough, the choice between turkey and Black Forest ham brought tears to his eyes. He picked up one of each. He picked up potato chips and tortilla chips and honey-roasted cashew nuts and a pickle in a vacuum-sealed bag with a picture of a cartoon pickle on it. He did not stumble, and no one knew what he’d been through.
At the register, he ventured a mild flirtation with the checkout girl. Jolted out of her reverie, she blinked at him in astonishment and wished him a nice day.
Swanson went out to pump his gas. From where he was standing, under the canopy, he could just make out the poster on the video rental kiosk—some movie in which attractive people met, then fell in love. All eyes and lips and hair, and a title whose lettering, at this distance, he couldn’t read. He made up his own title. Maverik: A Love Story. For the first time in a long time he felt that it wouldn’t hurt him to watch something like that.
Everthing is Red
I was walking over to the trading post to see Barbara, the trader’s wife. That morning, opening a can of peaches, I’d sliced into the palm of my left hand. The cut was deep, and close enough to the wrist to scare me a little.
The trading post stood at the bottom of a rough road that dipped down into a canyon. It was a small stone building in the lee of the cliffs, shaded by big cottonwoods. A car I didn’t know was out in front.
There were two men inside the trading post. One was the archaeologist whose camp was down the road from mine. I knew the other man by sight—one of the newspaper reporters come out from Denver to cover the Indian war. The reporter was sitting by the stove, drinking coffee and eating Barbara’s biscuits. His flannel suit was wrinkled, and some letters stuck out of the breast pocket. A red and yellow serape was draped around one shoulder and trailed down to the floor.
I thought there was an Indian too, one of the archaeologist’s mummies waiting to be wrapped in newspaper, packed in a crate, and shipped back to the museum in Chicago. It looked like the ones I’d seen before, sitting head to knees in the dim corner. But then my eyes adjusted to the light, and I saw that it was only some sacks of flour and a rug draped over the top.
The post carried groceries and hardware, blankets and tack. Baskets were propped on some of the shelves. Behind the counter, strings of silver and turquoise were bunched together, waiting to be