Burning Kingdoms. Lauren DeStefano
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the stuff back up before she can swallow it. “I can’t hear myself think in here,” she says.
“Isn’t that the point?” Pen says, mimicking the dance moves she’s been observing all night. They make her look deranged, like she’s trying to stomp invisible bugs.
I laugh. “What is that supposed to be?”
“I don’t think anyone knows.” She snorts, which sends us all into hysterics. “The dancing and the music and the hair and the dresses—it’s all so brilliantly tacky.”
“We really should go,” Birdie says.
“For a girl who sneaks out at night, you really are no fun,” Pen says.
“Birdie’s right,” I say.
“Morgan, you more than anyone should be glad we’re here. Isn’t this exactly what you’ve been dreaming about all your life?”
She’s right and she’s wrong all at once. I have dreamed of the ground for as long as I can remember, but the most talented imagination in human existence couldn’t have foreseen this. It’s all so bright and fast and terrifying.
“Dance with me!” Pen says, grabbing my arms. I backpedal, pulling her for the door.
“You, my friend, are ossified,” Birdie says, and giggles at Pen. I don’t know what that means, but I suspect it applies to her as well.
When we burst outside into the cold air, Pen opens her arms and throws her head back and says, “I can’t believe we could get away with that in public.”
“There aren’t any speakeasies on Internment?” Birdie asks. She slips on a patch of ice, and I catch her by the arm.
“Only bottles and locks and drawn curtains,” Pen says, trying to balance on the edge of the sidewalk, to little avail. “This cold is drawing the burn right out of my veins,” she sulks. “I think I’m already sober.”
“You aren’t,” I assure her.
“I don’t know how you’re both holding it so well,” Birdie says. “The ground is tilting.”
“Isn’t it great?” Pen says. With a shriek she topples into a pile of snow. “Morgan is a sensible drunk,” she tells Birdie as she picks herself up.
“Some sense,” I say. “I don’t even know where we are.”
“I do; everything’s jake,” Birdie says. “You’ve done this kind of thing before?”
“Now and again,” I say. “Not often.”
“Not often,” Birdie echoes, rolling my accent down her tongue.
“Only when we’re together,” Pen says. “We have a pact. Never drink to combat our sorrows and only drink when we’re together.”
“Why?” Birdie says.
“Because it’s dangerous otherwise,” I say, fighting off a chill that is not entirely brought on by the wind. Lex. I had my first sip of tonic the day we learned Lex would never see again. My parents kept vigil in his hospital room, and they sent me home to an empty apartment. But Pen was waiting for me on the steps; she took me by the hand and she led me to our secret cavern, the bottles clinking in her satchel. That day was an ocean in itself, filled with creatures that wanted to pull me to uncertain depths.
It’s as though Pen knows what I’m thinking, for she wraps her arm around my shoulders and kisses my cheek.
Pen looks to Birdie. “I should like to know more about your lonely god.”
“That part is boring,” Birdie says. “The divinities are the only parts I ever liked in my studies.”
“What are divinities?” I ask. I had hoped to keep Pen from mourning our own faraway god, but if we’re to live in this world, we should learn about its faith.
“They’re like guardians,” Birdie says. “They keep the elements safe. They’re the first creatures to have existed in the world, and everyone descends from them.”
“So the divinities are human, then,” Pen says.
Birdie shakes her head, loses her balance and giggles as she stumbles. “There’s Aresi, who doesn’t have a body. She lives on the wind and can be thousands of places at once. And there’s Terra, who makes things grow, and when living things die, it’s her job to guide their spirits up to the afterlife.”
“So it’s her fault Internment is floating in the sky, then.” I laugh.
“She must not have liked us,” Pen says.
“Maybe she thought we were dead and the whole city got stuck halfway to the afterlife,” I say. And after I’ve said the words, I realize with certainty that I’m still drunk.
“Growing up by the water, I was made to learn a lot about Ehco,” Birdie says. “When the world was created, he was the first creature of the sea, and he was as small as a worm. And he asked God why he was meant to live in that whole huge body of water, and The God told him that when he put mankind in the world, mankind would sometimes ask The God for things he wouldn’t be able to do. And mankind would grow angry with him—and they would grow sad, and that anger and sorrow needed someplace to go, and so it would be Ehco’s job to consume it and keep it in his body so that it didn’t destroy the world. He was a small thing then, but soon the ocean would be the only thing big enough to contain him. And eventually he divided himself into pieces—a bit in each ocean.”
Pen cranes her neck to get a view of the water in the distance. “Your ocean does seem to go on forever,” she says, “but I don’t think it’s big enough to contain all the anger and the sorrow in the world.”
“They’re only stories,” Birdie says. “People live their lives devoted to them. My father made us memorize passages from The Text, but even as a girl I never believed them. Except maybe for Ehco.”
“Why just Ehco?” I say.
“Because when I see anger and sadness,” Birdie says, “I can’t believe it’s for nothing. I like the idea that there’s a great monster in the sea who keeps all the bad thoughts so we can let them go.”
She has slowed a pace behind us, and Pen and I stop to take her hands as we make our way back to the hotel.
I had worried about sneaking past the princess upon our return, but her bed is empty and neatly made up. Early gray light follows us in through the window.
“She can’t still be meeting with your father,” Pen says.
Birdie opens the door and looks out into the hallway. “Nope. Fireplace is out,” she whispers. “Father is always the one to put it out before he goes to bed.” She lurches in an unfortunate and familiar way, and, hand over mouth, she staggers off for the water room. They call it a bathroom down here, but that doesn’t make much sense, as the bath is only a small part of the room’s purpose.
Pen falls facedown on her bed with a groan. “I’d say I’ll feel this in the morning, but it’s already morning, and I already do.”
I help her under the covers. “What do you suppose that princess is off doing?” she mumbles into her pillow.
I fall gratefully into my bed. “Whatever it is, we can’t let on that we knew she was gone.”
“She’s only a princess,” Pen says. “We’re queens now, remember.”
I close my eyes and see Internment cloaked in silver. Everyone has black lips and ringed eyes. The train pulls across the screen, and I’m not awake to see the last car go by.
6
“Up and at ’em!” Annette says, knocking on our door as she makes her rounds through the hotel. She’s done this every