The Ranch She Left Behind. Kathleen O'Brien
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âRo, Iââ
âNo foolishness about imposing. Itâs your house. RatsâI shouldnât ever have rented the sister suite. But weâll think of something. Where are your things?â
Ro moved to the window to scan the yard. âIâll get Barton back. Or somebody. Whoâs not leading a class right now, Bree? Weâve got tons of strapping college kids. One of them will bring your suitcases in.â
But Bree was staring at Penny thoughtfully. Her cool, observant control had always spotted things Rowenaâs passionate fire either overlooked or tried to will away.
âHang on a minute, Ro.â Breeâs blue eyes had darkened slightly, and her cameo-pale forehead furrowed. âEverythingâs okay, isnât it, Pea?â
âEverythingâs fine.â Eventually, Penny would have to tell them about the intruder. But one thing at a time.
âGood.â Rowena scraped her black hair away from her face impatiently. She was an old hand at rejecting any little reality that annoyed her. âThen of course you wonât go back to San Francisco tonight, so letâs find one of the kids toââ
âRo, let Penny talk.â Bree put her hand on their older sisterâs arm.
Penny smiled, grateful. Rowena was a steamroller when she got going, and Penny would find herself ensconced in one of the cottages by nightfall, with a pet parakeet and a Silverdell voterâs ID, if she didnât slow things down.
Breeâs voice was gentle. âTell us whatâs going on, Penny. Did you really come all this way just for one day? Are you really going back tonight?â
Penny took a breath. âNo. In fact, Iâm not going back to San Francisco at all. I sold the town house.â
âYou what?â Both her sisters spoke at once.
âI sold the town house. You know Ruth left it to me, for a nest egg. She expected me to sell, and luckily it moved very quickly. So Iâve come back to Silverdell.â
âThen...but thatâs fantastic!â Rowena frowned, tugging the sheet from her shoulder and glancing around the porch, her gaze again calculating, sorting. âOkay, so weâll have to free up something more permanent. Theyâre almost finished with the four new cottages, but they wonât be move-in ready untilââ
âRowena!â Penny squared her shoulders. âBree. I know this is going to be a shock, and thatâs why I didnât call ahead. Or write. I wanted to tell you in person, face-to-face. The thing is...Iâm not going to be living at the ranch.â
âDonât be silly,â Rowena repeated, almost absently. âItâs no imposition. Itâs what weâve all been hoping for. You know weâve been begging you to come ever since Ruth died. Since before Ruth died. Of course youâll live here.â
âNo. I wonât.â Penny took Roâs right hand and Breeâs left into her own. âI love you for wanting to take care of me. But I wonât be moving into the ranch.â
Rowena opened her mouth, obviously prepared to protest reflexively, but a glare from Bree made her shut it again.
âDamn it, Ro. Let her explain.â
But could she? Could she ever make them understand how, up until today, sheâd always been a stranger to herself, a guest in her own life? Their love, Ruthâs love, the exile to San Francisco, the quiet, hermit life with her great-aunt...where no storms came...
No storms. And nothing else, either.
Everyone had tried to shield her from the ugliness of the Wright family history. Maybe they thought that, since sheâd been only eleven at the time of the tragedy, she had a chance of growing up unscarred if they wrapped her in cotton and tucked her away.
But in the end, theyâd only managed to create a ghost of a girl, who had no idea who she was or what she wanted out of life.
âIâve bought a house. A duplex. Iâm renting one side out for now, but eventually I hope to open a studio. Give lessons, maybe. Definitely paint and take pictures, and anything else that will help me earn a living.â
The news wounded them. She could see it in the speechless shock that wiped their eyes and smiles clear of emotion.
âIâm sorry,â she said, though sheâd vowed to herself that she wouldnât apologize. She had nothing to apologize for. She had a right to make her own decisions, to live wherever she pleased. And yet she hated to hurt them.
âRowena, Bree...please try to understand. I love you both more than I can say. But itâs time I created a life of my own.â
* * *
THE DUPLEX MAX had rented was newly refurnished, which was one of the reasons heâd chosen it. Heâd come out twice to look at various possible rentals. Heâd seen plenty of houses much grander than this little cottage, but grand didnât suit his agenda. Simple suited him. Simple and clean, with structural integrity and enough charm to please the soul.
Even Ellen hadnât been able to say the duplex was ugly. Small, yes. But delightful in a quaint, historic-cottage way. A pale butter-yellow with blue trim around the windows and doors, the one-story wooden structure looked neat and friendly, glowing under autumn sunshine filtered through half a dozen gorgeous aspens.
And furnished made it even better. For the next nine months, he could leave all the big pieces in Chicago, which was a relief. Back home, every stick of furniture seemed saturated with memories of Lydia. That was her chair at the dinner table. That was where she sat while they watched TV. Even the pencil marks on the woodwork measuring Ellenâs growth had been made by Lydia.
Which was probably more proof that Max had been a hopelessly absentee father. But he couldnât change the past. All he could do was rededicate himself to his daughter from now on. No do-overs in this lifeâbut luckily you did occasionally get to start over.
And it would be easier to start over without Lydiaâs ghost everywhere they turned.
He had put away his clothes and books and set up his drafting table. Later, heâd have to go buy supplies, but for now the landlady had been thoughtful, providing everything from magazines on the coffee table to knives and forks in the pantry.
Maybe heâd wait for Ellen to come back from exploring, and then theyâd make a grocery run. He wasnât very good at cooking yet, but heâd mastered the red rice with tuna horror she seemed to love best. Sheâd probably had it twice a week in the months since Lydia died.
He walked out to the car one more time, clearing out the last of the loose itemsâEllenâs paper cup from the fast-food lunch theyâd grabbed as they neared Silverdell, her tangled earbuds and the cherry-flavored lip balm sheâd bought at a gas station. He dug out a paperback book about a vampire high school, which had gotten wedged between the seats. He was finally extricating himself from the SUV when he heard another car drive up beside his.
He straightened, smiling, wondering if it might be his landlady, who would also be his next-door neighbor. The agent had explained that the owner, someone named Penelope Wright, would live on the other side, though so far heâd seen no signs of her. For some reason, heâd assumed she was a retireeâmaybe the old-fashioned name did that. But perhaps she wasnât retired, and had merely been at work all day.
Reflections of aspen leaves dappled her carâs windshield, so he couldnât see anything except the hint of a bright blue coat or dress.
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