Chapter One

      September 1295

      The baby kicked low in her belly and Matilda gasped.

      ‘What is wrong?’

      She looked at Bess, who was still gleaning the fields and finding any grain that might have been missed in the late harvest. They couldn’t spare any food, but even so Matilda was always deeply satisfied when her bag was full. As if she’d been on a treasure hunt and could now feed her family and friends.

      ‘She’s kicking me again.’

      ‘It’s a girl today?’

      Matilda thought about the sharp pain when she’d climbed out of bed that morning, the constant turning of the baby inside her, so that she’d barely been able to get bread down during breakfast, and now the deep thumping, like a rabbit in the woods.

      ‘Unquestionably, the baby is a girl.’ She pushed herself off the ground and pressed one hand to her lower back.

      It wasn’t the first time she had been punched on the inside today, and she knew it wouldn’t be the last. The gleaning forced her to remain in the same position, and the baby demanded that she stretch. Her giving in to the kick was a compromise she happily made, though the reprieve wouldn’t last long.

      There was more work to be done, and the fields were full of families who were stuffing their sacks. Nearby Agnes, the cordwainer’s only daughter, was crawling on the ground. Unlike the other children, however, she was taking the wheat shafts and stacking them like houses. Matilda wondered which of her brothers would ruin her creations first.

      Bess stood and stamped her feet. ‘If your reasoning holds true, the baby will be a girl.’

      ‘You think my certainty is ridiculous?’

      ‘Unlike you, I listen to our healer, Rohesia, who insists you’re carrying too low in your belly for a girl. Plus, the only reason you hold this belief is because of your own mischievous past and Roger’s temperament—’ Bess clamped her mouth shut.

      ‘Do not worry,’ Matilda said.

      There was only one reason why worry ever crossed Bess’s face, and that was if she believed she’d hurt another. Matilda did hurt, but not because her friend had remarked on her husband. She hurt because he was gone.

      ‘Forgive me.’ Bess clapped her hands to her cheeks. ‘I keep forgetting.’

      Matilda saw Bess’s dismayed face and felt her own emotions turn inside her again. She was familiar with it. Grief that she hadn’t dared release.

      ‘There is nothing to forgive,’ Matilda said. ‘It’s been barely two full moons.’

      She’d hurt more if no one mentioned Roger at all. That man, her childhood friend and her husband, deserved to be remembered. He had certainly deserved more than her as a wife. But there was no wishing for that now.

      Bess exhaled and shook her head. ‘I’ve made it worse.’

      Only for a moment. The least Matilda could do, was give her daughter her father’s even temperament. To that end, she was determined her daughter would know no sorrow, and that included her mother’s.

      Swallowing hard, Matilda said, ‘As usual. Now all I have to do is wait until you say something truly grievous.’

      Bess’s lips twisted wryly. ‘Give me a few moments.’

      Matilda clasped her friend’s hand. ‘I’m gladdened that you forget he is gone. It will keep him alive when the baby comes.’

      Bess’s eyes softened as she glanced at Matilda’s swollen stomach. ‘Anything you wish.’

      ‘Good. Though I try to be calm, I fear she’ll need all the gentle temperament she can get. She would do well to remember her father.’

      Roger, her best friend and her husband, had been the exact opposite of her. Whereas she, in her youth, had always been taking risks and pulling pranks, Roger had been helpful and protective. Ever easy with his smiles and his care, Roger had been the absolute antithesis of the person she’d been, but she’d wanted his calmness in her life, and he...he’d wanted her.

      Any moment she’d be crying, and then her friend would believe she had in fact hurt her.

      A couple of blinks of her eyes and she saw a familiar figure on the horizon. ‘Louve’s on his way here.’

      Bess turned. ‘It’s too early for the men to break from the harvesting.’

      Glancing towards the sun, Matilda said, ‘Apparently not.’

      ‘Then something must be wrong.’

      Feeling the same sense of urgency, Matilda placed her hand on her belly and locked her legs. There’d be no running for her.

      ‘There’d be others with him if there was something amiss,’ Matilda said.

      Even after all this time it went against her instincts to hold still, but when Roger had died, for the sake of her baby, she’d vowed she’d be more like him. To set an example that would serve her child well and never to never turn out like her mother. Foolish. Heartbroken. Alone. Twice now.

      Bess lifted her skirts. Despite her girth, she’d be able to run if there truly was an emergency. ‘Maybe they couldn’t be spared.’

      ‘And Louve can?’ Matilda answered. ‘At this time of day he must want to discuss the usual problems. Some argument or a missing tally stick.’

      ‘You do too much, and with only two of you now overseeing everything it’s not tenable.’

      ‘We’ll find a replacement soon enough.’

      Until Roger’s death there had been three on the estate who oversaw the operations. Now there were only two—herself and Louve, who was both steward for the state and reeve to oversee the crops. She saw to the management of Mei Solis as well as helped settle disputes. Although since Roger—

      No. In the fields all day, she thought too much of her lost husband.

      Giving in, she strode towards Louve, hoping her mud-caked skirts would slow her enough to give the impression of serenity.

      ‘What is it?’ she asked.

      Louve indicated behind him. ‘I came to warn you. Storm’s coming from just beyond that hill.’

      She looked over his shoulder towards the field, where the men were cutting the stalks. If there was a storm, the hill disguised