The Man Who Had Everything. Christine Rimmer
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in some ways for a young mind to comprehend. But the end of her life as she’d known and loved it?
That had been horrible, too. And by then, three years after her dad died, she’d been old enough to understand what was happening when she watched Malomar being taken away.
But she wasn’t dwelling on any sad memories today. Uh-uh. She had the man she loved sitting right beside her, and he was finally seeing her as a woman grown. She fully intended to enjoy every minute of this afternoon.
They ate in silence for a little while, finishing off their drumsticks and potato salad, sipping their lemonade.
Finally Grant said, “I remember that you got your horse that Christmas, just like you wanted—and promptly fell off her and broke your collarbone.”
She confessed, “It’s true. I was never what you’d call a cautious kid.”
“Uh-uh. You were brave and bold and nobody ever told you what to do.” Those sky-blue eyes of his gleamed at her. She saw admiration in them.
For the fearless kid she’d once been? Or the woman she was now?
Or maybe…both? Her heart skipped a beat at the thought.
And then he was frowning again. “Look. Steph. There’s something I really have to—”
“Oh, don’t,” she cried before he could finish.
Now he seemed puzzled. “Don’t?”
“That’s right. Don’t. I know just what you’re going to say and I don’t want to hear it, okay?”
He actually gulped. “Er, you know?”
She set her plate aside and wiped her hands on a paper towel. “Of course, I know. How could I not? Something like this, a woman always knows. I admit, you had me wondering at first. But I got the message eventually. Really, it’s all just so…perfectly obvious.”
“Obvious.” He gaped at her.
“Yes.”
He set his own plate down. And he knocked back the rest of his lemonade, crushing the paper cup in his big fist when he finished. And he swore under his breath. “Steph.”
“Yeah?”
“What, exactly, are you talking about?”
Should she say it right out? Probably not. Her mom always used to tell her that men didn’t like it when a woman got too direct, when a woman dared to take the lead in an obvious way.
But her mom was from a different generation, after all. From a time when women were expected to wait around for men to make the first move.
Thank God it wasn’t like that anymore.
But still, what if she spooked him by laying it right out there, bold as you please? She didn’t want to scare him off.
A sudden gust of wind stirred the trees around them and tried to blow the paper plates away, with only chicken bones to hold them down.
“Oops.” Swiftly she gathered up the remains of their meal, stuffed it in the trash bag she’d brought and weighted the bag down with a rock. “There,” she said unnecessarily when that job was done. He was sitting so still, watching her, kind of narrow-eyed, waiting for her to explain herself.
She stalled some more. “Hey. Want a beer?” She started to rise.
“Stay here.” He reached for his boots. “I can get it.” He pulled on his boots and grabbed the trash bag from under the rock. “You want one?”
She didn’t much care for beer. “No.”
She watched him go to the horses, something inside her kind of aching in a joyous way. His shoulders were so broad, his waist so hard and narrow. And he truly did have one fine butt.
And how could she tell him—that she knew he wanted her though he didn’t want to want her? How could she make him understand that she didn’t expect anything from him?
Except maybe his kisses and his eager embrace. Just this…wonder. And this joy.
And as for the rest? Well, why not just let the rest take care of itself?
He stuffed the trash in the saddlebags, got a beer and returned to her. She stewed some more over what to say to him as he set the can on one of the rocks and pulled off his boots all over again. He popped the tab and took a long drink. She watched his Adam’s apple bounce up and down and continued her internal debate: What to say?
How to say it?
Finally he set down what was left of the beer. “Well?”
“Um. Yeah. Okay. I…” The words were right there, inside her mind, so clear. I know that you’re attracted to me, but you’re thinking it’s not right because you’re not looking for anything permanent. You’re telling yourself you won’t take advantage of me. But oh, please. Take advantage. Take advantage right now….
So clear. And so much easier to think than to actually say.
“What?” His gaze locked on hers. “Say it.”
“It’s…a beautiful day, don’t you think?” Oh, Lord. How lame could she get?
“Steph…” His eyes said he couldn’t make up his mind between reaching out and grabbing her—or jumping up and running clean away from her as fast as he could go.
“A beautiful day…” She said those lame words again and that time, she swayed toward him. He stiffened. She landed against his chest and looked up at him longingly. “And it’s just you and me, all alone on this blanket under the trees…” She put her hand over his heart. Oh, it felt so good. So perfect, just leaning against him. Her breath was all knotted up in her throat. She wanted to stay right where she was, forever, yet she was absolutely certain that any second now, he would push her away.
But he didn’t. With a low groan, he gathered her close. “Damn it, Steph.”
She laid a finger against his wonderful mouth. “Shh. Okay? Just…shh.”
He stared down at her. She could feel the warmth and the strength of him, the shape of him, so hard and manly. And cradled close against him like this, she could feel his heart, too, beating away in there, firm and deep. He said gruffly, “I can’t…think, when I touch you.”
“Good,” she told him, feeling braver now, her love and her yearning leading her on. “Because you don’t need to think. I don’t want you to think.”
His lip twitched. It was almost a smile. “Always so damn sure of yourself.”
“Oh, no,” she cried. “I’m not sure of myself at all. But I am sure about how I feel. Sure about…what I want.”
“This is crazy.” But his arms tightened around her.
“Oh, no. Not crazy. Right. Exactly right.”
“You smell like sunshine,” he whispered, the sound rough, as if it hurt him, just to get those words out. “And the way you feel, in my arms, when I touch you…”
“Just kiss me,” she whispered back, lifting her mouth to him. “Just kiss me and the rest will take care of itself.”
“Shouldn’t…” The single word came out on another groan.
“Oh, yes. You should…” So…heady. This magic. This power she was finding she had over him. The magic of wanting. The power of desire.
Who knew it could be like this between a man and woman? She never would have guessed. Every nerve in her body seemed to be singing. She was shivery—but with wonderful, heavy, lazy heat.
“Damn. You’re killing me, you know that?”
“Oh, Grant…”
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