A Home for Hannah. Patricia Davids
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panel in the ceiling of her bedroom. She rushed into the room, swept up her nightgown and the lingerie hanging from the open drawer of her bureau, stuffed everything inside and slammed it shut. She whirled around to see him standing in the doorway.
Her bed wasn’t made. Papers and books were scattered across her desk. A romance novel lay open on her bedside table. The heat of a blush rushed to her face. For a second, she thought she saw a grin twitch at the corner of his lips. Her chin came up. “I wasn’t expecting company in my bedroom today.”
The heat of a blush flooded her face. She stuttered, “You know what I mean.”
Stop talking. I sound like an idiot.
Nick pointed to the ceiling. “Is that the access?”
“Yes.” She worked to appear calm and composed, cool even. It was hard when his nearness sent her pulse skyrocketing and made every nerve stand on end.
He crossed the room and reached the cord that hung down without any trouble. The long panel swung open and a set of steps came partway down. He unfolded them and tested their sturdiness, then started upward. When he vanished into the darkness above her, Miriam called up, “Shall I get a flashlight?”
A bright beam of light illuminated the rafters. “I’ve got one.”
Of course he did. She’d noticed it earlier on his tool belt. Sheriff Nick Bradley seemed to be prepared for every contingency from checking baby formula to searching cobweb-filled corners. Strong, levelheaded, dependable, they were some of the words she had used to describe him to her Amish girlfriends so long ago. It seemed that he hadn’t changed.
Miriam jerked her mind out of the past. This had to stop. She couldn’t start mooning over Nick the way she had when she was a love-struck teenager. Too much stood between them.
He leaned over the opening to look down at her. “Any idea where the baby bed is? There’s a lot of stuff up here.”
“No idea. If you can’t find a crib in an attic, you’re not much of a detective.” Her words came out sounding sharper than she intended. She was angry with herself for letting him get under her skin.
The sound of a heavy object hitting the floor overhead made her jump. It was quickly followed by his voice. “Sorry. I don’t think it broke.”
She scowled upward. “What was that?”
“Just an old headboard.”
“Great grandmother’s cherrywood headboard, hand carved by my great-grandfather?”
“Could be.” His voice was a shade weaker.
Miriam started up the steps. “Let me help before you bring the house down on our heads.”
“It’s tight up here.”
“It might be for a six-foot moose,” she muttered. She reached the top of the steps to find him holding out his hand to help her. Reluctantly, she accepted it and stepped up into the narrow open space beside him. They were inches apart. She wanted to jump backward but knew there was nothing but air behind her. It was hard to draw a breath. Her pulse skipped and skittered like a wild thing. She pulled her hand from his.
He said, “It’s tight even for a five-foot-three fox.”
She could hear the laughter under his words. Annoyed at his familiarity, she snapped, “It’s not politically correct to call a woman a fox.”
He cleared his throat. “I was referring to your red hair, Miriam. It’s also not politically correct to call an officer of the law a moose.”
Turning away, he banged his head on a kerosene lamp hanging from one of the rafters.
She slipped past him on the narrow aisle. “If the shoe fits... I think the baby stuff is down here.”
Beneath the dim light coming through a dormer window, she spied a cradle piled high with old clothes and blankets. A wide-rimmed black hat and a straw hat sat atop the pile. She knew before she touched them that they had belonged to Mark.
Tenderly Miriam lifted the felt hat and covered her face with it. She breathed deeply, but no trace of her brother’s scent remained. A band tightened around
her heart until she thought it might break in two.
“Are they Mark’s things?” Nick asked behind her.
She could only nod. Even after all these years, it was hard to accept that she would never see him again. He’d been her other half. She was incomplete without him. She could hear his laughter and see his face as clearly as if he were standing in front of her.
Nick lifted a stack of boxes and papers from the seat of a bentwood rocker and set them on the floor. He took the clothing and blankets from the cradle and laid them aside, leaving the flashlight on top of the pile. Picking up the cradle, he said, “I’ll take this down. You can bring the baby clothes when you find them.”
He didn’t wait for her reply. When he was gone, she sat in the rocker and crushed her brother’s hat against her chest as hot tears streamed down her face.
* * *
Nick descended the attic steps with the sound of Miriam’s weeping ringing in his ears. He wanted to help, but he knew anything he offered in the way of comfort would be rejected. It hurt to know she still grieved so deeply.
After making his way down to the kitchen, he found Ada and the baby both asleep in the rocker. The bottle in Ada’s slack hand dripped formula onto the floor. When he took it from her, she jerked awake, startling the baby who whimpered.
“Habe ich schlafe?” Ada peered at Nick with confusion in her eyes.
“Ja, Frau Kauffman. You fell asleep,” he answered softly.
Childhood summers spent with his Amish grandmother and cousins had given him a decent understanding of the Amish language. While it was referred to as Pennsylvania Dutch, it was really Pennsylvania Deitsh, an old German dialect blended with English words into a language that was unique.
Ada sat up straighter and adjusted the baby in her arms. “Don’t tell Miriam. She already worries about me too much.”
“It will be our secret. Where shall I put the cradle?”
“Here beside me. I sleep downstairs now. Miriam insists on it. She doesn’t want me climbing the stairs.”
Taking a dishcloth from the sink, Nick mopped up the spilled milk. “I imagine Miriam gets her way.”
Ada looked toward the stairs, then leaned closer to Nick. “Not so much. If I get well, she will leave again. I may be sickly all year.”
He grinned. “That will be our secret, too.”
“Goot. Where is she?”
Nick’s grin faded. “She’s still in the attic. She found some of Mark’s things. I don’t think she was ready for that.”
“My poor daughter. She cannot see the blessings God has given her. She only sees what she has lost.”
“She needs more time, that’s all.”
“No, it is more than that. I miss my son every day. I miss my husband, God rest his soul. I mourn them, but in God’s own time I will join them in heaven. Until then, He has much for me to do here on earth. It will soon be time to plant my garden. With the weather getting nicer, I must visit the sick and the elderly. I have baking to do for the socials and weddings and I must pray for my child.”
“I’ll pray for her, too.”
“Bless you, Nicolas. I accept that Miriam will never return to our Amish ways, but my child carries a heavy burden in her heart. One she refuses to share. I pray every day that she finds peace.”
Ada struggled to her feet. Nick gave her a hand. “Danki. Take the baby, Nicolas.”
“Sure.” He accepted