What Happens in Paris. Nancy Robards Thompson

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me in my low-cut pink sweater that didn’t seem so sexy anymore, and my sister with her sandals in her hand and her white pants rolled to the knee.

      She let me talk.

      “Ri, you weren’t surprised when you heard about Blake, were you?”

      She shrugged, pushed a wisp of short blond hair out of her eyes.

      “Rita? Are you saying you knew all along?”

      She opened her mouth to speak, but closed it on a sigh, and shrugged again. “Come on, Anna. He was just a little too…” She dragged out the word as if stalling for time.

      Finally with a look of resignation she said, “He was a little too in touch with his feminine side. I mean, either that or you’d snagged every woman’s dream man.”

      Snagged him? Was that what I did?

      Blake and I never had a sweep-you-off-your-feet courtship. We met our senior year of college and dated for about two months before I got pregnant.

      No snagging intended. I was as surprised as he was. I was prepared to raise the child on my own. He was the one who insisted he wanted to be a family.

      Rita snapped her fingers. “Oh, I read something the other day where someone said something about a man who was ‘just gay enough.’” Rita made air quotes with her fingers. “That’s how I always thought of Blake.”

      I must have made a face because she grimaced. “Sorry. I probably shouldn’t have said that.”

      Afterward, we mostly walked in silence.

      Blake wasn’t home when I walked into the dark house Saturday night. He slinked in rather sheepishly Sunday, late morning.

      I sat in the living room trying—unsuccessfully—to distract myself with a biography on the artist Georgia O’Keeffe when he walked in.

      He flinched when he saw me and shoved his hands in his pockets. Dark circles under his eyes hinted he hadn’t slept well.

      “I’m sorry,” he murmured, looking stiff and pale and a little bewildered standing there in his pressed khakis, crisp kelly green polo and navy blue espadrilles that once seemed so Palm Beach, but now just looked…

      I wondered where he stayed last night and how his clothing could look so fresh given the circumstances, but I refused to ask.

      His gaze darted around the living room, looking everywhere but at me. He seemed so frazzled, like if I made a loud noise or erratic gesture he’d jump out of his skin.

      It took a few beats to find my voice. “Why didn’t you tell me, Blake? How could you let me find out like this?”

      At least he had the decency to hang his head. “What was I supposed to say?”

      “Something.” I set the book on the end table and pulled my knees to my chest. “For God’s sake, anything would have been better than letting me read it in the newspaper.”

      He didn’t reply, just raked his hand through his hair—he always messed with his hair when he was anxious—and stared at his espadrilles. I worried the fabric of my pink velour sweatpants.

      “I didn’t know it was going to be in the paper,” he murmured so softly I could barely hear him.

      I traced a zigzag in my pants’ velvetlike texture and decided he was probably telling the truth.

      The paper said his partner in crime was a high-school coach who’d been arrested twice for public indecency. The story admonished the county for its lax screening of teachers more than it focused on exposing the men who meet at Live Oak Park to exchange sexual favors.

      Of course. Blake’s name and mug shot made the paper because he made the fateful choice of having sex with the wrong man.

      “Was this the first time, Blake, or have there been others?”

      He took a deep breath and closed his eyes. “Do you really want me to answer that?”

      “Never mind, you just did.” Tears welled in the corners of my eyes.

      “Would it make a difference if I said it was just a onetime mistake?”

      I gritted my teeth before I answered.

      “Do you want it to make a difference?”

      I didn’t hate myself for asking the question as much as I loathed the tiny spark of hope his words ignited. Was it just a onetime mistake? I held my breath, waiting for his answer.

      All that followed was silence like cold water dousing an ember of hope.

      Hope? Good God.

      A bomb had detonated in our marriage leaving nothing but rubble; everything we’d built together blown to bits by his wanton act of selfishness. It nauseated me to think about it. More than that, it made me angry.

      “We have to call Ben,” I said. “Right now.”

      His gaze snapped to mine, a look of utter terror on his face.

      I put my bare feet on the floor and pushed forward on the chair. “Blake, the story was in the paper, and it affects our son as much as you and me. People who know him have probably read it, and some wiseass is bound to call or e-mail him sooner or later and say, Hey, I heard about your dad. It’s better he hears it from us first.”

      Blake closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose. “It’s Sunday morning. We won’t catch him in.”

      I threw up my hands.

      “Call his cell phone. He always carries it.”

      Blake shrugged, deflated. “Okay. Fine. Let’s get it over with.”

      I turned off the reading lamp, which left the living room with its drawn curtains sad and dark. I tried to ignore the tightening knot in my stomach as I followed him into the kitchen.

      “His cell phone is number one on speed dial.”

      Blake’s shoulders rose and fell on a noisy shallow breath. He kept his back to me as he picked up the phone and dialed. Every muscle in my body tensed, making me second-guess myself. Were we doing this the right way? Panic screamed and threatened to put me in a headlock. Perhaps we shouldn’t break the bad news over the phone.

      Ben was in school at the University of Montana. It wasn’t as if we could drop by and tell him in person. He’d come home for spring break just two weeks ago and wouldn’t be home again until summer. What other choice did we have but to tell him over the phone?

      “Hello, Ben? It’s Dad. Did I wake you?…Oh, yes, I’m fine…She’s fine, too. And you?”

      He listened for a minute. I edged closer to see if I could hear what Ben was saying. I couldn’t, but I noticed Blake’s free hand shook as he raked it through his hair.

      My God, he was really a wreck over this. I hadn’t realized it until then.

      I turned away and straightened my Eiffel Tower refrigerator magnet. Why was I feeling sorry for him? This was his fault. Facing the refrigerator, I folded my arms as if I could block out the emotions that were weakening me.

      Then the stupidest thought barreled through my mind. What if, faced with dismantling his family, Blake realized the enormity of his mistake?

      I mean he screwed up—and how—but should we have talked about it a little more before we told Ben?

      I’d pushed Blake to make the call, and even though I truly had Ben’s best interest at heart, part of me wanted to see Blake squirm to punish him.

      He was squirming.

      My God, the man was shaking.

      Admitting a mistake of this magnitude to your son must be second only to confessing to God. Well, maybe it was tied for second because he seemed pretty wrecked that I knew—

      “I’m


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