City of Jasmine. Deanna Raybourn
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looked at the photograph. The edge was charred, but the image was clear. Gabriel’s expression was as inscrutable as I remembered. “No,” I said finally. “Oh, it’s tempting, I’ll grant you that. But we still have the tour to finish.”
I waited for Wally to contradict me, but he didn’t. A change of subject was in order.
I nodded towards his own letters. “What did your father have to say?” I asked.
He slumped further into his chair, crossing his long legs at the ankle and staring up at the ceiling. “Much as I expected. I must marry. I must have sons.”
“Same song, second verse,” I said lightly.
He lowered his head and smiled. “Oh, a new tune, though. He’s threatening to cut off my allowance.”
He passed me the letter and I skimmed it quickly. Certain damning phrases jumped out at me...wasting your life...feckless...dishonour to the name...not much time...doctor not optimistic. I gave it back to him.
“I’m so sorry, Wally. What will you do?”
He shrugged. “What can I do? I must go home to Mistledown. I can hold him off for the last leg of the trip, but no more adventures after that, I’m afraid. Egypt will be the end of the road for me, love.”
I slipped to the floor and put my head on his knee. He ran an absent hand through my short curls. “I ought to take him at his word and marry you,” he said after a while.
“That’s the whisky talking.” I turned my head to look at him. “Have you ever considered telling him the truth?”
His smile was sad and distant as a martyred saint’s. “Telling the Right Honourable Viscount Walters that his only son and heir is a poof? Have a heart, dear girl. He’s already got one foot tickling the grave. That would finish him off.”
“I imagine you’re right.”
He sipped thoughtfully at his drink. “I suppose we could get married, though. I would get respectability and you’d have a lovely title to lord over all those nasty people who have nothing better to do than gossip about you.”
I slipped my hand into his. “Putting one over on the society cats is hardly reason enough to get married.”
“With you I could provide the estate with an heir,” he mused.
“But would you want to?”
He reached down and kissed my cheek. “No. Not even with you, and I adore you. I’ll simply have to go back to Mistledown and make the best of things. I shall be a proper lord of the manor, and when the time comes, it will all pass to a feeble-minded cousin in Ireland.”
“Is he really feeble-minded?”
“Well, he’s Irish, so it’s difficult to tell,” he said with a twinkle. I slapped at his leg.
“Don’t be catty.” I picked up the photograph. “I can tell you think I’m an awful fool for not going to Damascus.”
“Yes, I do.”
“But why?”
Wally leaned down and put his cheek against mine. “Because somewhere in your very large, very tender heart, you are hoping it was all a terrible mistake and that he is alive.”
I reared back as if he’d struck me. “Hoping! What an extraordinary thing to say.”
“But a truthful one. Evie, everyone else sees the brave face. Everyone else sees the big smile and the plucky girl who flies her little plane and waves for the cameras and flogs boots and face cream. But I see everything else. I see the shadows under your eyes when you’ve sat up half the night thinking about him. I see the hunted expression you get anytime his name is mentioned. And I see that somewhere beneath the sophisticated, glamorous façade of the barnstormer who crosses the globe with nothing but her dancing slippers and her best lipstick is the heartbroken girl whose husband called her bluff and left her sitting on a ship when she thought he would come crawling back.”
I blinked back unshed tears, my throat tight and hot. “Damn you.”
“People are always damning me,” he said with a sigh. “And it’s always because I’m right.”
I looked at the photograph again. “Do you really think he’s there?”
He shrugged. “I haven’t the faintest idea. The point is it doesn’t really matter, dear girl. What counts is that you find some answers once and for all. You’ve spent the last five years running away from everything, dashing off on another trip just so you wouldn’t have to think about how you were going to pay the butcher or the baker.”
“You forgot the candlestick maker. And you’re quite wrong, you know. Those trips were how I paid the bills.”
“Nonsense. You could have learned to type and taken a nice job in an office somewhere. You could have married again. You could have accepted the annuity Gabriel left you. There were a hundred other ways to keep a roof over your head, my love, and you managed to choose the only way that kept you running. Well, it’s time to stop. Face down your ghosts. Exorcise them once and for all. Forgive them, forgive yourself and get on with the business of living.”
I thought a long moment. “And what if Gabriel isn’t a ghost? What if he really is alive?”
“Then you must find him and demand answers. You deserve them.”
“I suppose so,” I said slowly. “I imagine I could get one of the newspapers to underwrite a detour before the Caspian flight. Aunt Dove’s most successful book was her memoir of travels in the Levant in the ’80s. I could tell them we’re retracing her steps, meeting up with old friends, that sort of thing. I could promise some camel caravans and desert nomads for local colour. They’d lap that up. And I know she would love to see her old friends. I could tell her I want a little rest before the rigors of the Caspian trip.”
“See? You’re two steps ahead as usual, winkling out the difficulties. You’re halfway to Damascus already.”
I smiled. “You’re right, of course. I do deserve an end to it. If Gabriel’s gone, I ought to be able to put him behind me once and for all. And if he’s alive...” I hesitated then gave him a broad smile. “If he’s alive, I’ll let you hold him down while I thrash him.”
“Excellent notion. I’d love nothing better than to get a few licks in myself. I’ve always hated him.”
“Why should you hate him, Wally? You never even met him.”
He shrugged. “He had everything I ever wanted in life and left it on a ship out of Shanghai. I could kill him on that score alone.”
I jumped up and kissed him on the cheek. “You don’t really want me,” I reminded him. “I am not at all your type.”
“Oh, but how I wish you were.”
Two
The next day the editor of a newspaper in Los Angeles came through with tickets for the Orient Express, and Aunt Dove began to pack. She insisted on bringing Arthur along—“Roman air is insalubrious to parrots, dear”—and I left her to go in search of Wally. He was still tinkering with the Jolly Roger, whistling a bit of jazz as he worked.
“How’s my darling?” I called, patting her wing. It had been my idea to paint her to resemble a pirate flag. The black highlights lent her a certain gravitas while the dazzling white skull and crossbones on her tail said I meant business.
Wally looked up from the engine. “Your aeroplane is fine and so am I, thanks for asking.”
“Can I fly her to Venice?”
“Depends. Do you feel like landing her in the lagoon? Venice is water, pet.”
I pulled a face. “Not the Veneto. There’s a darling little airfield