Persuasion. Brenda Joyce
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know when they will hold the funeral?”
“I heard that they will have a service at the St. Just chapel on Sunday, but she will be buried in the family mausoleum in London.”
She tensed. It was already Friday! And there was Grenville, with his dark eyes and dark hair, assailing her in her mind’s eye another time. She wet her lips. “I have to attend. So do you.”
“Yes. We can go together.”
She looked at him, her heart lurching. She could not stop her thoughts. On Sunday she would see Simon for the first time in ten years.
* * *
AMELIA SAT WITH LUCAS and Momma in their carriage, clutching her gloved hands tightly together. She could not believe the amount of tension within her. She could barely breathe.
It was noon on Sunday. In another half an hour, the service for Elizabeth Grenville would begin.
St. Just Hall was in sight.
It was a huge manor that was entirely out of place in Cornwall. Built of pale stone, the central part of the house was three stories high, with four huge alabaster columns gracing the entrance. A lower, two-story wing was on the landward side, with sloping slate roofs. At the farthest end was the chapel, replete with its own courtyard, columns gracing the facade and corner towers abutting the adjacent entry.
Tall, black leafless trees surrounded the house. The grounds were equally barren from the long winter, but in May, the gardens would start to bloom. By the summer, the grounds would be a canvas of rioting color, the trees lush and green, the maze of hedges behind the house almost impossible to escape.
Amelia knew all of that firsthand.
She must not remember being lost in that maze now. She must not remember being breathless and giddy, and then Simon had turned the corner, sweeping her into his arms...
She shut off her thoughts, shaken, as their carriage moved up the graveled drive, following two dozen other vehicles. The entire parish would turn out for Lady Grenville’s funeral. Farmers would stand side by side with squires.
And in a few more minutes, she would see Grenville again.
“Is it a ball?” Momma asked excitedly. “Oh, darling, are we going to a ball?”
Lucas patted her hand. “Momma, it is I, Lucas, and, no, we are attending the funeral for Lady Grenville.”
Momma was a tiny, gray-haired woman, even smaller than Amelia. She stared blankly at Lucas. Amelia was no longer saddened by her condition. She was so rarely coherent these days. As she often did, Momma thought herself a young debutante again, and that Lucas was either their father or one of her previous beaux.
Amelia stared out of her carriage window as Momma sat between her and Lucas. She had done her best, these past two days, to focus on the tasks at hand. She had a huge list to get through if she were to close up the manor and remove herself and Momma to town. She had already written Julianne, apprising her of the current events. She had begun to pack up linens, store preserves and put away their winter clothing, and organize what they would need for a season in town. Keeping busy had been a relief. From time to time she had worried about Lady Grenville’s children, but she had managed not to think about St. Just, not even once—but his dark, handsome face continually lurked in the back of her mind.
There was no denying her anxiety now. She was riddled with tension and she could barely breathe. Yet it was absurd. So what if they came face-to-face again after all these years? He was not going to recognize her, and if he did, he would not even recall their foolish flirtation—she was certain.
But images from that long-ago affair kept trying to creep into her whirling thoughts as her carriage moved forward. The urge to indulge in those memories had begun the moment she had arisen at dawn.
Amelia knew that she must keep her wits about her. But she had begun to remember how crushed she had truly been when she had learned that he had left Cornwall. Not only hadn’t he said goodbye, he hadn’t even left a note.
She was beginning to remember the weeks of heartache and grief; the nights she had cried herself to sleep.
She had to behave with pride and dignity now. She had to remember that they were neighbors, and nothing more. She hugged herself.
“Are you all right?” Lucas’s grim voice cut into her thoughts.
She didn’t try to force a smile. “I am glad we are here. I hope I have a moment to meet the children before the service begins. They are my most pressing concern.”
“Children do not attend balls,” Momma said firmly.
Amelia smiled at her. “Of course they don’t.” She turned back to Lucas.
He said, “You seem very tense.”
“I have been so preoccupied with getting everything done before we leave for town,” she lied. “I feel as if I am on pins and needles.” She smiled at Momma. “Won’t it be wonderful, to go back to town?”
Momma’s eyes widened. “Are we going to town?” She was delighted.
Amelia took her hand and squeezed it. “Yes, we are, as soon as we can be ready.”
Lucas’s stare seemed skeptical. “You know, if you are thinking about the past, no one would blame you.”
She choked as she released her mother’s hand. “I beg your pardon?”
“It was long ago, but I haven’t forgotten how he played you.” His gaze narrowed. “He broke your heart, Amelia.”
“I was sixteen!” she gasped. Lucas clearly hadn’t forgotten a thing. “That was ten years ago!”
“Yes, it was. And he hasn’t been back in all that time, not even once, so I imagine you might be somewhat nervous. Are you?”
She flushed. Lucas knew her so well, and while she did not keep secrets from him, he hardly had to know that she was foolishly anxious now. “Lucas, I forgot the past a long time ago.”
“Good.” He was firm. “I am glad to hear that!” He added, “I’ve never said anything, but I’ve seen him now and then, in town. It has been cordial. There did not seem a point in holding a grudge, not after so many years.”
She whispered, “You are right—there is no point in holding any kind of grudge. Our lives took different paths.” She hadn’t realized that Lucas had socialized with Grenville, but he was in London often now, so of course their paths would eventually cross. She almost wanted to ask him how Simon was, and how he had changed. But she knew better. She smiled a bit, instead.
He stared for another moment, searching her gaze with his own. “Well, something is keeping him. My understanding is that he has yet to arrive at St. Just Hall.”
Amelia was disbelieving. “That is impossible. Wherever he was when Lady Grenville passed, it has been three days. He would certainly be here by now!”
Lucas looked away as their carriage finally halted, not far from the chapel’s courtyard. “The roads are bad at this time of year, but I would agree, he should be here by now.”
She stared blankly. “Surely they will not hold the funeral without St. Just?”
“Everyone in the parish has turned out.”
Amelia looked out of her window. The grounds were cluttered with coaches and carriages of all descriptions. Grenville had to have arranged for the funeral. Only he could postpone it. But if he were not present, how could he do that?
“My God,” she whispered, distraught, “he might miss his own wife’s funeral!”
“Let us hope he arrives at any moment.” Lucas alighted, then turned to help Momma down. He held out his hand for Amelia. Still shocked, Amelia stepped down carefully. Maybe they would not meet that day after all. Was she relieved? If she did not know better, she would almost think that she