Season of Joy. Virginia Carmichael
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met, but who cared for her already? She dropped her gaze as the thought brought sudden tears to her eyes. Could she be loved and not even know it yet?
“That sounds weird to you,” he said lightly, but she heard the hint of something in his voice, maybe disappointment.
“No, not weird.” She looked up at him. “It’s beautiful. I’d never thought of it before, praying for your future spouse.”
“Really?” He sounded surprised.
“Really. I’m pretty new to this.” She waved a hand between their trays, meaning the blessing. He frowned, trying to understand. “Blessing your food, asking for direction in your life.”
He nodded. “How new? Like, today new?”
She laughed. “Not that new!”
He grinned back at her, his broad shoulders relaxing a little. She wished she could tell him that there were years of prayer behind her, that she was a seasoned Christian. But she was practically a newborn, trying to understand what God’s will was in her life.
“New enough.” She sighed. “It’s a long story but I grew up in a place that was less about the truth and more about what made a good show.”
His eyes were sad as he searched her face. “That could be anywhere. I think once pride gets center stage, God’s truth is hard to hear over the noise.”
She nodded, thinking it through. “You’re right. It’s probably a pretty common thing. But I let it get between me and God for a long time.”
“But not anymore.” Grant’s eyes were soft, his biscuit forgotten in his hand.
“No,” she said, unable to keep her smile from spreading as she gazed back. “Not anymore.”
* * *
Calista slipped out the mission’s door into the mid-November chill. She had been so nervous about volunteering that she had forgotten her coat and gloves in the car, but now she felt the wind whip through her expensive sweater. Tucking her hands in her pockets with a shiver, Calista glanced up at the snow-covered Rocky Mountains. It was hard enough to be homeless in the winter, but it was downright deadly in Denver.
She walked to the secure parking behind the mission, hardly noticing the people passing her on the sidewalk. Her mind was full to bursting and she struggled to squelch the feelings Grant brought to the surface. She’d told Lissa the truth; she was way too busy to date and it never worked out anyway. No guy wanted to be known as “Calista Sheffield’s boyfriend” instead of by his own name. There were very few men her age who earned more than her or had more power. The ones who were eager to take on the role were only interested in the boost it gave their own business reputations.
Her mind flashed back to Grant’s face, his appraising glance. He hadn’t seemed interested in her job so he probably didn’t care. That would be a good thing. Her life had become so consumed by her success that she had let her soul wither away. She felt as if she was just a husk, dried up and empty inside. Where there should be something vibrant, something connected to God, there was a pitifully weak, underfed shadow.
But she was ready to change, to let God call the shots for a while. She wanted to feel joy, like the look on Grant’s face when the little girl had practically tackled him with her hug. She pressed the button on her key ring and her Mercedes beeped in response. Sliding into the leather seat and reaching for the buckle, Calista felt her whole self yearn for purpose in her life. Her God was a God of second chances so she didn’t have to wallow around in her sad and lonely life.
Now, if she could just get everybody else to give her a second chance at being a decent human being, then she’d be all set.
Her cell phone trilled in her pocket. And she answered it automatically.
“I’m sending you the report on the new building sites and you have four urgent messages.” The voice on the phone belonged to Jackie, her personal assistant, who sounded calm and collected as usual. She rattled off the messages in rapid-fire.
Calista tucked the cell phone into her shoulder and turned onto the freeway. “Tell Jim Bishop that Branchout Corporation’s new commercial is encroaching on the VitaWow brand and we need to send them a cease and desist letter. Also, get Alicia down to tech support and make them promise not to wipe the hard drive on my laptop ever again. They said they were cleaning it, but all my temporary files disappeared into thin air.” She could hear Jackie typing at a frantic pace.
“How was the appointment?”
“What appointment?” Calista asked, before remembering that she’d told Jackie she had a toothache and was going to the dentist. “Right. The dentist was great. All fixed.”
The sound of Jackie’s laughter made Calista glare at the freeway in front of her.
“This is why I have complete faith in VitaWow’s CEO. You can’t tell a lie to save your life.”
“Why do you think I’m lying?”
“You never forget details, but more importantly, nobody ever says their dental appointment was great.”
Calista let out a sigh. “Fine. I wasn’t at the dentist. But I’ll tell you about it later. This traffic is just crazy in the afternoon.” Cars were slowing to a crawl in front of her. “Good thing I’m always at the office until late. I completely miss rush hour.”
“Are you using your headset?” Jackie asked suddenly.
Calista already had one ticket for cell use while driving. “I was, but I dropped it when I got out of the car and it shattered.”
“New headset,” Jackie mumbled into Calista’s ear as she typed another note. “Okay, I’m hanging up now because it would be extra bad for the company image if you racked up another ticket.”
“All right,” Calista said. “See you on Monday.”
Jackie snorted. “And talk to you tomorrow, you mean. You don’t take weekends off. Which means I don’t, either.”
She frowned, easing into another lane of slow-moving traffic. “Well, that might have been true before. But I’m determined to make it a priority to enjoy some free time. I don’t want to wake up at eighty and realize I worked my life away.”
“I never thought I’d hear you say that. How surprising.”
“Realizing your only friends are people who get paid to talk to you will do that to a girl.”
Jackie laughed and her infectious giggle made Calista grin long-distance. “I thought it was your biological clock ticking away.”
“I’m not that old! I just need to expand my horizons,” she said huffily. But the thought had crossed her mind, right about the time her sister, Elaine, had given birth and Calista had seen the pictures of all her friends gathered to meet the new baby. Calista wanted a family, but she wanted the whole picture. She wanted the faith that brought fullness to life, and the friends to experience it all with her.
“And I mean it about the weekends. I might pop into the office on Saturdays but no more Sunday work. I want to get a real life.”
“Hey, as a card-carrying member of your current life, I don’t appreciate you getting a new one unless I’m in it. But this is sounding stranger and stranger.” Jackie’s voice was still light, but Calista knew her words concealed real worry. And she had cause to be worried because Calista had made no secret of how her hypocritical father had ruined her life.
“It’s a long story.”
“Then Monday it is, and be careful driving in that traffic,” Jackie said, sounding uncharacteristically maternal before she hung up.
Calista focused on the road in front of her and tried not to think of the horror stories she had told Jackie. None of them had been exaggerated.
Her father had been the most respected man in their dusty, Southern