The Star Rover. Jack London
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manhood past.
And again, how? Hypnotism should do it. If by hypnotism the conscious mind were put to sleep, and the subconscious mind awakened, then was the thing accomplished, then would all the dungeon doors of the brain be thrown wide, then would the prisoners emerge into the sunshine.
So I reasoned—with what result you shall learn. But first, I must tell how as a boy I had had these other-world memories. I had glowed in the clouds of glory I trailed from lives aforetime. Like any boy, I had been haunted by the other beings I had been at other times. This had been during my process of becoming, ere the flux of all that I had ever been had hardened in the mold of the one personality that was to be known by men for a few years as Darrell Standing.
Let me narrate just one incident. It was up in Minnesota on the old farm. I was nearly six years old. A missionary to China, returned to the United States and sent out by the Board of Missions to raise funds from the farmers, spent the night in our house. It was in the kitchen just after supper, as my mother was helping me undress for bed, and the missionary was showing photographs of the Holy Land.
And what I am about to tell you, I should long since have forgotten, had I not heard my father recite it to wondering listeners so many times during my childhood.
I cried out at sight of one of the photographs and looked at it, first with eagerness, and then with disappointment. It had seemed of a sudden most familiar, in much the same way that my father's barn would have been in a photograph. Then it had seemed altogether strange. But as I continued to look, the haunting sense of familiarity came back.
"The Tower of David," the missionary said to my mother.
"No!" I cried with great positiveness.
"You mean that isn't its name?" the missionary asked.
I nodded.
"Then what is its name, my boy?"
"Its name is … " I began, then concluded lamely, "I forget.
"It don't look the same now," I went on after a pause. "They've ben fixin' it up awful." Here, the missionary handed to my mother another photograph he had sought out.
"I was there myself six months ago, Mrs. Standing." He pointed with his finger. "That is the Jaffa Gate where I walked in and right up to the Tower of David in the back of the picture where my finger is now. The authorities are pretty well agreed on such matters. El Kul'ah, as it was known by—"
But here I broke in again, pointing to rubbish piles of ruined masonry on the left edge of the photograph.
"Over there somewhere," I said. "That name you just spoke was what the Jews called it. But we called it something else. We called it … I forget."
"Listen to the youngster," my father chuckled. "You'd think he'd teen there."
I nodded my head, for in that moment I knew I had been there, though all seemed strangely different. My father laughed the harder, but the missionary thought I was making game of him. He handed me another photograph. It was just a bleak waste of a landscape, barren of trees and vegetation, a shallow canyon with easy-sloping walls of rubble. In the middle distance was a cluster of wretched, flat-roofed hovels.
"Now, my boy, where is that?" the missionary quizzed.
And the name came to me!
"Samaria," I said instantly.
My father clapped his hands with glee, my mother was perplexed at my antic conduct, while the missionary evinced irritation.
"The boy is right," he said. "It is a village in Samaria. I passed through it. That is why I bought it. And it goes to show that the boy has seen similar photographs before."
This my father and mother denied.
"But it's different in the picture," I volunteered, while all the time my memory was busy reconstructing the photograph. The general trend of the landscape and the line of the distant hills were the same. The differences I noted aloud and pointed out with my finger.
"The houses was about right here, and there was more trees, lots of trees, and lots of grass, and lots of goats. I can see 'em now, an' two boys drivin' 'em. An' right here is a lot of men walkin' behind one man. An' over there"—I pointed to where I had placed my village—"is a lot of tramps. They ain't got nothin' on exceptin' rags. An' they're sick. Their faces, an' hands, an' legs is all sores."
"He's heard the story in church or somewhere—you remember, the healing of the lepers, in Luke," the missionary said with a smile of satisfaction. "How many sick tramps are there, my boy?"
I had learned to count to a hundred when I was five years old, so I went over the group carefully and announced:
"Ten of 'em. They're all wavin' their arms an' yellin' at the other men."
"But they don't come near them?" was the query.
I shook my head. "They just stand right there an' keep a- yellin' like they was in trouble."
"Go on," urged the missionary. "What next? What's the man doing in the front of the other crowd you said was walking along?"
"They've all stopped, an' he's sayin' something to the sick men. An' the boys with the goats 's stopped to look. Everybody's lookin'."
"And then?"
"That's all. The sick men are headin' for the houses. They ain't yellin' any more, an' they don't look sick any more. An' I just keep settin' on my horse a-lookin' on."
At this all three of my listeners broke into laughter.
"An' I'm a big man!" I cried out angrily. "An' I got a big sword!"
"The ten lepers Christ healed before he passed through Jericho on his way to Jerusalem," the missionary explained to my parents. "The boy has seen slides of famous paintings in some magic-lantern exhibition."
But neither Father nor Mother could remember that I had ever seen a magic lantern.
"Try him with another picture," Father suggested.
"It's all different," I complained as I studied the photograph the missionary handed me. "Ain't nothin' except that hill and them other hills. This ought to be a county road along here. An' over there ought to be gardens, an' trees, an' houses behind big stone walls. An' over there, on the other side, in holes in the rocks ought to be where they buried dead folks. You see this place?—They used to throw stones at people there until they killed 'em. I never seen 'em do it. They just told me about it."
"And the hill?" the missionary asked, pointing to the central part of the print, for which the photograph seemed to have been taken. "Can you tell us the name of the hill?"
I shook my head.
"Never had no name. They killed folks there. I've seen 'm more 'n once."
"This time he agrees with the majority of the authorities," announced the missionary with huge satisfaction. "The hill is Golgotha, the Place of Skulls, or, as you please, so named because it resembles a skull. Notice the resemblance. That is where they crucified?" He broke off and turned to me. "Whom did they crucify there, young scholar? Tell us what else you see."
Oh, I saw—my father reported that my eyes were bulging; but I shook my head stubbornly and said:
"I ain't a-goin' to tell you because you're laughin' at me. I seen lots an' lots of men killed there. They nailed 'em up, an' it took a long time. I seen—but I ain't a-goin' to tell. I don't tell lies. You ask Dad an' Ma if I tell lies. He'd whale the stuffin' out of me if I did. Ask 'm."
And thereat not another word could the missionary get from me, even though he baited me with more photographs that sent my head whirling with a rush of memory pictures and that urged and tickled my tongue with spates of speech which I sullenly resisted and overcame.
"He will certainly make a good bible scholar," the missionary told Father and Mother after I had kissed them good night and departed for bed. "Or else, with that imagination, he'll become a successful fiction writer."
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