“Our daughter was adopted: she came to live with us when she was one. We don’t even know what her babyhood was like – we suspect it was pretty terrible. She had quite a lot of issues growing up. But we loved her relentlessly and patiently, and knew she needed lots of reassurance, routine, lots of cuddles, lots of building up. We had read in Steve’s books that at the age of thirteen children ‘recycle’ their babyhood, or have a second babyhood, that makes them more open to love and affection. So we babied her a lot at that age. By fourteen she was completely out of that stage, and she has been going great ever since. She’ll always be a rather intense girl, I think, but her life is going fine.”

       Mark, 48 and Amy, 42

       “When my baby was one, I had to leave China for a year to study in the US. Our baby stayed with her grandma. When I came home, it was to have a second new baby. So our relationship is quite wobbly. She was fine with her grandma, but can’t live with her now. I am not sure that my career path has been good for her, and hope I can make it up to her.”

       Guan-yin, 38

      Loving small children is natural – we have hormones like oxytocin which help us to feel melty and soft when we are around them. But that doesn’t mean that the caring role comes naturally to everyone, because though the feeling may be there, the doing of it has to be learned. If we haven’t seen or experienced how loving is done, we might actually be quite tense and awkward in expressing our love for our baby. (Sometimes a mother or father feels almost nothing at all towards their new baby, and has to start gradually by getting to know them, and being helped with outside support to do this.) Almost everyone today has gaps in their ability to love, but don’t worry about this because, rather like a fire, you can create and kindle the beginnings and it starts to take off by itself.

      There are two things that increase the capacity for love in your family. These love sources are:

       1. Slowing down your world.

       2. Getting into the river of love.

      Let’s explain what these mean …

       Slowing Down

       THE SECRET OF WHERE LOVE GROWS

      When I talk to audiences of parents, I watch and listen closely. Some ideas make people go quiet. Some make them laugh out loud. Some make the room light up with acknowledgement – of ‘Yes, that’s right!’. A good example of that last one is that HURRY IS THE ENEMY OF LOVE. When we are rushing through our lives, our interactions get more and more jarring and unsatisfying, even insensitive. The warmth and harmony between us disappears. Husbands and wives stop getting along. Parents and children annoy and irritate each other. Love is there, but it’s eaten away by not quite being attuned to each other, and so things go badly. Reaffirming closeness, understanding ‘where each other is at’, takes time. If you have children, especially small ones, then slowness is essential to love being able to grow.

      For love to exist between a parent and child (or adult and adult) they have to first feel settled and present. You have to be tuned in – to yourself, and to them.

      The sequence for making human connection is timeless. It can only go in this order. You settle down. You breathe and your shoulders relax and you sink into the chair. You begin to feel at home inside yourself. (Sometimes you realize – ‘I am really hungry’, or ‘I need a wee!’ It might be good to fix this!) Now, there is this baby, or toddler, or older child in front of you. From your feeling of OK-ness in yourself, you reach out to them. Perhaps they are fretting and anxious, or needy, or wanting to talk to you or get your help. Because you are OK on the inside, and have the time, their distress doesn’t distress you. You care about them, and are happy to help.

      So you soothe them with words or touch, and they feel that you are calm, so they start to calm down too. (Babies and toddlers can’t regulate their own emotions. Many times a day, a baby or small child will ‘freak out’ at something strange, a loud noise, a stranger, falling and hurting themselves, a frustration they encounter, not getting what they want, or just some reason you or they can’t even figure out. A lot of what we do as parents is soothing these reactions, just holding them patiently as they let those feelings abate, and letting them settle, so they find a way out of their distress. After several years of us providing this, the pathways in their mind to a calmer state will be well trodden, and they will be able to do this for themselves.) If your child is old enough to talk, of course it’s easier: you listen to their worries, or help in a practical way, but you still keep that calm sense of attention and patience. They feel loved and noticed. They don’t need to be naughty or difficult to get your attention.

      But this means you must not be busy! Which is tough, because the big world wants you to rush – timetables, bills, appointments, lessons and meals are all crowding in. It wants you to earn money, spend money, buy stuff you don’t need, be always on the go with self-improving activities, rushing kids to classes and sports and so on. Life is just so complicated and full – how can we do it without rush? And yet, when we rush, things always go wrong. Have you noticed that?

       “I noticed something about myself – that I had a hurried feeling on the inside nearly all the time. It occurred to me – could I do things, even busy things, and be very active, but have a peaceful inside as I was doing it? Gradually I realized that I could. It meant being really mindful, and cultivating that feeling. You can be fast, but peaceful, for short bursts at least. You have to stop making yourself all stressy, stop being in the victim position. It’s rather good to enjoy getting a lot done while feeling good on the inside. But I still prefer lying around when I can!”

       Serena, 40