The Complete Works: Poetry, Plays, Letters and Extensive Biographies. John Keats
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bliss even in hope is there for thee?
‘What haven? every creature hath its home;
‘Every sole man hath days of joy and pain,
‘Whether his labours be sublime or low
‘The pain alone; the joy alone; distinct:
‘Only the dreamer venoms all his days,
‘Bearing more woe than all his sins deserve.
‘Therefore, that happiness be somewhat shar’d,
‘Such things as thou art are admitted oft
‘Into like gardens thou didst pass erewhile,
‘And suffer’d in these temples: for that cause
‘Thou standest safe beneath this statue’s knees.’
‘That I am favour’d for unworthiness,
‘By such propitious parley medicin’d
‘In sickness not ignoble, I rejoice,
‘Aye, and could weep for love of such award.’
So answer’d I, continuing, ‘If it please,
‘Majestic shadow, tell me: sure not all
‘Those melodies sung into the world’s ear
‘Are useless: sure a poet is a sage;
‘A humanist, physician to all men.
‘That I am none I feel, as vultures feel
‘They are no birds when eagles are abroad.
‘What am I then? Thou spakest of my tribe:
‘What tribe?’ The tall shade veil’d in drooping white
Then spake, so much more earnest, that the breath
Moved the thin linen folds that drooping hung
About a golden censer from the hand
Pendent. ‘Art thou not of the dreamer tribe?
‘The poet and the dreamer are distinct,
‘Diverse, sheer opposite, antipodes.
‘The one pours out a balm upon the world,
‘The other vexes it.’ Then shouted I
Spite of myself, and with a Pythia’s spleen,
‘Apollo! faded! O far flown Apollo!
‘Where is thy misty pestilence to creep
‘Into the dwellings, through the door crannies
‘Of all mock lyrists, large self worshipers,
‘And careless Hectorers in proud bad verse.
‘Though I breathe death with them it will be life
‘To see them sprawl before me into graves.
‘Majestic shadow, tell me where I am,
‘Whose altar this; for whom this incense curls;
‘What image this whose face I cannot see,
‘For the broad marble knees; and who thou art,
‘Of accent feminine so courteous?’
Then the tall shade, in drooping linens veil’d,
Spoke out, so much more earnest, that her breath
Stirr’d the thin folds of gauze that drooping hung
About a golden censer from her hand
Pendent; and by her voice I knew she shed
Long treasured tears. ‘This temple, sad and lone,
‘Is all spar’d from the thunder of a war
‘Foughten long since by giant hierarchy
‘Against rebellion: this old image here,
‘Whose carved features wrinkled as he fell,
‘Is Saturn’s; I Moneta, left supreme
‘Sole priestess of this desolation.’
I had no words to answer, for my tongue,
Useless, could find about its roofed home
No syllable of a fit majesty
To make rejoinder to Moneta’s mourn.
There was a silence, while the altar’s blaze
Was fainting for sweet food: I look’d thereon,
And on the paved floor, where nigh were piled
Faggots of cinnamon, and many heaps
Of other crisped spice wood then again
I look’d upon the altar, and its horns
Whiten’d with ashes, and its lang’rous flame,
And then upon the offerings again;
And so by turns till sad Moneta cried,
‘The sacrifice is done, but not the less
‘Will I be kind to thee for thy good will.
‘My power, which to me is still a curse,
‘Shall be to thee a wonder; for the scenes
‘Still swooning vivid through my globed brain
‘With an electral changing misery
‘Thou shalt with those dull mortal eyes behold,
‘Free from all pain, if wonder pain thee not.’
As near as an immortal’s sphered words
Could to a mother’s soften, were these last:
And yet I had a terror of her robes,
And chiefly of the veils, that from her brow
Hung pale, and curtain’d her in mysteries
That made my heart too small to hold its blood.
This saw that Goddess, and with sacred hand
Parted the veils. Then saw I a wan face,
Not pin’d by human sorrows, but bright blanch’d
By an immortal sickness which kills not;
It works a constant change, which happy death
Can put no end to; deathwards progressing
To no death was that visage; it had pass’d
The lily and the snow; and beyond these
I must not think now, though I saw that face
But for her eyes I should have fled away.
They held me back, with a benignant light
Soft mitigated by divinest lids
Half closed, and visionless entire they seem’d
Of all external things; they saw me not,
But in blank splendour beam’d like the mild moon,
Who comforts those she sees not, who knows not
What eyes are upward cast. As I had found
A grain of gold upon a mountain side,
And twing’d with avarice strain’d out my eyes
To search its sullen entrails rich with ore,
So at the view of sad Moneta’s brow
I ach’d to see what things the hollow brain
Behind enwombed: what high tragedy
In the dark secret chambers of her skull
Was acting, that could give so dread a stress
To her cold lips, and fill with such a light
Her planetary eyes, and touch her voice
With such a sorrow ‘Shade of Memory!’
Cried I, with act adorant at