Anna and the Black Knight: Incorporating Anna’s Book. Fynn
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wasnt but that is what they said and then they got greedy and greedy and then start to hit each other and throw stomes and make boms. Because the little GOD grow up and got so big that they culdn’t see him and they neerly forgot him.
So a lot of people make a statoor of GOD small enogh to see and then another lot of people make another statoor of GOD and then they fite to see what statoor is best. And they make boms and guns and a lot of peple is hurt and it is very silly because Mister God is much bigger than statoors.
Well, Mister God luvs peple very much, so he says ‘I know what, people cant see me because I am too big, so I will send my little baby boy who is the rite sise’. So he send his little baby boy who is called Jether to a lady called Mary to luk arfter and Mister God say ‘That is all rite now, Jether is just the rite sise’. And you would think that was the end, would not you? Arfter all the trubble Mister God tuk, woodnt you? But it wasn’t, Oh no!
Anna very rarely used the name Jesus; she preferred the name Jether, which she found in the Concordance. This is the next name in the list of proper names in the Concordance. Its meaning is ‘He that excels or remains; or that examines, searches: or a line or string.’
It was the idea of ‘line or string’ that so attracted Anna. We had often spent hours lying on the deck of a deep water sailing vessel, listening to Niels’s explanation of what all the ropes and gear were for. The fact that every rope had a place and a purpose, and that Englishmen, Frenchmen and Germans, every nationality, understood where the rope for a certain sail was to be found, was sufficient for Anna to rename Jesus as Jether. Kurt, a German sailor, told Anna she was ‘wider sinn’, that is to say, ‘against the sense’.
When Jether was a man, he started to tell all the peple about Mister God, but a lot of peple didnt want to here because first Mister God was too big and then he was too little and peple are eccasperating. They dont know what they want. And Jether keep on telling the people ‘You have got to becum little Or you wont know’. And they want to be big alredy, And you cant, becase Fansy being born full sise! Then a lot of people cort Jether and put nales in him and stuck him on a tree and stuck sords in him and then he was ded. All because he wasnt big enogh. Some of the people nearly know him, but not qite and like the statoors of Mister God they was rong. So they had another fite and this time a . worse fite called a war and this time with tank and aroplane and peple keep on fiteing because they dont know what sise they are and they are silly, becase Mister God and Jether and Vrach and all the angels are so luving. So I will tell you sum story about them.
Vrach was Anna’s own spelling of the Hebrew word Ruach, meaning spirit or breath, which was used in the Old Testament but linked with the Holy Spirit of the New Testament. I was surprised these words – Vrach, Jether – were so important to her, but felt that she had to find her way, in her own words, in her relationship with Mister God.
If you dont know what Mister God and Jether and Vrach look like I will tell you. Now I will tell you about Mister God first. He dont luk like me and you. He has not go no arms and legs and no face and no body like me and you so you will know he luk diffrent but he luk very luvley all the sam.
If you go for a walk you see a lot of things and you think a lot of things in yore hed. Well one of the things you think of is going home. So then you think it is a long way away and all the thinks is insid you and yore home is outsid you. So when you go home, all you think cum out of you and yor home go insid you, you see. Wen I am not with Mummy I have a lot of think in my hed, I think I wish I culd hold Mummy hand and I wish I culd kiss Mummy and I wish I culd tuch Mummy, but it all stay in my hed. But when I go home, it all come out of my hed, becase I do it. And when I do, Mummy go insid me and I go insid Mummy. If I dont go insid Mummy, how can I luk at me because I luk the wrong way. So when I luv Mummy then I go insid her and luk out out of her eye and see me and see how much Mummy luv me and this is very nice and thriling.
If someone luv you they let you cum insid. But if they dont luv you, they dont. Well Mister GOD is like that to. He let you com insid and see yourself, but you got to let MISTER GOD cum in too, becase he want to luk out to see himself. You see, MISTER GOD dont like no reflekshun and if he dont luk out of peples eye, how do he know what peple think of him? and this is the only way MISTER GOD can see himself. If you luk in a luking glas and see yor face reflekshun and then wink yore rite eye, the reflekshun wink the othre one, but if you see your reflekshun wink its rite eye then you know it is not a reflekshun, but you.
This is a story of Fin. Some people do not know how Fin is and I am sad for that because Fin is the best person in all of the world. Fin is very big and very strong but he is very delikat and very gentle. And he can frow me rigte up in the air like a bal and catsh me too. He is like a butefall flowre made from stone.
Fin say if you live in a howse and you let the window get sploshd and dirty and if you look out of the window it look like the world is dirty, but it is not. If you look inside it look dirty too but it is not dirty becase the window is dirty. Well I will say sum more of Fin becase Fin say all of the peple have two windows. First all peple have got eye window and then a hart window. The eye window is to look out and seen thing from and the hart window is to see inside to see you. Fin say wen you cry it is for to wash the window so you can see better.
One day I ask Fin for som sweet and Fin say no and I was sad and I cry som ters and I cry some ters to wash my eye window becas my eye window was all dirty, dirty with greedy for sweets. And Fin did not say nothing and Fin piket me up and put me to a luking glas to see my face reflecshun and it was all funy like rain on a hows window. And I culd not see proper and then I stop the cry and see Fin face reflecshun and it was all smilig. And so I smile too and then I see my eye sparklin becas I can see good. And then I see that Fin say no, becas he have got no mony, becas he give it all to Missis Barkr to buy som penuts to sell to get som mony to buy som food and I did not see good, becase I have got a dirty eye window and it was all splosht with greedy dirty.
Mrs Barker was a little old lady who sold peanuts outside the cinemas called the Coliseum and the Palladium in the Mile End Road. One day I found her without any stock – so we took a tram towards Aldgate and bought about £3 worth of peanuts, which we brought back to her.
Everybody has got a eye window and a hart window. Fin teech me how to clean my eye window and my hart window. And if you know Fin then you have got a very speshal Fin window. And this is very nice to have. If you take some dirt to Fin he say about it and make it lik dimons and if you take to Fin a tram tiket he make it like a butefall piktur. Fin is very very speshal and very very butefall but you have to be little inside or you can not see propre.
Anna and I explored dirt under the microscope, where anything seemed to be transformed. The tram tickets were of different colours and collected from the streets very easily, so they could be used to make patterns, or folded into complicated paper chains and even turned into Christmas decorations.
One day Fin was very sad becase Danny was kild with a big stiker (knife). So in the nighte I crep in bed with Fin. Fin go to slep and I then see the ters on his face becase we have a stret lighte in the stret to see with. I cry a bit too becase I was sad for Danny.
There is on thing abot Fin. A lot of time he is not full up with his self but is full up of some othre people. Som time he is just full up of his self. I like this time best of all becase I do not want to see no thing els and I am full up of laghin. I ask Fin can I have a nothre name and Fin say yes I can have two names. One is Mowse, becase Fin say I crep in his hart and make a nest ther. And the nothre name is Joy becase I make him hapy and I am very glad for that becase that is very